Your name is Matthew Williams, and you're not sure about anything, anymore.
You're alone, now, and the food that you prepare and eat is tasteless.
You continue on life, despite that depression that just won't go away.
It's been awhile, you decide, since you've been in a relationship.
Life is too short, says many, to be scared. But your life is so damn long. It's too long to not be scared.
Being brave is foolish, unrational. Not much comes from it, anymore.
You only live for your people, and for that giant landmass that is oddly connected to you.
Perhaps, if you hadn't... Thought that person that still makes your cheeks go pink, makes you studder more than you usually do, and, oh mon Dieu, still makes your heart flutter like crazy whenever their beautiful eyes meet yours, could actually... Possibly... Feel anything like that towards you.
It was silly. So silly.
Why you? Why would they like you?
You, blonde haired, glasses wearing, awkward and plain Matthew Williams. What's there to like? Hockey loving, too quiet, hesitant you. What is there to like?
Nothing.
So why was there small glimmer of hope in the first place?
It wasn't like they even told you that they disliked you directly, anyway. It was simply through affectionate actions. Not for you, of course. For someone who was much more worthy of their love than you.
Of course.
You just remember drinking a lot, that night, Kumahikagoruki tilting his head in that adorable manner and just sleeping, deciding it was better to wait until your sober to ask for food.
You remember waking up the next morning-this morning- your long, blonde curls matted and tangled. Your eyes were filled with sleep, and it the pounding in your head hurt so much you just wanted to scream.
Then again, you were never good at screaming.
Fuck life. Fuck . This is like, the seventh time that I've submitted this. Yes, this is my first fanfic ever submitted on FF, and damn.
Either way, neither Hetalia or Canada belong to me, and never will, sadly. If it did, then all the background characters would be the main characters, and most of the main characters would be the background characters.
Oh, before anyone gets curious, this could be Canada x Anyone. Canada x America, Canada x England, Canada x You, Canada x Maple Syrup, Canada xUkraine, Canada x Cuba , Canada x Belgium, Canada x I don't give a fuck.