A/N: Well, this was in response to a fan fic challenge in which you had to write about your opposite ship.I ship skate so I wrote jate.the idea of this actually came from a friend.thanks Carissa!so here it is.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of this.capishe?
Second Time Around
Daybreak. A gentle breeze blows past me and I close my eyes. Something crinkles softly in my hand as it flutters in the wind. I work to keep my eyes shut for just a while longer before my agony comes rushing back all over again. Reluctantly, I pry my eyes open and my gaze lands on a piece of paper held lightly in my hand.
You never meant for me to find it. I could tell by the way you spilled your heart and soul into every word, something that didn't come very easily to you. Having me read it was probably the last thing you'd want and yet here I am, with my curiosity having gotten the better of me.
Blood pumps furiously through my veins as I stare at it. It agonizes me to see it and yet at the same time I'm aching to read it once again. My hands twitch nervously, wanting to smooth out its wrinkles so that I could see the print more clearly. Physically I refuse to read it a second time, but inside I'm burning. But the urge is too great and before I know what I'm doing, my eyes find their way to the paper and start to read.
Dear Jack,
I don't know what I'm doing, writing this letter but I need to get this out and this is probably the only way I can do it.
When I first met you, that day that we crashed, and you needed me to help you sew up your wound, I was nervous and scared. I was dangerous and I knew it. I couldn't trust anyone with anything and sometimes I felt like I couldn't even trust myself. When I met you that day, I felt something between us, something that terrified me and made me deny it. I didn't want it to happen. I couldn't let it happen. I didn't want to hurt you so I pushed you away. I almost had you out of my mind until that kiss. That kiss made me realize that the connection I felt between us when we met was something I couldn't deny anymore. Not a second goes by when I don't think of you. You're in my very thoughts and in my dreams. Just hearing your name makes my heart flutter out of excitement, something that doesn't happen that often anymore and I love it. I love the thrill you give me. Because of you, I have a reason to get up everyday. I have a reason to live.
So I just want you to know that, Jack Shepherd. I just want you to know.
Kate
As I reach the end, reality hits me a second time. It hurts to think about it, but it's the truth. You're gone and I couldn't fix you. And I will never let myself go for that. Never. It will haunt me, forever and for always. I think about you now and emotion wells up inside me. I realize that I'm still staring at your letter. Unable to take the pain it brings any longer, I close my eyes and bow my head, giving in to my grief for the second time.