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Clare's nails bit into the rubber of her handlebars as she walked away. She silently fought a battle with herself I am not going to cry, I am not going to cry she demanded of herself. But it was no use the words were stuck in her brain, This isn't who you are.

As Clare reached her house she roughly rubbed the tears from her cheeks with the sleeve of her sweater and walked in.

"Clare where were you?" her mother began. When she saw Clare's face she reached out to take Clare's hand and started to speak but was cut off as Clare jerked her hand back.

"You know what mom? You were right. Be glad you never took the risk. You probably saved yourself a lot of trouble." Clare announced before stomping p to her room.

Once upstairs Clare jerked open her door stepped inside and slammed it shut quickly to deter her mother from following. She fell into the chair at her desk buried her face in her arms and cried. She cried at the humiliation she felt because of Eli, the anger she felt at her parents, and the pain she felt at losing her best friend.

"God I wish I could talk to Alli" she sobbed into her arms.

She sat and trying to pull herself together and pulled her hands down her face. Clare felt the cool band against her cheek and put her hand in front of her. Why do I wear this thing? What is the point? You made a promise to God . She silently answered herself.

Yeah I promised. She thought. I promised to stay pure until I'm married. But my parents promised God to love each other until death parted them. Why do I have to keep my promises if they don't? Everyone breaks promises, now it's my turn. Eli doesn't want me, that's fine but I don't want this ring on my finger any more. Clare pulled the small golden ring from her finger opened her top desk drawer and dropped in inside.

Eli walked back inside and quietly closed the door behind him.

"Who was at the door?" CeCe asked.

"I don't know." Eli answered exhaling a shaky breath.

"Well you were out there talking a long time to someone you don't know." CeCe returned with a knowing smile.

"Mom, I thought I knew her but I was wrong." he answered and began to make his way up to his room.

Eli flopped onto his bed and placed his ear buds in his ears. The sounds of Dead Hand filled his ears but unfortunately for him couldn't fill his mind. All he could see was Clare's soft face as she said "I want to be with you."

He couldn't deny the fact that his pants felt suddenly tight. How could I turn her away? I should have let her come in, I didn't have to sleep with her. He told himself but he knew better.

He knew if he had Clare in his room…in his bed…in his arms and those big blue eyes bore into him searching to feel loved he would have given in. He would have taken her and she would hate him for it. Just like Julia did.

He couldn't change what happened between him and Julia. The words returned to him before he could block them. This is all your fault. You're such a fucking slut. He had screamed at her. The picture of Julia's face as he said the hateful words he would never forget.

It was the last time he saw her face and it was twisted with tears. He had broken her heart with those words, he knew that, it had been his goal. He wanted to hurt her. But not Clare he didn't think her heart was broken he thought he had just bruised her pride. He planned to talk to her and make her understand.

Hell, if he had to he would tell her about the fight with Julia. She may hate me if she knows everything. He thought. But that's better than hating me for doing the same thing to her.

Eli's eyes were beginning to shut. Sleep was overtaking him as he decided what he would say to Clare. Tomorrow.

I hope someone enjoyed this. This is the first story I have written in a while. I thought it was time to shake of the dust and Eclare is such a love story how could you not want to write them! I'm deciding if I should add to this or just make a oneshot.

Please review and let me know what you think.

~sparkes