So yes, I do know this is not the next chapter of Upside down and inside out... this idea just kinda took over and wouldn't leave me alone. But no worries I am still working on it, I'm just kinda stuck right now. But hopefully soon I will have the next chapter done.

Anywho, please enjoy this new adventure. And let me know what you think. Love you guys. Oh and I don't own the boys, as much as I would so love that.

Chapter One

I had no idea what to think, I just kept staring at the little piece of plastic in my hand. This could not be happening right now. This had to be some joke of epic proportions, some really, really bad joke.

I slowly slid down the wall, dropping the pregnancy test to the floor. I just let the tears flow down my face. I was done trying to hold them in.

God this should be a happy time in my life, but in reality this was the worse timing in the world. Kendall and I had only been dating, if you want to call it that, for about four months. But God I hoped it was his, and not Logan's. Hell I didn't want to be pregnant at all.

After a while I dried my face on Kendall's sweatshirt and stood up. I picked up the test from the floor and tossed it into the bathroom trash. I was a Marine for God's sake; I needed to start acting like it.

When I was done making a doctor's appointment, I sat on my bed debating with myself if I should call Kendall or not. I knew he needed to know, but it was a question of if I should tell him before I knew for sure.

My Grandpa was right, when I make a mess I go all the way. And what a mess I've made out of my life. Maybe I should have stayed in the Marines, then I wouldn't be having this problem.

My phone ringing brought me out of my thoughts. I picked it up off the bed where I had tossed it when I got home and looked down to see that it was Kendall calling me.

"Hey." I answered it, even though I knew he would be able to tell that there was something wrong.

"You okay?" I could hear the concern in his voice, which just made everything that much worse.

"I've had better days." I ran my fingers through my hair.

"Do I need to come down early?"

Shit, that was right, he was coming down a few days early before their tour started to help my finish packing my Grandpa's house.

"I can't ask you to do that." Even though I wanted him here more then anything.

"You're not asking, I'm offering."

"And how will the other guys feel about you coming here even earlier? I mean they don't like me as it is."

"They've never said anything to me about not liking you."

"That's because they don't want to hurt your feelings." I sighed. "They hate the fact that I slept with Logan and then just into a relationship with you."

"You said it was just a mistake."

"And it was, but that doesn't make my transgression any less." I closed my eyes trying to keep back the tears wanting to come. "How long will it before someone slips up and tells Mack or Alexa? I want as much time with you before that happens."

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"It means I'd walk away."

"Why?"

"Because you guys are family and I don't want to ruin that for you."

"Then why the hell are we even doing this now?"

"Because right now I'm being a selfish bitch, and for the first time in my life I'm doing something for me and no one else."

"So if she never finds out, then we don't have to worry about it."

"It's not a question of if, it's more like when."

"Why is that?"

"Because there's a chance I might be pregnant." I whispered.

"Please repeat that."

"I might be pregnant. I have an appointment tomorrow with my doctor, I should know for sure then."

"What does that have to do with Logan?"

"I had unprotected sex with Logan, remember? I told you all of this before we started dating."

"I knew that you had sex, I didn't know it was unprotected."

"I was drunk and was tired of being numb; I wanted to feel something other than the pain." I wiped away my tears. "I had just lost the only family I had left, what else was I supposed to do?"

"I'm sorry."

"No damnit, do not do this."

"Do what?"

"Act like everything is okay."

"Until we know for sure, we can't worry about that."

"Worry about what?"

"If you're pregnant or not, and if it's his or not."

"And if it is his, what are you going to do?"

"What answer can I give that won't piss you off?"

"Right now, anything will piss me off."

"Well what time is you appointment tomorrow?"

"Three, why?"

"Because I want to go with you."

"Kendall."

"Don't bother, I'm getting on a flight and coming to you."

"Thank you." That's all I could say, I didn't know what else to say.

"I will text you when I know my flight info."

"Okay."

"I love you Riley."

"Love you too." I ended the call and dropped my phone to the bed.

Well that had gone better then I thought it was, but that's most likely due to the fact that we are pretending everything is normal. Even though I didn't want to pretend it was, but I couldn't worry about that now, I had other things to worry about.

Pushing everything to the back of my mind, I headed back down stairs to find something to eat before I got back to work. I had so much to do in so little time.

Even though it killed me to think I had to give up my childhood home, I knew I couldn't keep it, even with the money my Grandpa had left me. Wiping my eyes I headed back upstairs to grab my purse and phone. I needed to get out of here before I completely lose it. It was becoming too much to stay in the house right now.

God I wish my Grandpa was still here, he'd know what to say to make me feel better. He had been my rock for so long, I had no idea what to do now that he was gone.

Without even thinking about it, I ended up at the spot where Logan and I used to go to get away from everything. It was here I told him I was leaving for boot camp, and so many other secrets.

Walking around it was like nothing had changed here, but at the same time nothing was the same. We had both changed so much. I guess growing up will do that to you.

I stopped at the tree where we had carved our initials into. I traced them with my finger, letting my mind drift back to that day. God it seems so long along now. We did them at the same time we made the pact that really changed our friendship, and not for the better. I should have never held onto that pact like I did, but I felt that I was really losing him and I hated feeling like that.

My phone ringing brought me out of my thoughts. I pulled it out of my pocket and saw that it was Logan calling. I didn't want to answer it, but I knew he'd just keep calling until I did.

"Hey Logan."

"You okay Ry?"

"I'm fine." I rolled my eyes and leaned up against the tree.

"Then why is Kendall jumping on a plane and coming down there?"

"Because he's worried about me."

"So am I." He sighed.

"What do you want from me Logan?"

"I want it to be back to the way it was."

"That's not going to happen."

"Why?"

"You know why."

"No tell me." I could tell he was starting to get mad.

"You're the one who pushed me into Kendall's arms."

"I didn't realize how much it would hurt to see you with him."

"Well you should have thought of that before."

"I didn't think you guys would hit it off so well."

"And why is that?"

"I don't know."

"Whatever Logan."

"Don't be like that Riley. I'm sorry okay?"

"It's a little late for sorry. We both know that that night should have never ever happened."

"But it did and there's nothing we can do about it now. And it wasn't like you didn't say no."

"You could have stopped us."

"I wanted it just as much as you did."

"Why? The last time you saw me you told me I was making a huge mistake and that I was stupid for wanting to serve my country."

"I was hurt that you didn't even ask me what I thought about it."

"I knew what you'd say."

"And what would I have said."

"That I couldn't go."

"No I wouldn't have."

"You forget, Logan, I know you better than that. That is what you would have said, and I know I would have said something that we would have never been able to come back from."

"Whatever you say."

"You know it's true. But I guess in the end it didn't matter, you cut me out of your life as it was."

"I didn't know how to deal with it all."

"So you slept your way through our class?"

"Who told you that?"

"Just because you stopped talking to me, doesn't mean everyone did."

He didn't say anything else, he just hung up on me. I shook my head and locked my phone before sliding it back into my pocket.

I really just wanted my best friend back. Not this new Logan that I really didn't like.

As I headed back to my truck, my phone rang again. I pulled it out and saw that it was Kathy, Kendall's mom calling me.

"Hi Kathy."

"Hello Riley. Kendall wanted me to call and let you know that he should be there around 11:30 tonight."

"I wish he wasn't coming."

"Why?"

"Because he's dropping everything to come hold my hand, and I don't like it."

"You can only be strong for so long before you break. Maybe you need someone to hold your hand and be there for you."

"I don't know how to let anyone in." I ran my fingers through my hair. "I've been on my own for so long."

"I guess, you're right."

"There is no harm in letting him all the way."

"The last guy I let in hurt me more than anything."

"The past is the past, it's time to move on."

"I know that, but it's hard to move on."

"It is, but in the end it will be worth it."

"I hope so."

"Just trust your heart."

"I will try."

"That's all I can ask."

"Well I better get going, I have a lot to do before I have to go get Kendall from the airport."

"Have a good night and remember what I said."

"I will."

"Have Kendall text me when you guys get back to you Grandpa's place."

"I will."

"Thank you Dear."

"No problem."

"Goodbye."

"Bye." I hung up and shoved my phone back into my pocket.

I pulled my keys out of my pocket and headed for my truck. I guess I should go to the store and get some food so we will have something to eat while Kendall is here.

By the time I got back to the house I had just enough time to put everything away and head to the airport.

I was so nervous to see Kendall. I know I really had no real reason to be, but I was. Thankfully the airport was pretty much dead and there were not many people around, because as soon as I saw Kendall I knew I had a huge smile on my face. Once he saw me he grinned at me. God that smiled melted me every time it was turned on me.

Neither said anything as he swept me into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck, never wanting to let him go.

"I've missed you too." He laughed and set me back down.

"Despite what I said earlier, I am so happy you're here. I didn't realize how much I had missed you until right this moment."

He smiled at me and kissed me on the forehead.

"Come on, let's go home."

"Sounds good to me." He threw his arm over my shoulder and we started to walk towards the parking garage.

After I pulled into the drive way an hour and a half later, I put the truck in park, but made no move to get out of the truck.

"What's wrong?" Kendall unbuckled his seatbelt and turned and looked at me.

"It makes no sense, but I'm really nervous."

"So I make you nervous?"

I looked at him and I could tell he was trying not to laugh at me.

"It's not funny. I've never brought a guy into my Grandpa's house." I ran my fingers though my hair. "It's just weird."

"Logan's been here."

"He's never stayed the night." I looked at him.

"We don't have to stay in the same room if it makes you uncomfortable."

I just banged my head on the steering wheel.

"Don't do that." He pulled me into his lap. "I can stay in a hotel."

"Why do you have to be so damn prefect?"

"Who said I was prefect?"

"I did damnit." I looked up at him.

"I'm far from perfect."

"You're pretty perfect from where I'm sitting."

He smiled down at me and kissed my forehead.

"Let's go inside." I pulled away from him and slid out of the truck.

I grabbed his backpack out of the back while I waited for him to get out. He got out laughing. I tossed his bag at him and headed inside. He just followed behind me.

"This is a cute little house, a nice place to raise a family."

"It is." I smiled to myself as I unlocked the door. "To bad I will have to sell it."

"Why?"

"I can't afford to keep it. Even though the house is paid for, the land taxes and utilities are too high for me to pay for. I don't make enough money. I could possibly stay here for maybe a year, but after that, I'd still have to sell."

"If you wanted to keep it, I could help out."

I opened the door and walked through not bothering to hold it open for him. I walked into the kitchen and pulled a two bottles of water out of the fridge. I set one on the counter and the other I opened and downed.

"What did I say to piss you off?"

"I won't be a kept woman."

"Riley, that's not what I meant. I meant I could help you out until you got on your feet. I don't see the difference you were going to move in with me in LA." He walked over to me and hugged me from behind. "You can still find a job and then when you go on maternity leave I can help out."

"All the jobs I am qualified to do, I can't do while I'm pregnant. So I'm stuck."

"Don't give up yet, we'll figure things out." He pulled me into a hug. "If anyone can figure this out, it's you."

"I am so scared."

"Of what?"

"That I'll end up leaving my child the way my parents left me."

"I don't know what happened to your parents, but I know you'll never leave you child, not if you had any say in it."

"They both died." I pulled away from him and hugged myself. "That's how I ended up with my Grandpa. He raised me from an infant."

"What happened?"

"My Mom died giving birth to me and my Dad died in the first Gulf War. He was one of the first Marines on the ground in 90."

"Which is why Logan couldn't believe you joined the Marines."

"Yes." I looked out the sliding glass door. "He never could understand my need to be close to the father I never knew. It's why I didn't tell him I enlisted until right before I left for boot camp. If I hadn't waited to tell him I would have let him talk me out of joining at all."

"Ya know this part of the country is a great place to raise a family."

"What are you freaking talking about?" I whipped around and looked at him.

"That if you wanted too, we could split our time between here and LA." He shrugged.

"Did you hit your damn head?"

"No."

"Then where is this coming from?"

"I know how much this place means to you, and how happy you are here. All I want is for you to be happy."

"What about you? Would you be happy living here?"

"We won't know until we try."

"We don't even know for sure that I'm pregnant."

"Then we will figure things out after we know for sure."

"And what about your career? I can't ask you to choose between me and your passion."

"We have time to work things out, no need to worry about it now."

"Then why did you bring it up?"

"Just wanted you to know that it was an option."

"And what if I get called up again?"

"If that ever happens we will cross that bridge when we get to it."

"Why?"

"Simple, because I love you."

"Okay." I held my hand out to him and he took it.

"Let's get you into bed, you look like you're about to fall over."

"If it was anyone but you, this would have turned into a huge blow out fight. Want to know why?"

"Tell me why?"

"Because with you I can actually be myself, I don't have to hide behind the mask." I let him wrap me in his arms. "If it would have been Logan who suggested what you did tonight, I would have thrown him out on his ass. Why didn't I do that to you?"

"I don't know, I really don't."

"Love makes us do strange things I guess."

"Yes it does." He kissed my forehead.

I laid my head on his shoulder, looking back out the sliding glass door. As much as my brain told me to fight, my heart was telling me that it was okay, Kendall wouldn't hurt me.

Maybe I was just tired of fighting. Maybe I was ready to let myself actually fall in love.

Maybe, just maybe I can finally move on.