"Remember this Moment" a chibibatmishu fanfiction
Disclaimer: I don't own Metalocalpyse or its characters. I do own Belladonna Solanine; Jessica Stine owns Airyn Blaze; and Kris Rebo owns Kris Blaze. We jointly own our band Dark Paradise. This fic also features the song "This Moment" by Disturbed, "What I've Done" by Linkin Park, and "Friends" by Band of Skulls.
"Guess what," Belladonna said excitedly. Kris continued to mesh the buttons on the Xbox controller. "What," he asked without looking up from the game. Airyn shook her head at her step-brother then turned her attention to Belladonna, "What Bells?" Belladonna showed her the magazine ad, "Dethklok is giving up coming bands a chance to open for them!" Kris quickly paused his game, "Did you just say what I think I just heard you say?" Belladonna nodded excitedly, "Yes! Dethklok is holding a contest to find an opening act!" Airyn snatched the magazine from Belladonna, "oh, we so have to enter!" Kris nodded, "Most definitely. What do we have to do? Fill out an entry form…" Airyn shook her head, "Nope, upload a video of the band to their website." Belladonna rushed off to her bedroom and came back with her Casio camera, "we are playing tonight, so why not have someone record us to send it in; nothing like a live show." Airyn nodded, "Sounds wonderful. Who can we get to record us?" "No worries," said Kris, "We can get Alex to do it." ~*
"Hello out there!" Belladonna hollered into the microphone as she put her guitar strap onto her shoulder. The club goers cheered loudly. Their friend Alex gave them a thumbs up as he recorded with the camera. "Alright, well as you guys know we are Dark Paradise and tonight we are going to rock this club!" A quick glance at Kris and Airyn and soon the club was filled with the band's music. Belladonna locked eyes with the camera as she began to sing.
"You will remember this moment as you dig into me. And from your smile it seems as though you liked it. You better cherish this moment as you dig into me you'll never get another chance at this. I won't stand another minute of your questioning me. You hear me, bitch, stop the interrogations over. I can't handle the feeling of your pestering me. How would you like to meet my favorite list. No you can't reneg, I love to see you beg…" ~*
"Ok guys," said Nathan climbing into the hot tub holding the remote to the tv, "it's time to check out the finalists from our contest." Pickles groaned, "I just hope they don't suck ass…" Nathan quickly skimmed the page, "They look like they suck ass…" His eyes then stopped on a video that a lot of people favorite and commented on. "Let's start with this one," he said pushing play, "The band is called Dark Paradise..." Dethklok watched as the video played, and as soon as Nathan saw Belladonna, he couldn't seem to look away. Her eyes shone in the video and he started back, listening to her.
//Dream this moment as you run away. You will only separate me from all I believe this moment it will tell the way. You're the one who kept on pushing till I made you bleed.//
He frowned as the video switched over to Airyn. Not that this girl wasn't good, because she was. He was just really into watching the sexy red head. But as Airyn appeared on the screen Pickles grinned, "Wow, check out the hot blonde!"
//It seems your pride has been stolen since you stood up to me. I'll tell you now you know I think I really like it. So learn a lesson from someone who will never repeat the many tragic mistakes of his past//
"These guys win," stated Nathan. "Totally," agreed Pickles, "Let's send them the winning letter." "Wait, wait, I got a better idea. Let's go to their house and totally surprise them." "Yayz, road trip!" yelled Toki. ~*
"Wow," said Murderface as the bus finally reached their destination, "Isn't this just fucking special?" Toki was the first to jump off the bus to see Dark Paradise's home. "I thinks its nice." The rest of Dethklok followed, but Nathan seemed to be a little frozen as he looked out the window of the bus. That feeling was coming over him again, and he wasn't sure if he liked it or not. It didn't seem very metal to him, but at the same time felt right. "Dude," Pickles yelled in after him, "Are you coming or did we drive all this way for you to just stare at this house?" "Yes I'm coming," Nathan answered eyeing his drummer. He got off the bus and pushed his way through his band mates and up the sidewalk. He took a deep breath and pressed the doorbell. "Coming!" called a cheerful voice from behind the door. Nathan took a step back. That wasn't Belladonna's voice, he was sure of that. He had only watched their video twenty some times, so he was very certain that the bands bassist would be opening the door. Sure enough, the blonde haired Airyn opened the door. "Hello," she started but then stopped short when she saw who was standing on their porch. "Oh my god," she said then turned around to yell back into the house, "Kris, Bella! Dethklok is on our porch!" "ha ha," a male voice said, "very funny Ryn." "I'm serious!" Airyn then turned to the group and smiled, "Come on in." Nathan was the first to enter the house and he quickly scanned the living room for signs of Bella but no luck. "Holy shit," laughed Kris, "You guys really are here!" Pickles stepped up to Airyn, "You must be the beautiful bassist we've seen on the video." She blushed, "Yeah that would be me. Our lead guitarist, Belladonna, is down the hall in the bathroom." Nathan peeked down the hall way. The sound of the shower could be heard, along with her singing. "I just love to hear her sing. Can I sneak down the hall to get a better listen?" Kris shrugged, "Sure, our home is your home guys. Besides, Bells isn't one to be shy. That's why the door is open. She doesn't care if we see her naked, so I'm pretty sure Nathan Explosion would be on that list to."
As Nathan reached the bathroom, he saw the ipod docking station on a shelf above the sink, right in front of the mirror. That was the source of the music anyway, and Bella was having a great time singing along to it. His eyes then focused on the smoked glass doors of the shower and the silhouette of Belladonna behind them singing along to "Passion's Killing Floor" by HIM.
//My hearts' a graveyard baby and to evil we make love on our passion's killing floor. In my arms you won't sleep safely and of lust we are reborn. On our passion's killing floor. //
Bella was still singing as she turned off the water. Nathan went to retreat, but as soon as the door started sliding open, he froze. Bella saw him watching and jumped, startled by his presence. "Holy shit you scared me," she laughed, then realized who was standing there, "holy crap, Nathan!" "Uh.. yeah," he said trying to form words. "What are you doing here," she asked wrapping a towel around her waist, "Not that I don't LOVE having you here. Speaking of, I'm behind a horrible host! Can I get you a drink or something? I think there might be some beer somewhere. We are huge soda drinkers here, so if you like Pepsi or Mountain Dew you are set." "Pepsi would be good." Belladonna smiled at him, "Ok, follow me to the kitchen then." Nathan moved out of the doorway to allow Bella to pass. As she passed by, Nathan got a wiff of strawberries. "Wow, Bella you smell great." She smiled at him, "Thanks."
After grabbing some sodas out of the fridge, Bella and Nathan headed into the living room. "Holy shit," exclaimed Murderface, "She's practically naked!" Bella leaned against the back of the couch, "Don't you wish you could see what is under this towel..." "Fuck yes!" She then laughed, "Too bad!" Bella then turned her attention to Nathan, "So, what brings you guys out of Mordhaus?" "Does it have to do with a certain video we sent in?" added Airyn. "You bet it does," answered Pickles, "You guys are the winners of our contest." "You're kidding?" Bella said surprised. "Nope," agreed Nathan, "Dark Paradise is now opening for Dethklok." "Oh my god!" squealed Bella excitedly and flung herself into Nathan's arms. "This is fucking sweet!" agreed Kris. "When is our first show?" Bella asked happily looking up at Nathan, who had placed his arms on the small of Bella's back. Nathan looked back down at her, his green eyes meeting her own green eyes. "Well, why don't you pack up and head back to Mordhaus with us before the tour starts?" "That is a great idea," agreed Pickles, "What do you guys say?" Airyn, Bella, and Kris looked at each other grinning then nodded. "We say hell yes!" laughed Kris.~*
"Wow, long drive," sighed Bella as she sat down on the couch on the tour bus next to Nathan. "Lets makes it fun thens!" said Toki, "We can plays a road game or something." Skwisgaar eyed Belladonna, "I think we need to see them play in persons." Bella eyed him back, "I'd love to, but our gear is under the bus, remember." Skwisgaar plugged the guitar he was playing with into the bus's portable amp and handed it to Bella. "Play away…" "Wow," she breathed, "This is all too much…I'm currently on a bus with Dethklok and now I am holding Skwisgaar's guitar." Nathan got a little jealous and tried to hide behind his dark locks. Belladonna placed the strap around her shoulder and played a few chords deciding on a song. She skillfully played through Thunderhorse, just to show that she did have skill, then switched to Linkin Park's "New Divide". Nathan looked up at Bella, his hair falling away from his face.
//I remember black skies the lighting all around me. I remember each flash as time began to blur. Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me. And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve.//
Nathan stood up next to Bella and she allowed him to take the vocals.
//So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean. Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes. Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between. Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide.//
Airyn put her hands in the air and pointed to herself, and Nathan nodded. The vocals were now in Ryn's capable hands.
// There was nothing in sight, but memories left abandoned. There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow. And the ground caved in between where we were standing. And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserved. So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean. Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes, across this new divide.//
Then it went back to Nathan, who had urged Bella to sing with him. She delightfully agreed.
//In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny. And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide. And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve. So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean. Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes. Give me reason to fill this hole, connect to the space between. Let it be enough to reach the truth and lies across this new divide. Across this new divide, across this new divide.//
"That was so cool," laughed Bella as she took off the guitar and handed it back to Skwisgaar. As she headed back towards Nathan, the bus hit a huge pot hole. Bella fell into Nathan's arms as they both fell backwards onto the couch. Pickles, who was sitting on the arm of the couch, fell to the floor, quickly followed by Airyn who landed on him. Kris laughed at then, "That was very graceful guys." "I'll say," agreed Murderface. Pickles smiled at Airyn, "Hey I'm not complaining." Airyn blushed slightly as she climbed back up onto the couch then peered over at Bella and Nathan. She was still laying against him, and both were staring into each others eyes. Nathan began to move in slowly, clearly going to steal a kiss. "We've reached Mordhaus sires," said a Klokateer as he entered the room. Bella blushed brightly as she quickly climbed off of Nathan. "Damn it," Nathan swore under his breath. ~*
Toki sat beside Bella watching her play his guitar while sitting on the couch. Her voice was melodious and demanded every bit of attention he had. //Prison gates won't open up for me on these hands and knees I'm crawling. Oh, I reach for you. Well I'm terrified of these four walls. These iron bars can't hold my soul in. All I need is you. Come please, I'm calling. Oh, I scream for you. Hurry, I'm falling, I'm falling.// The lyrics of the song seemed to cut right through the young Norwegian. Since the time Belladonna came to Mordhaus, Toki couldn't help but fall for her. Everything about her drove him wild and if she needed saved then damn it, he would be there to save her. // Show me what its like to be the last one standing. Teach me wrong from right. And I'll show you what I can be. Say it for me, say it to me. I'll leave this life behind me. Say it if its worth saving me.// Bella looked up and smiled as she continued to play. Nathan stood in the doorway watching the two. It had been about two weeks since Dark Paradise had moved into Mordhaus with Dethklok and in that time Toki and Bella had become quite close, much to Nathan's dismay. He was jealous of the rhythm guitarist, although he would not admit it. //Heaven's gates won't open up for me with these broken wings I'm falling and all I see is you. These city walls ain't got no love for me, I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story and oh I scream for you. Come please, I'm calling. And all I need from you… hurry, I'm falling, I'm falling// Both Dethklok members listened to Bella sing and play, and both thought that the lead guitarist was singing to Toki. Nathan's large silhouette caught Belladonna's eye and she looked up in the doorway, her brilliant green eyes focusing on him. She was the only one of the three that knew that song was actually for Nathan. //Show me what its like to be the last one standing. Teach me wrong from right. And I'll show you what I can be. Say it for me, say it to me. I'll leave this life behind me. Say it if its worth saving me.// ~*
"I am so glad to be off that fucking bus for awhile," said Nathan as he got dressed after his shower. Kris laughed, "Tell me about it. The only babes on there are Bells and my sister." "Hey," interuped Pickles, "I happen to think your step sister is hot." "That's cause you're in love," laughed Murderface. Nathan pulled his shirt over his head, "In any case, I'm going to go let the girls know that we got the party supplies here in the suite." "I'll go with you," said Kris getting up out of the chair, "I need to walk around a bit." The two headed down the hall to where Bella and Airyn were sleeping. As they reached the door, both of them heard the girls singing inside. "Nerds," laughed Kris and knocked on the door. "Who is it?" came Bella's voice. "It's me," answered Kris, "and Nathan…you guys ready?" They then heard footsteps and soon Bella was standing at the door in only her bath towel. "Ryn is in the shower," she answered, "And I'm finding clothes. You're more than welcome to come in though…" Nathan almost answered yes, but Kris spoke up first. "I think we'll pass you up on that one though Bells." "When you are ready come over to the suite," added Nathan, "We've already got the party started." ~*
"Let's get this party started," laughed Airyn entering the room. Her step brother laughed, "Sorry to break it to you, but you girls are late." He held up his beer bottle. "The party has started." Belladonna laughed, "No, you are just sitting around drinking. It's not a party until Ryn and I get here." She then eyed all the beer and liquor on the table. "Didn't you get anything good," she teased. Skwisgarr laughed, "Ah, you need a little girly drink?" Toki eyed him, "Knocks it off asshole." "Yeah," agreed Murderface, "These are some fine ladies. You gotta treat 'em with respect." Bella laughed, "you can stop sucking up William, because you're not getting any from either of us." "Ah god damn it!" he swore, "Who would you give it to? Toki? I bet you already did!" Bella blushed bright red, "That's none of your business who I want to fuck. And for the record Toki and I have not had sex." She then grabbed the rum and coke Kris handed her. Nathan laughed, "She told you." "In any case," said Pickles pulling out a bag of weed, "The girls are here, so let's party!" Belladonna held up a deck of cards she brought with her, "I think we need to start a game of Waterfall…." ~*
"Did we tell you how we met?" asked Bella as she watched Kris draw a card off the pile. "I'm sure they don't want to hear that Bells," said Kris dumping some of his cup into the large cup in the center before tossing the six card into the discard pile. "Sure we do," said Pickles drawing a card. "What is the birth of Dark Paradise?" "I grew up in Phoenix, Arizona with my mom. When it came time to go to college I headed off to UCLA where I met Airyn." "Neither of us had a major yet," laughed Ryn, "but we met in a gen ed class. And before long we were dating." All five members of Dethklok stopped to look at the two girls. "Wait," said Nathan, "You dated each other?" Ryn and Bella nodded. "Well, that's just hot," said Murderface. "Did you guys make out?" asked Skwisgaar "Why wouldn't we?" laughed Bella. "Ah," teased Ryn, "I think the boys want to see that." She climbed off the bed from where she was sitting with Pickles and sat down between Bella and Toki on the couch and started kissing her bandmate. "Wow," said Pickles, "That is so hot." Kris grinned and poured some more rum and coke into his glass, "You better believe it." He then held up the empty coke bottle. "Guy's we're out of coke." "So go get some," laughed Ryn, climbing back into Pickles arms. Nathan was still mesmerized by Bella, "Toki, go grab some from the vending machine." "Why do I have to goes?" "Because you're the youngest," laughed Kris. "This is bullshit…" he huffed heading down the hall. Belladonna stood up and grabbed the vanilla vodka off the dresser and stole a shot straight from the bottle. As she sat the bottle down she lost her balance and fell backwards into Nathan. She turned around and smiled at him. "Hello," she laughed. "Careful drunkie," teased Kris, "We don't need our lead guitarist to fall out the window." "Oh ha ha," she laughed, "I'm not that drunk." "No, but I think she is the kind of drunk we can get her to admit things," Ryn said winking at her step brother. "Oh no, I'm not falling for that again." "Why not, you are already spilling about you and me." Belladonna shrugged, "You know I love you baby." As the rest of the band turned back to their drinking game, Nathan started up a conversation with Bella. "So how are you guys liking your first big tour?" "Are you kidding me, its wonderful! The fans are awesome, and it was awesome that you guys chose us." Nathan laughed, "Don't get all fan girl on me." Bella smirked, "Are you kidding me, have you seen yourself? You are hot Nathan. And that answer to the question earlier, is you." "What question?" "William's perverted question… I would have hot sex with you in a minute." Everyone stopped to look at the couple, since Bella's last comment seemed to carry and hang in the air. The next words that echoed were a strain of Norwegian obscenities coming from Toki, who had just entered the room carrying an arms load of coke cans. He dropped them on the bed and stormed off down the hall. As she watched Toki storm off, a sick feeling hit Bella hard. "Toki, wait!" She tried to take off after him, but her intoxicated body didn't corporate and she collapsed. Nathan quickly stepped forward to catch her. "I told her she was drinking too much," said Kris shaking his head. "I'll take her back to bed. Ryn, can I borrow your key?" Airyn nodded and handed off the key to Nathan. ~*
"You know you have to get up at some point," laughed Airyn as she looked at Bella, who was still in bed, "You know we perform tonight, right?" "I feel like crap," came Bella's muffled voice. "No wonder you alcoholic. You can't try to keep up with the boys." "Not about that," said Bella rolling over so that Airyn could hear her better. "Oh you mean the word vomit?" "That is the perfect word for it. I feel so bad for Toki." "Well, you guys are close, but I guess you need to decide how close." That's when a knock came at the door. "I'll get it," Airyn said and headed for the door. "Can I talks to Bella?" came Toki's voice. Belladonna quickly sat up. "Sure, come on in," said Ryn moving aside, "I'll be with Pickles if you guys need anything." Airyn quickly exited leaving the two alone. "I'm sorry I swore at you Bells," Toki said finally as he went and sat down on the end of her bed. Bella sat up and pulled her knees to her chest, "It's ok Toki, I was the jerk, not you. Well, that and your swears were all in Norwegian, so I wasn't exactly sure what the swears were." Toki smiled, "I'm glad, they weren't very nice." Bella laughed, "I'm sure they weren't, but I deserved them Toki, I really did. Stupid word vomit…" He turned around to look at Bella, "What's word vomit?" "When you say something without thinking of the consequences or who'll you'll hurt." "Yeah, but I knew you likes Nathan. It shouldn't have surprised me sos much." They sat in awkward silence for a few moments. Toki then stood up, "I just wants your happiness Bells. I won't stands in the way of your being with Nathan or being your close friend." He smiled at Bella, "Now let's both get ready for the concert." ~*
"Hello Piscataway," Bella said into the microphone, and the crowd at the venue cheers wildly. "As you know we are Dark Paradise!" Bella laughed and started to play. //In this farewell, there's no blood, there's no alabis cause I've drawn regret from the truth of a thousand lies. So let mercy come and wash away, what I've done// "Sorry about last night," Toki said to Nathan as they sat in the makeup room. "It's cool dude," said Nathan watching Dark Paradise's performance on the large, flat screen tv "you were pissed off, totally understandable." "Well, I talks to her Nathan and I'm not going to stop her heart from loving you." They then both focused on the red head on the screen. //I'll face myself to cross out what I've become. Erase myself and let go of what I've done// ~*
Nathan awoke with a start. Another bad dream involving Belladonna haunted him. "Holy fuck," he said brushing some of his long, black hair out of his face, "That was brutal…" He sat up, letting the black, silk sheets slide off of his body. "I need a drink…" He climbed out of bed and ventured down the halls of Mordhaus. As he passed Bella's door, he stopped for a moment and just stared at the door. Would she be mad if he peeked in? That's when some soft sobs from inside caught his ears. "Bella?" he called softly, cracking the door. From the light of the hall he saw her wipe her eyes. "Nathan?" she choked out. "Yeah, can I come in?" "I'd like that," she said sounding like she was starting to cry again. Nathan entered the room, then shutting the door behind him, quickly crossed the room and sat down next to Bella in the bed. He pulled Bella in close and she sobbed into his shoulder, her tears running down his bear chest. "What's wrong Bella?" "I should be happy, after all I am here with you guys in Mordhaus and our band is your opening act, but then… then I see Airyn with Pickles and I suddenly feel so alone. I am surrounded by friends but I feel so all alone. It's just so…" she stopped thinking. "Brutal," Nathan finished for her. That caused her to laugh slightly. "Yeah, its brutal." "If its any consolation, Bells, I'll always be here for you. We all will actually-both our bands, we're like family now. Well, an awesome family… We'll all hate each other at times, and be jealous of each other, but we're always there." Bella smiled, "Thanks Nathan… do you think you could stay here till I fall asleep?" "Sure thing…" ~*
Bella stood in the music room at Mordhaus, her bandmates at her side, and Nathan, Toki and Pickles sitting around the room, listening to the music as their opening band played. // All my life I've been searching for something. Something I can't put my finger on. Maybe I've been living for the weekend. Maybe I've been living for this sovereign soul. Every Friday just around midnight all my problems seem to disappear. Everyone that I miss when I'm distant, everybody's here.// Belladonna smiled at Nathan, he had stayed all last night with her, and while she still felt a little horrible, it was assuring knowing that he, and everyone else in this room, would be there for her no matter what. Her, Airyn and Kris were now family with Dethklok… This was so a moment to remember… //I need love cause only love is true I need every waking hour with you. And my friends, cause they're so beautiful. Yeah, my friends they are so beautiful. They're my friends.//
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