( Disclaimer: I Don't own NARUTO! They belong to His Highness Masashi Kishimoto! )
Chapter One - Changes
Sakura looked down into her tea cup and a light blond woman looked concerned at her.
"Have something happened...?" the woman asked.
"Hm, I don't know, Ino... Maybe, maybe not..." Sakura told the woman Ino. "Maybe I'm just confused..."
"Confused? Over what?" Ino said frowning. "That Kakashi-Sensei ended up carring you home again from your mission? Why are you confused over that?"
"Not over that... This mission... It wasn't what I had been expected it to be... We could have both been killed back then..." Sakura mumbled.
"Lucky for you that your Sensei is as good as he is... But you have never been worried about things like that before..." Ino said. "Is there something more?"
"Well, I didn't like it... and I will never do this kind of mission ever again..."
"Mission that require seducing or killing people...?" Ino asked.
"Seducing mission... I have never been good at it anyway..." Sakura told Ino. "But I'm glad to be back, even if Naruto are killing me with his nagging..."
"If he is killing you with his nagging, shouldn't you be at the morgue then?" Ino said.
"You understand what I mean..."
"You can't blame him. This was your second time in only two months you have been beaten to a bloody mess and then dragged to hospital..." Ino said and put her tea cup down. "He is only worried for you like everyone else is..."
"But at least everyone else isn't nagging about what I eat and everything else that have to do with my fucking life..." Sakura growled while sipping on her tea.
"Wow... Someone is in a bad mood... Anyway, I heard from Hinata that Naruto nominated you to ANBU. Isn't that exciting?" Ino said and looked at Sakura.
"Huh?" Sakura looked questioning at Ino.
"Aren't you listening? Gosh, someone has been spending to much time with her Sensei... I said that it would be exciting. That you will join ANBU..." Ino said and looked at Sakura who looked like she was about to throw up. "You are making me worried, Sakura... Are you sure that you are okay...?"
"Aaa, I'm sure..." Sakura insured Ino.
`Well everything isn't okay... I got raped. Ending up shagging my own Sensei, not just once but twice! And I feel like I'm seasick everytime... And I believe everything is okay. Who am I kidding?´
Ino gave Sakura a worried glance and took her hand. Sakura looked up to Ino.
"If there is something you want to tell me, let me know..." she told Sakura.
`I wouldn't tell you anything, Ino-Pig... Only if I wanted everyone in Konoha to find out that I shagged my Sensei...´
"Ino, I-..."
"Oh! Before you say something, Sakura... I have news to tell you...!" Ino suddenly burst out and Sakura glanced at her.
"O-Okay... Go on..." Sakura said, forcing a smile to the blond Kunoichi in front of her.
"Okay then... I'm pregnant!" Ino told her.
Sakura looked at Ino like she had been slapped in her face and Sakura dropped the tea cup to the floor.
`Of couse... Why haven't I thought of that before? My suddenly sickness every morning and how I always need a toilet near me...´
"How could this happen...?" Sakura suddenly said and cut Ino off.
"I do hope you know how babies are made..." Ino said to Sakura, quite offended that Sakura hadn't listen to her.
"As I just told you-..." Ino continued.
`Well, that was that time, when Neikan rapped me and of course those times with Kakashi-Sensei... How stupid of me... We didn't even use protection... And I did never thought this could happen...´
"Then who is that father...?" Sakura mused.
Ino looked annoyed at Sakura and last statment.
"I have already told you that! It is Sai..." Ino said and looked at Sakura who raised from the chair. "Where are you going?"
"I suddenly remember that Naruto wanted me to give him my traning reports with Kakashi-Sensei..." Sakura lied and Ino raised an eyebrow. "See you later Ino... And by the way, congratulation to your little one..."
With that Sakura left Inos apartment and Ino just glared at the closed door.
"Did I say something wrong?" Ino mumbled and sighed.
~oOo~
Sakura slammed the front door to her apartment close behind her. She took off her the sandals and walked stright to her bedroom.
She dragged off her halter neck top and began to force some of her medic Chakra to her hand and then she traced it over her stomach.
"Kuso..." she growled and took her hand away and fell to her back on to her bed. She looked up to the ceiling and then she closed her eyes.
Why was she always the victim of bothersome things? Now when she had confirmed it, what would she do?
She felt like she wasn't ready for this, not yet and then she was alone to bear this burden.
She clenched her fist and the covered it with her medic Chakra once more and let her hand hower over her abdomen.
Then she suddenly remember her own mother. She had only been nineteen when she had got Sakura, about four years younger then Sakura was now and her mother had been all alone too. Even Sakuras mother hadn't have own her mother to support her and the man who had knocked up Sakuras mother had left her to screw with another woman. But Sakura hadn't seen her own mother sad over that, she had always told Sakura (even before she had been killed during the war) that she never had regret given birth to Sakura. That Sakura had been the most precious person to her. To Haruno Misora.
Sakura let the Chakra flow on her hand go away and she putted her palm to her abdomen. She hadn't the heart to 'kill' what was living inside of her. She could do just like her mother had done, accept it and continue with her life. Only problem Sakura saw with that, was that Sakura was a Kunoichi her mother hadn't. Missions would be harder if she was forced to protect both her team mate, herself and that little thing inside of her. She sighed.
"You are not doing this easy little fellow..." Sakura mumbled and stroke her stomach softly.
She really did need someone to talk to right now.
She couldn't talk to Naruto about this. First; he wouldn't understand and Second; he would force her to spil who had done it, so he could kill them.
Yamato-Taichou was just creepy and she was pretty sure that Yamato would tell her that he really didn't care, but just the look would say that he thought that she had been irresponsible.
And when it come to Kakashi-Sensei, she was more afraid to tell him. Not just because he would act as her Sensei and tell her that she should get rid of it, but also because it was a small chance that he could have knocked her up.
The last of them was Sai. She hadn't really been close to him like she had been with Naruto back then, but he still was a friend. But maybe he would just listen to her and just be there and top of it all he had made Ino-Pig pregnant.
"I could just give it a shot..."
~oOo~
The pink haired Kunoichi knocked on a wooden door and a short cut, ebony haired man opened the door.
"Oh? Sakura... What a surprised..." the man said.
"Hey Sai... Can we talk...?" Sakura asked.
"Um... Sure... But why me?" Sai asked and let her in.
"Well, you would be the only one right know who would actually listen to me..." Sakura mumbled. "All I'm asking for right know is just advise..."
"Oh, I don't believe I would give you any good advise..." Sai said. "But I will listen to you, if that would make you feel better..."
"Thank you Sai..." Sakura said and sat herself down in the sofa Sai had showed her and he sat himself opposite her in the armchair.
"So, what do you want to talk about?" he asked, trying to not make one of his fake smile.
"It's... It's a friend of mine... She got herself knocked up and..." Sakura began.
"You are not talking about Ino, are you?" Sai said and looked at her.
"Eh, no... Anyway, and she doesn't really know who the father is, well she think she knows... But she is afraid of how he will react... She stand between not telling him and tell him..."
"Oh, do I know this girl?" Sai asked.
"No you don't... But should she tell him or not?"
"Well if she isn't sure who the father is she shouldn't tell him. But if she believes that she think one of them is more certain to be the father, maybe she should tell him... Hopefully he isn't an ass and he will understand..." Sai said and smiled again.
"Thank you Sai... I will... I will tell her that..." Sakura said and began to walk to the door.
"Sakura, before you go, I want to ask you a question..." Sai said and Sakura looked at him.
"Okay, go on..."
"I may lack emotionals, but I'm not stupid... That girl, it's you, right...?" Sai suddenly said and Sakura looked like she had been hit by lightning.
"How...?"
"I'm an ANBU... I know when peoples lie to me..." he told her and he could see Sakura tense. "Relax, I will not tell anyone... But you should tell Naruto or Kakashi-Senpai..."
"Thanks Sai... But I think I will wait to tell them, at least Naruto..." Sakura told him and grabbed the doorknob. "Before I go. Congrats to your unborn..."
Sai looked at her and blushed slightly.
"So Ino-Chan told you..." he said and Sakura nodded.
"Take Care, Sai..." she said and walked out through the door.
Sai looked at the door and he sighed.
He was a bit surprised that she too was pregnant. Well she had been raped, but that was like months ago and she seamed like she just had noticed that she was preagnent and her stomach didn't appear so big yet. She only could be in the second or third month what he could tell.
Sai shook his head. He could understand way Sakura wanted to wait to tell Naruto about this. Naruto would probably freak out and be like the 'big brother' to her and beat the crap out of the guilty one. It was more likely she would tell Kakashi-Senpai. He was a man that would keep his cool and tell her what to do and support her what ever choice she would make. Well even Naruto would.
And he knew that he himself would also be there for her, like the friend he was and he was also pretty sure that Yamato-Senpai also would support her.
But the thing was that, Sai wanted to know who had made her pregnant, so he could talk to this man and tell him to not hurt Sakura. Because she had been hurt so many times already, even by himself.
"I suppose it's up to me to talk to her when she need a shoulder to cry on..." Sai mumbled to himself and walked back to his painting.
~oOo~
Sakura jumped away from a Kunai heading her way and she throwed one back to the silver haired Jounin. He ducked.
Then she began to charge at him with her fist. He fended off her fist and raised his feet to kick her in the stomach. Sakura saw his action and she avoided his feet, by jumping away from him.
Kakashi looked at her with a smile on his face.
"You are really defensive today... Are you hurt or something?" Kakashi asked her, still with a smile on his face.
"No, I'm not hurt... Just waiting for you to do a mistake..." Sakura said with a sweet voice that almost made Kakashi want to rip off their clothes and go all the way out here on the training ground. "What's the matter, Sensei? Have you given up...?"
`That's it...!´
Kakashi appeared behind her. He was so fast that even Sakura was to slow to react.
"Play time is over... Sakura..." he whispered in her ear, making her blush and feel weak to her knees.
He took one of his hands on her waist and then he began to tickle her with the other.
"WHAA! Sensei, stop! You are killing me!" Sakura laughed and tried to move away from him.
"Do you surrender then...?" he asked and she nodded hysterical. "Haa? I can't hear you?"
"Hai! Hai! I give up! I give up!" she shrieked while laughing.
He stopped to tickle her and she feel to her knees still laughing.
"You are... You are so mean, Sensei..." she told him and sat herself down to the grass, facing the river.
"I am mean...? You are the one who are mean... Teasing your poor old Sensei like that..." Kakashi said with a bit of amusement in his tone.
"Poor...? It's more like perv..." Sakura grunted.
Kakashi chuckled and sat beside Sakura, also facing the river. Sakura glanced at him.
She hade him were she wanted him. Now it was only the other part left.
`Well, I could began with some small talk...´
"How old are you, Sensei...?" Sakura suddenly asked.
Kakashi glanced at her.
"Why do you ask? Is there some reason to why you want to know...?" Kakashi said and smirked under his mask.
"Just curious... I mean, you know more about us then we do about you. So just telling your age wouldn't hurt..." Sakura said and glanced back at him.
"Well then... I am in the age between ten and forty-five..." Kakashi said and began to tug up the little blue-green book from his waist pouch.
"Ten and forty-five...? Why can't you just tell me how old you are?" Sakura said annoyed.
"Because you shouldn't ask people how old they are... It's rude..."
"I thought that only concerned womens..." Sakura told him. "Well if you don't want to tell me, I can probably ask Izumo or maybe Genma..."
"Thirty-five..." Kakashi suddenly said still reading his book. "I'm thirty-five..."
Sakura looked at him.
`Thirty-five... He is not that old after all...´
"I who always have thought you was a bit over fifty..." Sakura teased him.
"Fifty...? Do I really look that old...?" Kakashi said hurted and narrowed his eye at her.
"Nope... Not after I have seen your face..." Sakura said and she could hear Kakashi mutter something.
`Enoght with small talk...´
"Um... Kakashi-Sensei..." Sakura then said and Kakashi looked up from his reading.
"Sakura, we are equals, so you don't have to use 'Sensei'. I know you don't remember but I have told you before, that we have 'grown' apart from the studen/teacher- relationship by now..." Kakashi told her. "It's just Kakashi or Senpai if you must use a honorifical word..."
"Oh, Gomen..." Sakura mumbled and blushed slightly.
"Don't apologize..." he said and slapped his Icha Icha closed. "So, what did you want to say?"
"Well, Kakashi-Sens-... Senpai..." Sakura said and it felt weired to say 'Senpai' to him. He had always been Sensei to her.
Kakashi acknowledge her.
"Well, that is... that is something I want to tell you..." Sakura eyes roved to the river side and she bit her lip nervously.
"Come on, spill it..." Kakashi said to her in a annoyed-curious way, but still he held a kind tone to her.
"I'm... I'm pregnant...!" Sakura burst out.
`Oh god...! I sound exactaly how Ino would say it...´
Kakashi looked at her with a wide eye and he was unsure what to do or say.
"Pre-Pregnant...? You are joking, aren't you?" he said, almost in a stutter sort of way and looked like he wanted to die.
Sakura saw his look and frowned while closing her eyes hard.
"I'm sorry that I said that... But I thought you should know..." she said and raised from the grass and Kakashi took her wrist.
"Are you sure... Are you sure that you are pregnant?" Kakashi asked her and she looked away from him.
"...Hai..." she mumbled and Kakashis face was drained from colors.
"...No..." he mumbled and let go off Sakuras wrist.
"Senpai...?" Sakura looked concerned towards the silver haired man on the ground. He looked up to her.
"Please tell me that I'm not involve in this...?" Kakashi said and Sakura didn't know what to tell him. He raised himself from the ground too.
"I... I will be honest with you... I don't know if you are the father , but it's very likely that you are..." Saura told him. "We did have it twice after all..."
Kakashi backed away from her, unable to understand what she had said to him.
"Didn't you use any contraceptive?" he suddenly asked, making Sakura shift on the spot.
"No..." she mumbled ashamed. She could hear him growled and he looked away from her.
`No, this can't be happening... I can't be a father! I will not tolerate this...!´
"Do what you have to do... I will not get involve with this..." he said coldly to her and disappeared with a 'poof'.
Sakura blinked surprised to the spot Kakashi just had been standing ten seconds ago.
He had looked like a cornered animal when she had told him that she was pregnant and that he probably was the father.
It had hurt. Why she didn't know, but it had pain her deeply when he had told her that he didn't want to be a part of this.
"I should just have shut my big mouth and not told him..." Sakura mumbled to herself and tears began to run down her cheeks. "I'm such a bonehead... I should have understand him by know... He didn't really care for us at all..."
Sakura fell to her knees, sobbing.
"He only cared for his own fucking interest..." she growled and punshed her fist in to the ground.
The ground gave in by the impact and suddenly the sky became dark and then the rain came poring down on her.
Never in her whole life, had she felt this lonly. Like something was missing.
Author note:
Poor Sakura... What will she do next? And what about Kakashi?
It may contain some spelling errors... Sorry about that...
And some notes;
When I writes the text 'like this' it means that the person in question is thinking. When I writes like thisthe person emphasis just that word and when I writes like this that means flashbacks.
Do still feel free to ask me if something is bothering you.
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