Descrubimos vos y yo,
The HiME star marked me, as it did the others. Our destinies were changed and so were our hearts.
En el triste carnaval,
When I first met Natsuki, I never imagined something so horrid would happen...could happen, to us. I was always untouchable and my smiling facade fooled everyone, sometimes even myself. Then the carnival came and destroyed my mask. All of my hidden emotions, all that wicked power that I had been nurturing so naively exploded at just one rejection. But that is all it would take to ruin me again. Another rejection from her.
Una musica brutal,
I became a monster. At one point, all of my emotions had left me and what was left was a cool barrier from the rest of the world. A barrier that resided in my mind, that set my heart aflame, and ignited a wildfire of anger that couldn't be controlled.
Melodias de dolor.
I don't know if the pain that I was from the HiME star, no matter how much my mayo puppy loves to assure me. A part of me was probably under some control, but I know most of it was from the unrequited love I felt for Natsuki and the pure instincts that I have always tried to conceal- which basicley meant that the blood shed that night was because of ME, not anyone else.
Despertamos vos y yo,
When we awoke from our nightmare, I begged for her forgiveness; my voice was cracking and salty tears ran down my cheek. She forgave me, though I don't think she will ever forget.
Y en el lento divagar,
We slowly recovered: all of us, not just Natsuki and me. We began to trust people more freely, though I don't think some things will ever change: such as my mask and Natsuki's shyness. It's quite cute though...especially when it leads to one of her blushes.
Una musica brutal,
Still that pain remains, and will probably always stay, considering that I still have nightmares, even after eleven years. That is the heavy price of taking a life. That guilt.
Encendio nuestra pasion.
Ara, I can't help feeling that the last few tragedies of the carnival were my fault, as I was an ace that was played to the end, though fortunately it turned out alright. And my love for Natsuki was strong enough to break through her barriers, as we are now together as a couple. (Ara ara, after all this time, it still sends my heart a-flutter just to hear those words.
Dame tu calor,
That unrequited love, how I needed that heated passion returned. And as I had pined for it for ages, it was quite a shock when my affections were returned and I was kissed by Natsuki in that sorrowful church.
Bebete mi amor.
I love her and always will. And so will that monster inside me.
Natsuki...
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A/N. Hnn...that wasn't supposed to happen. This fanfic was never supposed to be written, but of course I HAD to hear "Una Musica Brutal" by the Gotan Project. And then I just HAD to go translate the lyrics as best I could, only to discover that they really remind me of Shizuru in Mai-Hime. . Anyway, here are the translated lyrics (well sorta --;)
We discover,
in the sad carnival,
a brutal music,
painful melodies.
We awake,
and we digress,
a brutal music,
I ignite our passion
Give me your heat,
Drink my love.