He hadn't told anyone, when his brother came into his alpha heat the next stage before he come a mature alpha. But he wasn't ready for it but it still happen any way it was his first time with any one and it happen to be his Alpha brother. He kept quiet about it as his brother because he is father's golden boy so he locked himself away from Thor, especially as Thor acted like nothing happen and he went back treating his omega brother like he was his little brother. His pain and fear turned into anger and bitterness and to keep his sanity he worked on his magic. But then the worst happen he found out that he was pregnant and he decided for the best of everyone that he would disappear for the next 6 months.

Years later the rifted between Loki and Thor and the alpha didn't understand what he did to upset his brother. After the attack on Midgard Loki was dragged back home to pay for his crimes, for once he didn't talk to Loki he just looked at him, he saw that he was pale than normal and that his eyes look sunken and heavy with bags "You haven't been sleeping." He found himself saying, Loki looked at him from the corner of his eye and he would have snarled but being gagged made it hard to look angry. "I wish I knew why went like Loki why did you turn on us." The dark haired god made a nose and looked back to the golden doors that lead to Odin's throne.

After Loki was placed in the glass cell he looked at the small box his mother brought him "I didn't look." She whispered as she touched his cheek, he smiled weakly and looked down at the beautiful pattern box "That is from Earth isn't it?" She asked as she watched the long fingers trace a pattern "I didn't know you were there before?"

"It was a long time ago mother, we I need to get away." He said, as he felt tears roll down his cheeks as he remembered the reason why he was there 10 years ago "I wasn't ready." He whispered. Frigga looked up at him with wide eyes as she looked at his face

"Ready for what?" She asked as she wiped his tears away.

"It's too late to talk about it mother, the damage was done and no one would have believe me then and no one will believe me now." Loki smiled weakly as he forced himself to walk towards his bed holding the box to his chest. Frigga frowned at his words and at his movements he seeing Loki hold the box as if it was a child and it made her wonder.

Loki sat on the floor by his bed as he open the box that his mother held onto, he pulled out a photo and looked down at it smiling sadly at the image in it. He wondered he was okay if his little boy was alright he hoped that during the attack that his son was safe. He did try to keep an eye out for him made sure he was far away the attack as he could make it. …I should have stopped the attack… he thought …but what choice did I have… he told himself as he warped his arms around himself.

Thor turned up a couple of days later, after his mother spoke to him about Loki's behaviour. The blonde wanted to think it was a tick to get his mother to whisper in his father's ears to be less harsh on Loki's punishment. He stood at the cell for the longest time watching Loki as he looked at something from the box before he spoke "Why are you like this brother? We were once close." He said, Loki flinched and put the photo into the box slamming the lad shut. He looked up at the blonde and frowned at him before standing up and move to his book shelf

"I'm not your brother but you have always known that haven't you?" Loki said as he refused to look up at him

"What did I do to you that made hate me so much?" Thor asked, Loki snapped the book shut and finely looked up at him with anger

"Of course you wouldn't remember! I wasn't ready but you were forgiven for your alpha heat. 'Don't worry Thor no one remembers their alpha heat it just means you're a man.' Isn't that what father said to you?" He snared as he picked up a book and threw it at the glass walls. Thor frowned and looked down at where the book fell before he looked up at him

"My alpha heat… Loki what are you talking abo…" He stopped and closed his eyes finely understanding what Loki was meaning.

"Do you see now?" Loki growled at him as he threw another book at the wall

"Why didn't you say something to me about it or mother? Instead you let yourself fester. Loki I am sorry you for what I did to you but you could have just talk to me." He told him, Loki threw a heavier book at him

"Shut up…you have no idea what I went thought! I WASN'T READY!" He screamed as tears ran down his face "I was scared and I felt alone. I thought we were blood brothers and how it was all wrong. Then I leant we were never brothers." He said as he dropped to the floor.

"Loki…" Thor whispered as he knelt on the floor on the other side of glass prison "I've never wanted to hurt you like that."

"It doesn't matter anymore. None of it matters." Loki whispered as he stood up as h walked over to the bed and picked up his small box and climbed onto the bed turning away.

Frigga looked at Thor with unimpressed eyes as she snipped at the flowers in the gardens, he just told her what Loki just said to him. "That would explain a lot." She said as she angry sipped at the flowers

"I had no control over my actions mother I didn't mean to hurt him." He whispered

"I'm not mad at you Thor. I am mad that my baby boy couldn't tell us." She hissed as she turned to face him "Thor I know your father and I brought you up to be a strong alpha that will one day take the throne once your father steps down. But I afraid that maybe we didn't spend enough time with Loki to make him feel loved or trusted." Thor frowned as he walked up to her

"Mother It's my fault Loki is like this…"

"I think we're all to blame. Your father has good intentions when he brought Loki home to us, I love Loki as if he was my own flesh and blood and I will defend many-many things he had done. I need to speak Loki." She said, she touched Thor's arms and rubbed his arms up and down before leaving.