Welcome Readers! This is a continuation to Holding onto Forever! I highly recommend you read that first before you read on here. Enjoy!

~ Prologue~

Rob strums soft music slowly thru our mountain home. The light is dim as it is quickly approaching the evening hours. I sit cuddled up underneath a blanket on the couch adjacent to Rob. I have my phone in hand as I have been avidly texting with Scout. She has been a great listener ever since we first found out about Felicity. I can now say her name without tears, but I have realized that the pain isn't ever going to leave, it will always be there. But now I can understand that she was a part of my life, and she always will be.

"I'm going to take away that phone." Rob says, taking me out of my trance. I have never been one to be obsessed with a my phone.

"You wouldn't dare." I giggle. Rob raises one eye brow and smiles. I quickly hide my phone, I slightly pull down my shirt and place it in my bra. Rob laughs and lunches at me. Rob lands on top of me and starts tickling my sides. "Give me that phone." He chuckles. "NO!" I scream. I'm giggling every time his fingers touch me. "My phone!" I laugh.

I stop fighting once Rob reaches my chest. His tickling changes into caressing, he gently moves his hands across my breasts. I still and look up at him. His eyes find mine and his hands cup me. "I think you found it." I whisper. Rob's grip becomes more intense, "Not yet." He says quietly. I lift my arms from my side and gently run my fingers thru his hair as he fondles my chest. Rob glues his face to my boobs and begins humming. "Mmmm."

"Hey Rob?" He looks up from his job at hand, "Yeah, sweetie?"

"I've gotta pee." We both laugh and he gets off of me. He extends his hand and helps me up. "I'll be right back." I softly kiss his check and hurry off to the bathroom.

"Kris? Whats taking so long?"

"Nothing. I'll be right out." I've been having really bad cramps lately. My abdomen has been really tender. I know I'm ovulating, so I've been keeping Rob at an arms length. I haven't been wanting to take birth control again, and if I told Rob that, I feel like he would get his feelings hurt. Its still a delicate situation.

I unlock the door and see Rob standing with his hands in his pockets. "Everything ok?" he asks, concern lacing in his voice.

"I'm fine. Really." I smile, "Ok, good." Rob moves towards me and wraps his arms around my now tiny waist. "Can we pick back up where we left off?"

I smile and shake my head, "How about we go meet Scout for dinner?"

Rob puts on his pout face and drops his head, "You don't love me." He says teasing me. "Oh stop being a baby."

Rob instantly looks up, "I want a baby."

My heart stops beating, my eyes widen and my mouth drops open. "What did you say?" I ask, my voice barely audible.

"Oh come on Kris, don't react like that." He takes his hands away from my waist and cups my face, "Its been 7 months, I'm not trying to replace Felicity, I just really want another baby."

I nod my head, I get what he is saying, I really do. We have been making such great progress. We can talk about Felicity with out crying. We laugh about changing her first dipper and how Rob used the entire package of baby wipes making sure he got all of her poop cleaned up.

But we still miss her.

"I want one too. But.."

"But?" Rob interrupts. "But, I don't know if were ready yet."

"Come here." He picks me up and puts me over his shoulder. "Put me down!" I scream. He doesn't budge, "Seriously Rob, this hurts my stomach put me down!"

"Fine!" He moans. He dumps me on the couch and lays me on-top of him. "Talk to me. Why aren't we ready?"

I shrug my shoulders and shake my head, "I don't know. I feel like we would be cheating on her.."

"Kris, we aren't cheating on her, we are giving her a sibling. Whats wrong with that?"

"Nothing, if you put it like that."

"There isn't any other way to put it. Come on, can we please do this?" Rob asks pleading with me.

"Ok." I smile, "Ok."