Set Fire to the Rain

I don't own South Park, and the song belong to Adele.

I looked at him, his breathing is as soft as an infant. His expression is so innocent and peaceful in sleep. And his face. With blond locks of the color of sun, delicate features that almost feminal, and beneath those long eyelashes are the sky blue eyes I can never forget. Oh god, I felt my heart ached at the thought, that must be what angel looks like…

I've known him for all my life, but after a million times of looking at him, I'm still amazed by how…perfect he looks.

Anyone who doesn't know the REAL Kenny McCormick would definitely think he's the sweetest kind. Not only does he has an angelic face but also a heart of gold. But I can assure you, he has a crazy dark side that no one knows of.

I sit on the bed and curled up to my knees. I've been dating Kenny for five weeks till now. After Stan broke up with me.

That's right, Stan has always loved Wendy. But I thought I was his…soulmate. At least I wanted to believe so…But Wendy is his one and only. And to tell the truth, I always knew he'll leave me one day, deep down, I could see Stan was simply taking advantage on me…I knew that one day it'll all come to an end, but I was never brave enough to face it.

(Five weeks ago...)

"Hey, Kyle. I gotta tell you something."

"What is it?" I was busy putting my books into the locker and didn't look at him when I spoke. "I'm going to your place tonight because my mom…"

"You know I'm in love with Wendy, right? "

I froze.
"…What do you mean?" I turned to face him, he averted eye contact. I noticed he had a black eye and several bruises.

"What happened?" I gasped, "Did you get in a fight?"

"Listen, I'm been thinking about our relationship and…I'm sorry Kyle, I can't do this."

So it came. "Stan," I laughed nervously, "What…What's the matter? Don't joke like this…" God did I sound stupid.

He met my eyes. I could see honesty in his oh-so-blue eyes. "I can't pretend the feelings I don't have. I know I've been hurting you since our first date, even though I never meant to hurt you this deep. I was being selfish… This is for the best, Kyle."

I shivered out of instinct. I didn't say anything. I knew this would happen. But hell, no matter how many times I thought about it, I was never prepared for it.

He hesitated. "…You used to be my best friend. But this love has changed me into a selfish bastard who only wanted you to sacrifice, and we've never been equal ever since."

I looked into his eyes, resisting the urge to touch him, to feel him. "I can't stop my love for you." I whispered quietly, feeling tears stinging in my eyes, hating the fact it has made me this weak, but I couldn't fight it.

"I know I don't deserve to say this, but I hope we can be friends again, that's on the condition that you forgive me."

I don't think I can love anyone the way I love you. My tongue danced behind my lips but the voice never came out.

He gave me one timid smile, then he left without another word.

I stood in numb and watched him heading for the door, didn't have the nerve to call him back.

I closed my eyes. I want to erase Stan from my memory just like that. I'm with Kenny now. Kenny, on the other hand, has the spirit like fire, and he's the one helped me through the hell Stan put me into. But, I'd never expected that Kenny has a whole different plan. His dark intentions, his whole other side I'd never known before. Only till now have I been hurt deep enough to understand his pain, his unspoken misery and cursed fate.

But in his words, "it's never enough". I can never fully understand his suffering and he will make sure I'll be "half as damaged as him to be his soulmate".

I want to believe Kenny loves me, so I can finally set my worries aside and safely fall in love, but I'm also awared of the fact that he's not like me. I want him to have faith in something warm and bright, I want him to feel the same, and I sincerely wish him to overcome the insecurity so deep that has twisted his soul… But now I know he's playing a wicked game, a game I can never win. He's the immortal bastard who can get away with anything, he can do whatever he pleases and I'm too tired to play…He really is the cause of my misery now.

I should've never entered Kenny McCormick's world, now there's no way back without getting burnt.