Bonnie Bennett was not a witch her whole life. At one point, she had been a normal girl. A normal girl who did normal things, knew normal people, had normal dreams, and wants. But now that her powers were gone she couldn't imagine life without them. She didn't regret what she did, and yet so as she laid there in the grass fields near the cemetery where her grandmother's body laid she feet under, she wished she was one with the earth again.
Dirt, soil, grass, water, power.
The need to feel those things went through her nostrils into her lungs as she breathed in the earth that she was once connected with. More than anything before she had wished to know what it felt like to be human again. Now that she wasn't, she did not know what her purpose was anymore. Who was Bonnie Bennett that wasn't a witch?
She dug her fingers into the ground and ignored the pain. The need to feel was too much for her.
"What are you doing?"
Bonnie immediately shot up at the sound of another voice. She turned to look behind her and saw no one. She quickly turned around in the opposite direction and jumped to see a woman in front of her. As she took in the sight of the person, she recognized her immediately. It was her cousin Lucy. Lucy was not a close cousin to her. When they first met, they were on opposite sides. Her being with Katherine and Bonnie being firmly next to her best friend, Elena Gilbert, didn't help their situation. That also made her be on the side of both Stefan and Damon Salvatore.
If you wanted to stay with Elena, she realized long ago that you had two accept the two vampires in her life. It use to bother her when she realized her place in Elena's life recently got lower and lower but she accepted it because Elena's friendship meant a lot to her. In a world where you could lose everything in an instant, Elena was one of the people she thought of as family and she did not want to lose her. Even if their friendship was no longer what it once was.
"You scared me," Bonnie breathed as she let the tension fall from her limbs. She was terrified that it would be a vampire set out to attack her or use her. But then again Bonnie should have known better by now. She was human now. No one needed her any longer.
"Hey cousin," Lucy said with a slight smile that did not reach her questioning eyes. Lucy's eyes bore into hers and Bonnie wanted to look away from the stare but she dared not too.
"What are you doing here?" Bonnie asked.
"I was dropping past on my way to another town nearby and I thought to check up on you. When I spoke to your dad he said you might be here." Lucy said as she looked around the cemetery before making eye contact with her again. "What happened? I don't feel anything from you anymore"
Bonnie's heart broke at the revelation of what she already knew. It still cut deep and the anger she felt had not yet melted away.
"I'm not a witch anymore" Bonnie responded.
"I thought so. Is that why you're out here moping?"
Bonnie gritted her teeth.
"If you were going to insult me you didn't need to come here." Bonnie turned to leave before she snapped back around. "We're barely family anyway. Next time you think about dropping by to see me. Don't."
"You're angry" Lucy said with a knowing gaze that made Bonnie even more annoyed.
"Whatever." Bonnie turned to leave. She would go back home and try to sleep. But she knew that would not happen. Lately her dreams haunted her more than ever.
"Wait," Lucy called out but Bonnie continued to walk. She didn't want to hear any snarky remarks when she heard enough from Damon to last a lifetime. She definitely did not want to deal with anyone's pity. She was tired of seeing Elena and Caroline looking at her with sad eyes. She was tired of Jeremy asking her if she was okay when the last thing she wanted to do was speak to Jeremy. The wounds of her pride still hurt her when she thought about Jeremy choosing a ghost over her.
Bonnie didn't get far before she walked into a force field. It was a wall that she used often. She knew the spell by heart that she didn't have to say it any longer. Now it was being used against her. She leaned against the invisible wall before she turned to look at Lucy who walked closer towards her.
"What do you want?" Bonnie asked. Lucy gave a long sigh as she looked at the ground.
"Look," Lucy started and looked up at Bonnie. "I know you're angry. It's nothing worse for a witch to lose her powers but that doesn't mean you're not a witch anymore"
"Are you saying that to make me feel better?" Bonnie asked angrily. "My powers make me a witch. If I don't have them than what am I?"
"Bonnie, you are a descendant from the Bennett Witch Clan. You will always be a witch."
Bonnie banged her fist against the field. She knew that her anger might be irrational to some but if felt like she lost a piece of herself. She no longer felt anymore.
"So, what do I do now?" Bonnie asked. She needed to know a way to live as a human again. She needed to find the purpose of why she was living in the first place anymore. She could not remember any of the dreams she had before her town went into a supernatural hell hole.
"You can live your life as a human teenage girl," Bonnie rolled her eyes at the suggestion. "You can prepare for college, figure out what your major is going to be, find a guy to have fun with or a boyfriend to marry, this doesn't have to be the end."
Bonnie nodded. It was all the things that she told herself before when she found out she could no longer use her powers. At first the idea of it made her happy. It made her feel calm and like everything was going to be okay. But when time continued to go by and a month had passed, reality began to sink in that her powers were never going to come back. When she saw that she was no longer in the know on the supernatural events that happened in town, she knew that her purpose was diminishing. The Salvatore brothers no longer pestered her about using her for spells. She was no longer needed to her friends. That alone made her feel that she had not only lost her grandmother but she lost her best friends too.
"Or you can do something else."
Bonnie glanced up from the ground that she had become fixated on as Lucy told her about the possibilities of living her life as a normal girl. She stared at Lucy eagerly.
"What is it?" Bonnie asked. Lucy stared at her momentarily before she shook her head.
"I shouldn't be telling you this but I'm worried that you're not going to handle this human thing well. Your dad told me that you were acting strange. Bonnie, it's hard for a witch to continue to live without their powers."
Bonnie nodded.
"I didn't want to tell you this because this is hard. Not a lot of witches do this because of the consequences that come with this type of magic. But I know that you're a level-headed girl and you're also a Bennett. A Bennett has always been a witch." Lucy paused before staring Bonnie in the eye. "But you have to promise that you will be careful and not let this consume you. Do not let vampires take control of you. They have always been the downfall of every witch. Don't even do it for your doppelganger"
Lucy stared at Bonnie pointedly waiting on her response. Bonnie wanted to nod immediately but everything she did was for her friends and family. She had known Elena and Caroline her whole life. No matter how she felt about them at times she would never abandon them. Family was important to her. But she needed her powers back. She wanted to feel again.
"Okay," Bonnie lied. Lucy's eyes were cautious for a second before she gave a slight nod and continued.
"A witch never loses her powers. They are a part of you. They always have been. You were born a witch, Bonnie. You just didn't become aware until now and then you were able to develop your powers. Your powers but might feel like they're gone but they're still there."
"But how?" Bonnie asked. "I don't feel it anymore. Every time I try to cast a spell I don't feel anything anymore. I feel nothing"
"That's because your powers are dormant now. The spell you casted was too powerful. I know this doesn't really make sense but you knocked them back in. Think of it as you locking your own powers away."
"How do I get them back? I've never seen any spells on unlocking your powers?" Lucy shook her head.
"Because there are none. There are a lot of things that witches are not supposed to do. We have to save ourselves from us sometimes too. This can be dangerous if you don't handle it well. Not every witch knows how to handle this because most don't know how to survive it-"
"What do I have to do?" Bonnie asked cutting Lucy off. She didn't want to know how dangerous it was. She knew that she could do anything if she set her mind to do it. Lucy gave a grim smile before she walked over to Bonnie and grabbed her wrists. Bonnie stared at Lucy expectantly.
"Blood magic"
"What is blood magic? It sounds dangerous. Grams never told me about it before-"
"You didn't need it at the time. She probably wouldn't have told you anyway. Blood magic is taboo. Most witches won't speak of it because it requires us to acknowledge that we might need vampires. We hate vampires."
"It involves vampires. What do I have to do with a vampire?" Bonnie asked.
"You have to mix your blood with theirs. You have to use them to become one with the elements of the earth again. You have to use them to unlock the door inside of you and gain your power back. But this is not an easy feat. You need them. A witch's blood is not supposed to mix with a vampire. It's forbidden." Lucy gripped her arms tighter as she talked and Bonnie winched from the pain. "A witch was never meant to mate with a vampire but it can be done, but when you put blood into the equation-"
"Mate? You mean have sex? I'm supposed to have sex with a vampire?" Bonnie asked and her eyes became wild. She hated vampires. She could barely look at Caroline when she became one but accepted her because Caroline was the same girl she played dress up with as children. And when Elena turned she didn't know what to do. With vampires came trouble and she had never been proven wrong. Stefan Salvatore might have been the nicer one compared to his older brother but she still felt that he caused more trouble than he ever did good. The thought of having sex with one was not something she wanted to do and yet Lucy was telling her that it was the only way that she would be able to gain her powers back.
"Yes, you must mate with one. But it is not just sex, Bonnie. You have to share blood with this person. He must drink your blood and you must drink his"
"But I'm a witch. I don't drink blood." Lucy laughed and that made Bonnie frown even more.
"You need to drink the blood and become one with them but you have to be careful. Eventually, you must ween yourself off it to become a witch wholly on your own merits. If you rely on it too much it can result in death. Bonnie, witches and vampires were never meant to mix"
"Okay"
"Okay, what?" Lucy asked.
"I'll do it" Bonnie said determined.
"You didn't even think about it, cousin" Lucy said as she shook her head with disappointment. "You don't have to be a witch. You can be human and live a normal life"
"Let me ask you," Bonnie started as she shook off Lucy's hold and grabbed her wrist in turn. "Would you be a normal girl if you had the choice between being a witch."
Lucy stared at Bonnie long and hard and bit her lip. "I would choose a witch every time" She said with a humorless laugh. Bonnie let go of her wrists.
"I thought so." Bonnie said. "Now, tell me how do I actually do blood magic"