A/N: So this is something I have been working on. I know I still have other stories I need to finish but I promise I will be working on those.

I hope you guys enjoy this story, it came to me in a dream one day, like all my other stories.

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own any of the characters in this story, they belong to S.M. I just own the sick world I like to put them in. But all the facts I use belong to S.M because I wouldn't have come up with most of them if I hadn't read any of her books.

So please R&R and I promise to update as soon as I get a response from the first person to read the chapter.

It had been weeks since I last saw my best friend. My only true friend if I really thought about it and not seeing him was tearing me up inside, more than I was over losing Edward. Which is weird since I thought Edward was my forever, but here I was pacing my room thinking about everything I could have done to make my best friend hate me

We had ended up going to a movie with some of my friends from school, I thought he was rather enjoying his time, or at least I thought he was with all the laughing and joking around he was doing, but I guess my mind was playing tricks on me because after that he hasn't said one word to me. I don't know what I did to make him so mad at me, I mean I practically acted like his girlfriend the entire night. It was what he wanted, me with him, so I gave it to him, after all it was something I secretly wanted as well.

After Edward left and I started hanging out with Jacob and his two best friends, Embry and Quil, I knew that what I had with Edward wasn't real. It was something I wanted because he was something I could never truly have since he refused to change me. But then I looked back on the way I was with Jacob and everything was just perfect those two months he healed me.

I couldn't help but compare the two and I realized what Jacob and I had was true, not fake and controlling like when I was with Edward. After the movies I wanted to desperately tell him how I felt but he just disappeared on me and I haven't talked, or seen, him since them. It was as if he realized he could do better than me, so Angela brought me home and I cried myself to sleep. Felling sorry for myself once again, for I had fallen in love with someone who didn't want me; again.

I would call everyday, hoping he wanted to see me as badly as I needed to see him, and everyday Billy would tell em the same thing, "He'll call when he wants to talk." And then I would go up to my room and cry until I passed out from the exhaustion. Later in the day when I woke and I would see Charlie, I could tell he was hurting by me hurting and sometimes I would hear him on the phone, arguing with Billy. Then he'd hang up pissed and that would be the end of it. It always made me cry harder at night, knowing I was hurting Charlie.

It had been a week since Charlie last spoke to Billy and I knew their friendship was suffering big time because of me. This was the longest out of fourty years that they hadn't talked, and it was all my fault, if I could just get on with my life. I had to do something, I wouldn't let them throw away their brotherhood for a simple thing between me and Jake.

So here I was, being reckless as I sat in my truck outside the Black residence in La Push. Trying to find the courage to go in there and set everything right, I needed to do this for Charlie and for Billy. They both meant so much to me and to each other. Sighing one last time, I grabbed my keys and hopped out my truck, ready to make everything right, even if my heart broke in the end.

"Bella, what are you doing here? I told you..." Billy stared when he opened the truck, it started drizzling. What perfect weather to go with such a broken hearted day.

"I'm actually here to speak with you Billy. It doesn't matter anymore about Jake" I cut him off. Billy nodded and wheeled toward the living room, I could feel eyes on me the whole time but when I looked around I saw no one. "I need to make things right. You and my father can't throw away your friendship because me and Jake aren't talking. Call him up and ask him to go fishing or something,don't throw what you guys have. I know he misses you and I can guess by the circles under your eyes you miss him too."

"Bella, I do miss him, he's like a brother to me. But he's mad as hell right now, telling me to get Jake to talk to you or he's coming down here to do it himself. I don't know if we can ever get passed this."

"You guys can get passed anything, you guys are brothers in everything but in blood. Your my godfather for crying out loud. Billy I love you like a second father, and I refuse to sit by and just watch the two of you destroy something to precious because I can't control my stupid emotions. Now, if I can get Charlie to contact you first, will you please try to put this little thing behind you. You two need each other, like you both need to eat, drink, and breath." He didn't say anything for ten minutes. Just stared at something over my shoulder, I felt a huge urge to see what he was starring at but refused, knowing I would probably regret it. Then he looked me straight in the eyes and nodded, I sighed in relief. Charlie would have Billy to lean on when I left Forks. I had already talked to him about moving back with my mom, he wasn't to happy with the idea but agreed I needed a new scene. "Thank-you Billy, you don't know how much this means to me."

"I'll see what I can do about having Jake call you. I know you two are best friends and I don't want to see you guys lose that" That took me by surprise and I could feel the tears form in my eyes.

"Its ok Billy, I don't care if he calls anymore. Me and dad were talking and, I'm moving back with my mom. I don't know when I'll be back so it would be pointless for him to call, my flight leaves this afternoon. I just had to get you and dad back together, he'll need you. I cant keep living these lies and pretending everything is ok when I know its not. If Jake really cared about me the way he said he did, then things would be different now. Who knows I might have became his girl friend, just like it was always meant to be, but everything's different. Tell Jake," I paused to take a break, it was so hard saying his name. "Tell Jake that I'm so sorry for whatever I did and I hope one day when I decide to come back, that we could be friends again. Maybe we could even be best friends, who knows. I'm sorry for all the pestering for the last couple weeks Billy and tell him...tell him I said good-bye." I whispered before I walked out the house.

It was pouring out and when I looked at my watch, I realized I had been talking with Billy for almost an hour and soon I would be on a plane; leaving.

By the time I made it to my truck I was soaked to the bone and shivering from the cold. I paused, banging my head against the door, I needed to see him one last time. But I knew if I did then I would never leave, maybe I could stay. Yea right, who was I kidding, I couldn't stay and not see him anymore.

I wouldn't need my truck when I left this place and I knew Charlie would just let it rot away in the garage. I couldn't let that happen since I was in love with the old red thing. Looking back at the house I saw Billy starring at me, trying to figure out what I would do next. I silently walked to him and handed him the keys, he looked like he was about to protest. I shook my head, feeling the tears tumble down my face. This was so much more then when Edward left and it hurt so much deeper. I gave him one last hug, it was a final hug, not knowing when I would see this man again.

I wasn't just saying good-bye to my friends, I was saying good-bye to a chance at true happiness. There would never be anything or anyone else for me and I knew that when I was old, my house would be filled with cats, or maybe dogs. I turned around and ran home, this was truly my end and nothing would be my beginning. I could hear a painful howl in the near distance. And I cried even harder for the wolf who was hurting, somehow knowing it was for me.

A/N: So what did you guys think? I hope it was ok for a first chapter!

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