AN: My first GG fiction,

He looked at her with his green eyes; it wasn't too hard to see the hurt, confusion and sadness in them. She didn't have the courage to look at him; instead she focused on a little black spot on the floor. She didn't know what to do or say, she had hurt him in so many ways and so many times and now it was too late. All this time there had only been one thing she ever wanted to say to him, those three words; it always seemed so easy on movies. But this time she couldn't bring herself to do it, although she had wanted it for so long. When she finally looked in to his eyes, her heart broke once more, if that even was possible. The emotions in his eyes made her knees buckle, and she had to pull all the strength she had to stand up. She just wished that he would forgive her and embrace her with his arms, and that he would tell her that everything was going to be alright. But all that he did was turn around and walk away, and in the moment her world stopped. She heard her heart scream "stop him; tell him how you really feel, tell him that you love him!" But the other voice said "let him go, he never really loved you. If he did, he would have forgiven you, whom he didn't". She tried to go after him but her legs would not move, so all she could do was to watch him walk away. She did not even notice that tears began to pour down her cheeks, she just stood there.

For the first time Jenny felt empty, nothing really mattered anymore, she wanted to scream. She wanted to do a lot of things, she wanted to go back in time and change what she did. She wanted to change whatever it was that made Nate hate her so, he hadn't said that he did, but she knew. Ever since the snowflake ball, since the night where she humiliated Vanessa in public, that was one thing that she didn't regret. Vanessa used to be her friend, and she went and stabbed her in the back, you don't do that to a friend who considered you as family. She had brought that upon herself, she had destroyed everything between herself and Nate. Yes she was sorry that Vanessa found out like she did, but steal a letter where Nate poured out his heart to Jenny, it was unforgivable. Jenny felt the rain that had started to fall, but somehow she didn't seem to care, what was really the point? All she wanted in that moment was to have Nate back, and she didn't care what happened to her. She began to shiver from the cold rain, and after a while the world started to move and she was already unconscious when she hit the ground.

When she awoke she could here the beeping from a machine, she could also hear muffled voices, one that she knew. ´Dad, holy crap, what happened?´. She tried to concentrate to hear what they were saying.

"There are no really explanation to why she collapsed, it could be from the cold, not eating properly, could be anything. But she is going to be alright, at least physical, we just want to keep her overnight just to be safe." She opened her eyes, and saw Dan in the chair beside her. He was reading a book, as usually. He looked up and saw that she was awake; quickly he put the book away.

"Hey, you're awake, how are you feeling?" His eyes were full with concern and love, how could she be worthy of such an amazing brother. Her eyes were soon full with tears, and they slowly made their way down her face. Dan didn't say anything; he just embraced her, hold her while she cried. She could hear the door opened and closed, she didn't dare to look their dad in the eye. All she wanted was to disappear, just evaporate. After what seemed forever she fell asleep once again, a sleep that was haunted by something she couldn't make out what it was. When she woke up again, she was met by the strong light from the sun. Jenny looked around in the room but didn't see anyone, so she quietly sat up and tried to figure out where her clothes were. "Do they have to hide EVERYTHING!?" She finally found them and started to change, when she was almost finished the door opened. In stepped her dad, and he sure did look surprised when he saw her up and walking.

"Hey, what are you doing?" He didn't seem angry, just surprised. She looked at him and gave him a look that said "what do you think I'm doing? I'm getting out of here!"

"I'm going home; I don't want to stay here." Rufus just stood there watching his daughter as she packed her belongings, he wanted to know what had happened, but decided it would better if he didn't bring it up at the moment. When Jenny had finished packing they started to head home. When they got home Jenny straight headed for her room, she wanted to be alone. No one entered her room that night, they figured that she would want some time alone. But instead of resting Jenny was packing her belongings, she had no plan of sticking around; she was leaving later that night. When both Dan and Rufus were asleep, it may sound cliché but she would leave a note, telling them almost everything. At midnight both her father and brother was fast asleep, and she tried to be as quiet as she could be. She left the note on the kitchen table, looked around one last time, before heading out into the night...

Spotted little J going on a bus heading for Texas, wonder what she is going to do there? Does it have anything to do with N and V's reunion? Well I guess we'll have to wait and see, but I wonder what Lonely Boy is thinking about little sis runaway?

Xoxo

Gossip Girl

AN: The first time I even try to write a Gossip Girl fiction, I got a plan how I want things to turn out, but please leave me a review, and I'm also seeking a beta reader who can push me when I need to write!