You and Only You
Chapter 1
Raven:
We were so close. He had understood me. We talked and hung out. He was the only one I could be myself with. The only one I truly trusted. If only he hadn't broken my heart…
It's been a month since that day. A month since he broke my heart in Tokyo. It's getting harder and harder to watch them together. I'm ok when they aren't in the same room together at the same time as me. Just one is ok. That I can handle. But that is extremely rare. She seems to be tied to him at the lips. When they walk in together I melt into the shadows and spend the rest of the day alone on the roof or in my room, refusing to come out or answer when someone knocks on my door. They act worried but I know they aren't.
Knock knock
"Friend Raven, do you wish to join us for a trip to the theater of movies?" Starfire asked. "Starfire I am TRYING to meditate" my voice held no emotion at all. I was just sitting on my bed looking at nothing in particular. It didn't even bother me that I had lied to her. Honestly I didn't need to meditate anymore, ever since I defeated my father I found that meditating didn't do anything for me anymore. But none of the other Titans knew that, or needed to know that. I had come to a point of almost hating Starfire. Her life was perfect while I was miserable. I heard her walk away from my door. I waited a few minutes before I dared to stick my head down the hallway to make sure they were gone. Padding barefoot and cloakless through the empty tower I went to the kitchen for some tea. I had definitely been drinking more than I had before Tokyo, but it helped to keep me calm. Putting the water on to boil I sat on the counter to wait.
Robin:
Taking a long hot shower after my workout felt good. Getting dressed I decided to go see if there was anything to snack on in the kitchen. I walked through the door and wasn't surprised to see that Raven was home too. She looked up surprised when the doors hissed shut behind me. "Hey" I said walking over to the fridge. All our food was fuzzy and blue. Gross, looks like we need to do dome grocery shopping. I looked up and she looked at the floor and started swinging her feet. Concerned I went over and put my hand on her shoulder "Are you ok?" Raven shrugged off my hand and slid off the counter. Without looking at me she turned off the stove and walked out of the room like I wasn't even there. Wonder what I did to earn the cold shoulder? I thought running after her. She had enough of a lead that I couldn't follow her but I knew where she was going. I could see her door closing ahead of me.
Knock knock
"Raven can I come in?" Silence. "I know you're in there and I'm coming in" I typed in the over-ride code and walked in.
Raven:
I was standing at my window staring but not seeing when he walked in. He walked up and stood next to me and looked out my window. "What's wrong?" He asked his voice soft and laced with concern. "Nothing, now I need to meditate" I gestured to the door. I hated lying to him; I always have hated it and always will. He could always tell when I was lying too. That's probably why I hate lying to him, because I can never get away with it. I thought but my heart told me otherwise. Robin looked at the door then at me before taking a seat in the middle of my bed. "I'm not leaving until you tell me what's bugging you." He informed me calmly but sternly and I knew he meant it. He was too stubborn for his own good sometimes. "Nothing is wrong, now GET OUT!" I growled at him. "No, I'm worried about you. You've changed Raven. You're acting different. You're drawing into yourself, bottling up feelings caused by whatever is bothering you. It's not healthy" he preached to me. "Why won't you talk to me, let me help you?" I turned my back to him and walked to the other side of my room. "I thought you trusted me" he sounded disappointed. "I do" I told him turning to look at him. "More than anyone" I added under my breath. He heard me. "Then why won't you talk to me, maybe I can help you fix whatever it is your dealing with" he walked up to me. There was barley a foot between us now and it was pure torture for me. "There's nothing left to fix. It's too late, it's gone" I spat looking directly at him. It was true. My chances with him were gone. He was with Starfire now. They were a couple. "Raven, what's gone?" he asked gently with his hands on my shoulders. Unable to take his piercing gaze any longer I looked at the floor and whispered one word. "You"
Robin:
"Raven I'm ri-" then it clicked in my head. Raven had started slowly pulling away from the rest of the team about a month ago. We got back from Tokyo a month ago and I had made it official with Starfire. I kissed Starfire, and Raven didn't speak to me for three days after it. Raven looked at me expectantly as if she could see that I was figuring it out. "You like me don't you" it was more of a statement than a question. Raven looked away before nodding slightly. Then the next thing I knew I was being thrown out of her room to land in a pile on the floor in the hall. I never would have thought... To say I was shocked was an understatement. I couldn't believe it; Raven liked me. And here I was going out with the wrong Titan. I had always thought she could never, would never….I thought that maybe I could learn to love Starfire, but this changes everything. Not even bothering to knock I unlocked her door and went right back in. She was curled in a ball on her bed. Her head was on her knees with her back to the door. I ducked as a flying book went by.
Raven:
I should have just thrown him out the door when I had the chance. I thought miserably. Too busy trying to control my emotions to no avail I didn't hear my door open again. Suddenly strong arms wrapped around me. I looked up to see his warm smile. Starfire, what would she do if she found out? "What ab-" Robin cut me off almost instantly. "Don't worry about that right now." He told me, pulling me closer and kissing my forehead. I unconsciously leaned into his embrace. We sat there watching as things slowly fell from the air and I eventually uncurl to sit next to him. About an hour later I sensed the arrival of the others. "They're home" I opened my door with my powers. I watched him walk out going in the direction of the living room. I put on my cloak and shoes deciding to try again to get my tea.
When I walked into the living room Robin and Starfire were missing. Which, to me wasn't a real surprise. Robin had probably just been trying to comfort me. "BOOYA!" Cyborg shouted and started doing a victory dance around a pouting Beastboy. I poured the water into my cup and added the tea leaves then walked to the roof for some much needed fresh air to clear my head. I was halfway up the stairs to the roof when I heard a scream. Starfire I would know her scream anywhere after fighting with her for so many years. Opening the door she flew right past me with tears in her eyes. Seeing Robin standing there I turned to leave.
Robin:
"You don't have to go" I told her. Raven turned around to face me. She looked at me for a brief moment before a light pink covered her cheeks. I smiled cockily and she went to sit on the edge of the roof. "Why was Starfire upset?" she asked in an emotionless voice. "I broke up with her" I sat down next to her on the roof. She looked down and a curtain of violate hair hid her face as she asked "Why" I looked at her surprised she hadn't figured it out yet. "She wasn't the one for me" I whispered in her ear. I pulled back a bit and looked at where she was sitting, or where she had been sitting before she had phased through the roof. Sighing I made my way downstairs to find something for dinner. Taking some leftover pizza, I went to my room. I lay on my bed thinking about my little conversation with Raven until sleep claimed me.
Normal:
Robin was up at 6:30 thinking about what to do about Raven. He wasn't planning on going down there until he had an idea how to approach the young empath. A large crash coming from the living room around 11 is what finally convinced him to go downstairs. Running he went right to the living room, or as it looked today the World War III battle field. Beastboy was backed against the now broken windows with Raven holding something in front of him. Cyborg was hiding in the corner hoping not to be noticed with no sign of Starfire. The couch was torn in several places, there were holes in the walls, and a dent in the stove and all but one of the windows were shattered. "Raven" He said her name while slowly advancing towards her. She turned around with four red eyes glaring at him, a spatula in hand. A spatula? He thought wondering what that had to do with this. "Raven" he said again as she turned around with black tentacles reaching for Beastboy, intent on killing the green changeling. Raven felt a hand on her shoulder, and couldn't react fast enough to prevent strong arms from wrapping around her trapping her arms by her sides. "Let go" she growled. She blinked and once again her eyes were normal but no less angry. "Not going to happen" Robin said dragging her to the stairs that surrounded the room. She was fighting against him but her attempts at getting free were getting feebler by the minute.
Robin sat on the bottom step sitting Raven between his legs on the floor, never releasing his hold on her. "Beastboy you are so dead meat!" Raven said meaning it. She started struggling again which only made Robin hold tighter. "Now Raven I'm sure you don't have to kill him do you?" Robin asked calmly. "Yes I do" She hissed venom dripping with every word she said. "Beastboy, may I ask what you could have possibly done to make her this mad?" Robin was starting to struggle to restrain the young demoness though he would never admit it. "Heh well I-" Beastboy started. "Don't you dare finish that sentence!" Ravens eyes flashed red again and Beastboys mouth snapped shut with and audible 'snap'. Raven turned into her soul self and flew out of Robins arms and to her room. "Man you two are lucky to be alive right now" Cyborg said walking up to them. Robin got up and started for the door. "I wouldn't do that if I were you" Cyborg warned knowing where his leader was going." She's not ok Cyborg" Robin said walking out the door. "$20 says he has a broken something next time we see him" bet Beastboy. "Yeah right, he's not stupid. You're on" Cyborg agreed.
Knock Knock
"I don't know why you bother knocking when you can open my door on your own." Raven said through the door. "Can I come in?" Robin asked. She opened her door with a sigh and a wave of her hand. "I respect your privacy" he said coming to sit on the bed beside her. "Then why are you here" She droned looking at her hands. "I needed to check on you, I was worried" he took her hands in his own. She sighed. "It's all wrong" she whispered. "What's wrong" he asked gently not wanting to upset her more that she obviously already was. "I shouldn't feel this way. I'm a demon, it won't end well. I don't want to get hurt again" Ravens voice was getting quieter with every word she said. "I wasn't meant to love; I found that out with Malchior." "I'd never hurt you Raven." He told her. "Do you want to try?" he offered just wanting to be with her now that he knew she felt the same. "I'd like that" she told him. And once again allowed herself to lean against him.
Something moving woke Raven from the light doze she had been in. She opened her eyes and looked around but seeing nothing out of the ordinary she closed them again. Robin listened to her breathing for a minute before silently slipping out of her room and back to the living room. "Dude you're in one piece" Beastboy said not believing it. "Ya BB, aren't I supposed to be?" Robin asked. "I was starting to think you were dead, you've been in there for hours." Beastboy admitted. "BB you owe me $20" Cyborg announced grinning happily. "Well it took a while but the two of us finally came to an understanding" Robin said thinking well it is the truth, just a different version. "So what could you have possibly done this time to have pissed Raven off like that anyway?" Robin asked the green teen while he started some lunch for himself. "And if he answers that he will be thrown right out the window" Raven announced herself with the threat making Beastboy jump into Cyborgs arms who promptly dropped him on the on the floor laughing at him.
The guys eventually managed to get Starfire out of her room to come outside with them. Starfire ignored Robin the whole time they were playing soccer and football. Thanks to the lights on the tower and around the island they were able to play well into the night without even realizing it. When they finished their latest argument about who won the game, Robin looked up to see the moon sinking in the sky. Looking around he saw Raven sleeping under a tree with a blanket, no it was…his sweatshirt. Robin smiled and shook his head. The others noticing his smile, followed his gaze, Starfire frowned and looked at her feet, Cyborg looked at Robin giving him a knowing look, and Beastboy laughed thinking it was hilarious earning a slap upside the head courtesy of Cyborg. "Let's go to bed, the sun will be up in a couple of hours" Robin said with the others yawning their agreement. Robin walked over to where Raven was laying in the grass. Picking her up carefully he managed not to wake her. He heard Cyborg saying it was almost three in the morning. "I bet she curled up with your sweatshirt because she likes you" Cyborg said waiting for Robin to catch up. Robin ignored his friends comment. "Want me to take her?" Cyborg asked knowing this would also prove the thought Robin likes Raven. "No, I got her. I don't want to shift her so much that she'll wake up" Robin said using the fact that Raven was a light sleeper (and everyone knew it) to his advantage. "Ok" Cyborg said before running to catch up with the other two. Robin happily took his time going to Ravens room.
He gently laid her in the middle of her bed and he sat on the edge. Robin tucked a stray piece of hair behind her ear and caressed her soft cheek with the inside of his thumb. Ravens eyes slowly blinked open. She put a hand over his which was still caressing her cheek. "Go back to sleep, it's late" he smiled at her. She moved his hand and tentatively kissed it. Her eyes were shining. She turned onto her side and closed her eyes, leaving her to sleep Robin took his leave. The alarm blared just as he reached his door. Groaning he turned around and met Raven at her door. Together they went to the living room to find out who was responsible for keeping them from sleeping.