Lexie Grey was standing at the nurses' station like she had so many times in the past. She was finishing up her charts and she was then going to be able to go home. This too she had done so many times in the past. Only this time was different.
This time she wouldn't be going home to her apartment. This time she would be going home to Meredith's. Althogh if she was honest with herself, she would tell herself that this wasn't different. She had been going home to Meredith's alone for the past few months, and every time it hurt her. It was because she knew that when she got "home", he wouldn't be there. He wouldn't be coming home after her either. It had been months since she and Mark Sloan had broken up, but every day she felt like she died a little more. Only this time was different.
A few days ago Mark and Sloan had driven back down Los Angeles. Mark had wanted to make sure that Sloan had the best care possible, and Addison was the best. Lexie had thought she would be able to handle it. And she had. At least until Derek had come into the hospital today with the news that Sloan had gone into labor. This is when Lexie had to find an on call room.
It actually took Lexie a while to find an on call room that didn't have any memories of her and Mark. Once she finally did she let it all out. It may have been her naiveté, but she had still been holding on to some hope that she and Mark may have been able to make it. But now that she knew that he was going to actually have a new family her hopes had been shattered.