Firefly/Serenity – not mine.
Small drabble fic set in the distant future… Zoë's POV.
The two objects in my hands are so familiar. They seem to fit my palms perfectly, and for the first time in a long time I feel complete. Pulling them outta the box I'd so rudely shoved them in all those years ago, blowing the thick layer of dust off.
50 years I been waiting for you. Waiting for you to come home.
I know you never will, but I love the sense of peace hope brings.
I kept holding on to hope through all those years.
Back before Serenity, even before Serenity valley.
If you ain't got hope, you ain't got much.
And I've forgotten it over the years.
Sure, the captain tried his hardest to get me through but sometimes, all I wanted was for the loving warmth that you brought to my life.
Ain't no one that can replace you.
Ain't no one that tried to be honest. I have that effect on people.
I'm surprised you even kept on trying after that first time when I…
Then you had to just go an die!
I remember that gorramn day like it was yesterday. The amount of times it's run through my head, it might as well have been.
Hwoon dahn! Why'd you have to leave me? Why'd you have to be the one lyin in the ground while I'm left to do nought but grieve over a patch of dirt and a bit of rock?
I hate you for leaving me. I love you. I always will. But I hate you just the same for leaving me with so much pain.
I want it to go away! I want to forget you ever existed!
Oh baby, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I don't know what I'm sayin'.
Ramblings of an old woman now. So old I can't even bend my fingers to pull a trigger. I can't even walk to visit you where you lie. I'm so useless.
Bein' old. Its…different.
I never thought I'd get this far. 'Specially not after you left me.
So old…
And you baby. Always gonna stay so young. You ain't changing anytime soon.
But don't you worry, you ain't gonna get away with it much longer.
I'm reaching the end of my life. I feel it. Then I'm gonna come and give you the biggest shouting you ever had!
Soon baby, I'll see you again. But for now…
I place the objects on the shelf and smile. They look good there.
Almost as if they've found a new 'this land' and are pleased.
Them dinosaurs… the last I have of you.