Emotionless
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or anything else having to do with Buffy or Angel. Everything belongs to Joss and whoever else is involved in the show.
A/N: Hey everyone! This is my first B/A fic, so please be gentle with the reviews. Hope you like..
Summary: My summaries suck, the story is better.. After having being brought back from the dead, Buffy can't stand being around her friends anymore. She gives up on everything, including slaying. In an attempt to get her back on track the Scoobies send her to L.A. where hopefully the Fang Gang will be able to help her out.
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Prologue
Emotionless. Empty. Void of life. That was exactly how she felt. It was the only thing she felt, for exactly one month ago she had been ripped out of warmth, love, peace.heaven.
Who could have done such a tortuous act? It surely must have been some awful, unearthly thing, but sadly it was the people who she had once loved and trusted the most who had preformed the spell. The spell that brought air back into her lungs and pumped blood to and from her heart, the very spell that had forced to claw her way out of the coffin that she had been laid to rest in.
After the initial shock of being brought back to life and leaving the only place she had ever felt she truly belonged, a rush of emotions filled her body.
The first was confusion.
She had been away for only a couple of months but everything seemed so different, one thing being her house. The house that had once offered a feeling of security was now a constant reminder of all the pain she had had to endure when she was alive.
Seeing her window reminded her of the pain she felt when Angel had walked out of her life, because every time she saw that window she saw all those nights, where he had snuck into her room just to see her, all the times she had been grounded and that, that window had been the only way to Angel's sweet lips. God how she missed those lips!
Then of coarse there was her mother's room, which had been transformed into Tara and Willow's room. That reminded her of all the pain she had felt when her mother died. All the mourning and crying and helplessness.
After the confusion came the anger and hate.
Hate towards her so-called friends. They were the reason she was now living in hell. After being in heaven, after having experienced pure bliss Earth seemed like a fiery torment.
She could not forgive them for committing such a selfish act! She wasn't even going to try. She didn't have that kind of strength in her. Just having to talk to them about basic things like Dawn made her nauseous.
But after about a month of hating and loathing, a kind of numbness started to take hold of her. Everything that at the beginning had seemed too bright or too cold started to disappear. She got no warmth from anything or anyone. Not even Dawn.
She never would have thought it possible that she would one day feel absolutely nothing for her once beloved sister. And it was at that exact moment that she just gave up.
Gave up pretending to care, pretending to be fine, pretending to live.
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or anything else having to do with Buffy or Angel. Everything belongs to Joss and whoever else is involved in the show.
A/N: Hey everyone! This is my first B/A fic, so please be gentle with the reviews. Hope you like..
Summary: My summaries suck, the story is better.. After having being brought back from the dead, Buffy can't stand being around her friends anymore. She gives up on everything, including slaying. In an attempt to get her back on track the Scoobies send her to L.A. where hopefully the Fang Gang will be able to help her out.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Prologue
Emotionless. Empty. Void of life. That was exactly how she felt. It was the only thing she felt, for exactly one month ago she had been ripped out of warmth, love, peace.heaven.
Who could have done such a tortuous act? It surely must have been some awful, unearthly thing, but sadly it was the people who she had once loved and trusted the most who had preformed the spell. The spell that brought air back into her lungs and pumped blood to and from her heart, the very spell that had forced to claw her way out of the coffin that she had been laid to rest in.
After the initial shock of being brought back to life and leaving the only place she had ever felt she truly belonged, a rush of emotions filled her body.
The first was confusion.
She had been away for only a couple of months but everything seemed so different, one thing being her house. The house that had once offered a feeling of security was now a constant reminder of all the pain she had had to endure when she was alive.
Seeing her window reminded her of the pain she felt when Angel had walked out of her life, because every time she saw that window she saw all those nights, where he had snuck into her room just to see her, all the times she had been grounded and that, that window had been the only way to Angel's sweet lips. God how she missed those lips!
Then of coarse there was her mother's room, which had been transformed into Tara and Willow's room. That reminded her of all the pain she had felt when her mother died. All the mourning and crying and helplessness.
After the confusion came the anger and hate.
Hate towards her so-called friends. They were the reason she was now living in hell. After being in heaven, after having experienced pure bliss Earth seemed like a fiery torment.
She could not forgive them for committing such a selfish act! She wasn't even going to try. She didn't have that kind of strength in her. Just having to talk to them about basic things like Dawn made her nauseous.
But after about a month of hating and loathing, a kind of numbness started to take hold of her. Everything that at the beginning had seemed too bright or too cold started to disappear. She got no warmth from anything or anyone. Not even Dawn.
She never would have thought it possible that she would one day feel absolutely nothing for her once beloved sister. And it was at that exact moment that she just gave up.
Gave up pretending to care, pretending to be fine, pretending to live.
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!