Disclaimer: I do not own anything from or about High School Musical.
SUMMARY: Since Gabriella has gone through the stages of growing up, she has always been told that she isn't good enough: not pretty enough, smart enough or funny enough. Gabriella, like many teenagers, is experiencing depression. She has nowhere to turn; she is abused by family, some 'friends' and even classmates. She has this feeling that she will be alone for the rest of her life and can't manage to move past her depression. Can someone come along and show her she is worth everything and more, before it's too late?
PROLOGUE
JOURNAL ENTRY 24
May 18, 2010 4:52 pm
I have though about doing the deed. Again. What would my mother think? Do I really care what she would think? Not so much. I stopped caring what she thought about me long ago. I was never good enough for her. I excelled, but not enough. I am pretty, but not beautiful enough to be in a relationship she so desperately wants me to be in. What would my friends think? Would ANYONE care? After they found out, would they have thought twice about what they did? I continually think about this. Would it even cross their minds? I know the world won't stop and I know people will move on, regardless. But if it happens, there is no turning back…
However, I do think about what I would miss. The sweet sound of music, that causes a burning passion deep in my soul. I wouldn't experience graduating from high school. I wouldn't have my first kiss, relationship or even get married and have kids for that matter. I wouldn't see the first snowfall of the year, and I would no longer decorate the house for Christmas. I wouldn't hear the sound of my laugh, or those striking blue eyes that I deeply love. But I also wouldn't cry anymore. I would no longer be hurt by others. I wouldn't have to be in pain..
I've made up my mind…
Gabriella shut her notebook and continued to lay on her bed for a moment. She looked around her room; taking everything in. Her pale yellow walls, the fresh smell of lilacs, and looking out at the sun that continued to lower into the sky.
She got up and walked out her balcony doors and stood there momentarily. She glanced down to look in her back yard, and glanced over in his. He was also outside, playing basketball with Chad. A small smile crept on her face as she saw him laugh. That laugh. And that smile. She glanced one last time.
"I love you, Troy." she whispered.
She turned from the balcony and entered her bathroom. She opened her medicine cabinet and picked up the brand new bottle of sleeping pills.
She poured herself a glass of water.
Gabriella looked at herself in the mirror. What had pushed her to this? Everything.
"I will no longer suffer, I will be happy on the other side." she said aloud, trying to get herself to believe it.
She chugged the bottle of pills and followed with the water.
She looked at herself in the mirror, and smiled.
"I will no longer be in pain." she whispered.
And then she waited.