chapter 1

i was there thinking what to say to my girlfriend that i needed to tell someone that me and Jen are together its eating me up inside. Surely i can trust my bestest friend Maddie, she will understand wont she? its 11:30pm i need some sleep but i just cant get jen off my mind, i never seem to be able to consecrate anymore. I wish we didn't have to pretend that were not together. Why does their have to be a stupid rule about Teachers dating Students. i try and get some sleep as i have college in the morning so i drift of to sleep thinking about the one woman i love. My thoughts have gone as son as my alarm goes off ! So i grumpily get out of bed but then my mood changes as soon as i see my phone and see i have a message off my amazing Jen it read

hey beautiful good morning missing you loads and love you cant wait until i see you xxxxxx j

My heart skipped a beat when jen said she was missing me loads and that she loved me so then i typed back

Hey beautiful yourself ;) missing you more and love you too cant wait to see your loving smile of yours xxxxxx T

I jump into the shower then get ready i want to look my best for Jen so i put a little more makeup on than i normally do. i then look at the time and think oh crap im going to be late i was that bothered in trying to make myself look stunning for my Jen that when i walk down the corridor she wont be able to turn away from me. I quickly put my shoes on then run downstairs.

'Bye mum im going to be late love you see you in a bit'.

' one minute love i will give you a lift'

'thanks mum that would be great'

we go to the car and i can feel my mum staring at me i know she knows that i want to impress someone i know shes going to ask me the question so i try and start the conversation before she asks me that question but im too late

'so Tilly love whos this girl your trying to impress then and dont say no one because you wasn't nearly late for nothing your always early'.

' ok mum yes you got me i really like this girl ok now can we just leave it there please'

' awwwww is my Tils in love'

'mum'

'sorry darling just that my little girl isn't little anymore shes growing up'

'its ok mum right thanks for dropping me off but i have to go now otherwise im going to be late for my first lesson'

'ok bye love will see you later don't know what time me and your dad are going to be back i might be on a business trip'

'ok bye'

i run to my first lesson which is art i have the biggest smile on my face as i walk in Jen cant stop staring at me i have to put my hand up and say i need help with my work otherwise people will be asking doesn't realize i have my hand up so i have to shout her name she jumps.

'Miss Gilmore i need help with my work please'

'ok Tilly what part are you stuck on'

' Jen you know im not really stuck right ? i needed you to come over because you wont stop staring at me and people will think its weird so you need to stop ok'

' i am so sorry Tilly i cant help it you look i don't know i cant even explain how amazing you look just wow'

i go slightly red ' thanks babe right you better help other people now because they might start to get a little suspicious'

' oh yeah i didn't realize babe right im going to go now love you'

before i could reply Jen was already helping another student i so wanted to say i love you back.

The bell went for break and Jen shouted me to stay behind as normal so i waited until everyone was gone then i was prepared to tell her i had to tell someone i was dreading it.

'Jen i need to tell you something'

'yeah go on babe'

' i don't know how to say this is i am just going to come out with it. its eating me up inside i need to tell someone about are relationship Jen'

i know when i studied her face she was shocked ' Jen please don't be angry with me if you don't want me to say anything to anyone one i wont'

'Tilly im not angry with you i love you and i love that i can call you my girlfriend, because i don't know what my life would have been without you in my life i know you need to speak to someone about are relationship because i feel the same so if you want to you can as long as you know if Maddie tells someone else this could be over for us'

i was shocked i didn't know what to say i cant believe she said that i can tell someone and i was even more shocked that she said that she was proud that she could call me her girlfriend.

'earth to Tils'

'sorry babe i was just shocked that you said i could tell someone i thought you was going to b angry with me, but you've proved me wrong and im even more socked that you said that because your not good with your feelings'

'Tils its ok babe you know that i love you and im sorry that i don't say it enough but you must know that i really do love you with all my heart and nothings going to change that'

'Right babe im going to go now my friends will be wondering where i am see yo soon and i love you'

'love you too'

i move in for a kiss this kiss i have wanted all day i love for it, Jen tries to heat it up so i back away ' don't think so Miss Gilmore'

with that i went out of her room wishing i never stopped kissing her all i wanted to do was kiss her all day long, i went into the common room where everybody was waiting for me i was in such a daydream that i didn't even know Maddie was shouting my name.

'Tilly, Tilly, Tilllyyyyy oi'

'sorry Maddie i was just in the world of my own anyway i need to speak to you about something'

' yeah i kind of figured that you was an cant it wait babe'

'no not really Mads'

Hope you all enjoyed my first part of my story !