All we ever wanted was a life worth living. Most of us wanted a family. We, the original Gladers, knew that we were tighter then family. We were like brothers. A lot of us wanted to have someone to lean their weight on. But we all had to step up and take responsibility. Alby and I more than anyone. All of us wanted answers. We all wanted vengeance on the people who had unrightfully imprisoned us here. Me? I wanted to get vengeance on the people that personally made my life hell, crippled me, poisoned me with the Flare, and made me hurt the only people who ever cared.
In the Glade, the death of one of our number was mourned. Reflecting, besides the point that I'd already tried to die there, their deaths were much better than forcing your best friend to kill you. Death was never, in my limited memory, a punishment. It was a way out.
When the Rat Man, or Janson, whatever you want to call him, announced that I had the Flare, you could say that a forced calm came over me. Inside, I was burning. Those people basically sent me out to go crazy. I was nothing but a lab rat to them. I was just a "Variable." I just wanted to die sane. I wanted to die me. It took everything in me to make Thomas kill me. I could tell that it killed him internally. The scared, hurt, and even pleading eyes were the last thing I saw.
Thomas doesn't deserve that. Every poor shank in the Glade was forced to grow up before they were ready for it. Minho doesn't deserve to have all but one of the people in his life ripped away from him. They're all strong; no doubt about it, but that doesn't justify it. All my life, I've tried to be that person that tries to keep others innocent and stress-free as possible. In that last moment, I just let it all go. All the stress and worries from two years as a leader, as a shucking-Glader, gone. I couldn't say I died happy. I died knowing that I was transferring my pain onto someone else. But I got my last wish. I died sane. I died me.
A/N: I want to write more for Maze Runner, crossover or not, either one, but I have NO ideas thus far. If you have any that you'd like to loan me... Feel entirely welcome. I hope you liked it and I will hope to post more stories in the near future.