A/N: Prompt- Oceans
Title: Sleepless Tides
I hate nights like these. Nights where sleep eludes me. Where the thoughts in my mind collide with the fears of my heart. They fight for dominance within the confines of my being. The hairs on my skin rise and fall like the mighty tides. Beads of sweat form on my brow.
How did we get to where we are now? A missed meal here and there? One too many late night meetings? Peace conferences throughout the nations taking one of us away for weeks at a time? Missing more and more of Hirohkai's bending lessons? I suppose that I can go on and on, but that wouldn't be fair. I am sure that I can make a list about myself.
I don't know which emotion to concentrate on. I'm overwhelmed from the abundance of them flooding my heart. I want to let the wall I've built over the years crumble and release the dam of tears that are barely being contained free. However, the mere thought of unleashing them makes my blood boil. Undoubtedly I am more afraid of the rage brewing within me. I can't seem to figure out who to be worthy of my wrath, you or me.
As much as I want to blame you for leading us to our current destination, I know that is not the truth. I find it harder and harder to breathe, as I come to the realization that I have allowed us to stray from the path we originally set. To the new one we are treading through. I feel as though I am barely keeping my head above the waves. Pretty fucking ironic coming from me, I know.
I can hear your steady breath in the solitude of our chambers. All I need to do is stretch out my hand and I would be able to feel your slick locks slip through the tips of my fingers. When I open my eyes, I can see the the outline of your form, half hidden beneath our silk sheets. I can see the rise and fall of your chest with each breath you take. Your mouth is slightly parted. Every time you exhale the air surrounding us gets just a little warmer.
Yet, even though we are breaths away from one another, I feel as though we are oceans apart, maybe even further...