I've cut myself a total of three hundred and twenty-two times since I started at Hogwarts. One for each time he called me a mudblood . Each time he called me that foul word it pained me so much. More then I even thought possible. I mean I had the perfect life. Perfect friends. And the perfect family. When I got my Hogwarts letter and that just added to the perfectness. But then there was Malfoy. Who hated everything about me because of my blood. Because of where I came from. Because I wasn't a pureblood. Because I was muggle born, a filthy mudblood . Because even with that I fell in love with him like pretty much every other girl in our year. I knew nobody would understand so I didn't tell anyone. Nobody not one. Not that I really knew anyone to tell. I mean Harry and Ron being boys wouldn't understand. My mother wouldn't understand either so I didn't tell a soul. But I wanted to. I've always wanted to. Not to mention that love between muggleborns and purebloods is pretty much forbidden. I mean not by law but purebloods would never marry muggleborns. Well that might not be true but the Malfoy family would never marry anyone who wasn't pureblood. People like Draco Malfoy end up marrying people like Pansy Parkinson and have children who marry other purebloods and so on. And that is how it works that is how it has always worked. But why that's all I want to know. Why is it so important to the purebloods that they keep their blood 'pure' why do they care so much. But does it matter that I'm a muggleborn would have he loved me if I was a pureblood did it matter to him ? Does blood have to do with it ? Or was it simply never meant to be ? As I said People like Draco Malfoy end up marrying people like Pansy Parkinson . But what about people like Hermione Granger ? Who are they suppose to marry ? Ron Weasley ? Harry Potter ? Someone like that ? Neville Longbottom ? Who ? Where do people like me stand in this kind of thing ? Obviously I do get my happy ending right ? Obviously I will one day marry. I mean look at Harry he's a half-blood. There are many half bloods I've met tons. Seamus is half blood maybe I'll end up with him. My mother use to say I could have any guy I wanted if I tried hard enough. I can have any guy as long as he's not a pureblood I guess. Purebloods are forbidden for me, Hermione Granger and I guess that's how it's meant to be and I will have to stick to loving Draco from afar.