Hi hope you like this story well, it's not good. Sorry if there are wrong grammars or spellings. Please review or comment. Well this isn't tragedy, but I think it doesn't look that much of one. Well I'm a bit piss of from the chapter48, I think they said that was the last chapter of sc? It was a bit boring… yeah I know I'm not good at making titles ^-^
Chapter 1:
He forgot!!!
Why I should hate his guts:
He left all of us!!! Without telling one of us… well maybe he did. But only Tadase.
He came back, having some kind of sickness that has no cure.
And with that, this made me more hate him… HE MADE ME LOVE HIM!!!
My name's Rima Mashiro, and I have a problem… a HUGE PROBLEM!!! The person I'm I love with was my worst enemy… and that's not all, he's left us again. And I'm stuck here full of guilt on what I did to him, and why he hates me.
Flashback
It was at the royal garden, I noticed that he wasn't he's usual self. And we weren't "death Glaring each other, as usual, Tadase was talking about the eggs, Yaya was too busy eating her candy, Amu had suddenly fallen asleep. Nagihiko was looking down at his cell, guess he was waiting for someone to call him. Usually I have fun seeing him tortured but now I din't know… why I was beginning to get affected.
LATER ON…
Amu was invited by Tadase to go to somewhere else, Yaya had to go home early to baby-sit Tsubasa, and as usual I was left alone with Nagi, darn! When did I start to use that name. I gotta text from my mom, she was busy and she asked me to go with one of my friends. Well Amu and Yaya were already gone. Unfortunately he was kind enough to ask me. I accepted… just because I needed someone to bring me home.
"Hey, what's the problem? You seem down" I asked.
"Aww, Rima cares?" he said with his teasing voice.
"No, it's just that we aren't glaring each other like we always do." I faced my back trying to hide my blush.
"So you mean to say you like the attention I give you? So your missing it?" He asked again. But this time his voice sounded serious.
"Of course, I prefer you quiet like now. Just wanted to know the reason your glum." I gave him my death glare.
He faced back,"What if I said I was going to Europe?" he sounded serious. Of course I would miss him. I mean do I like him? Why do I worry so much about him? This isn't like me!!! I shouldn't care…
" No one's stopping you from going…" I answered like I didn't care. I turned to him, his bangs were covering his eyes, and smiled a fake smile.
"So it's goodbye then…"he sounded hurt.
"Ah, Rima…I wanted to tell you something." He tried to look happy again.
I looked at my watch, I'm late! "Let's talk tomorrow! Ok" I felt bad. So I just smiled at him. He looked a bit happier.
The next day…
"What do you mean Nagihiko's out of the country again?" I demanded.
"Rima try to calm down!" Amu tried to calm me down, but how could I ! I just understood my feelings for him and he goes out of the country! And we didn't finish our conversation yesterday!
"Rima! Didn't nagi tell you yesterday? Did he even confess to you?" I looked down. He was going to confess, and I told him to wait!!! I'm so stupid!!! How could I!!! Why did he have to leave!!!" I cried my heart out. Why…
And I wanted to tell him after I understood what I felt…
…why did he leave…
Now that I wanted to tell him I loved him…
Normal pov
It's been 3 years now, Amu, Tadase and me were still classmates. They've changed. Even yaya, she was now more mature, and she doesn't act like a baby anymore. Tadase's given up on Amu and changed he became more self-confident. Amu was already with Ikuto( no offense to Tadamu fans). I … well I haven't changed that much. I've gown taller, and my hair's longer than usual. But I was still the same cold icy Rima. I wasn't mad at any one. I was mad at myself, I regret what I should have told Nagihiko.
"Mashiro-san" I faced the person that called me.
"Hey, Tadase." I looked at him. He seemed worried.
"Fujisaki-san came back to Japan" I felt myself liven up. I looked at Amu who was looking at me sadly. She should be happy, didn't I tell her how I felt about Nagi when she comforted me?
"Amu! Nagi's back!!!" I hugged her tightly.
"Rima… I think you should know something." I faced Kusukusu, who was hugging Ran, Miki, and Sue. She was exited as I was too see them.
" Rima didn't you know about the accident?" I faced her my face now frowning.
"Amu! Don't say those things!" she looked more upset.
" Rima, Nagi dosen't Remember us anymore… well he can't remember us if we visit him exactly..."Amu said almost confused as myself.
" Ah… Mashiro-san, Fujisaki –san won't be able to remember us the next day, actually he only has his past memories." Tadase tried to explain.
"But I wanted to meet him, to tell him how I felt!" I cried, scolded him.
"Rima… are you sure you want to meet him,… I don't want you to get hurt."Amu comforted me.
"I want to… I have to meet him… I want to tell him how I feel." I answered back.
Later Fujisaki residence…
I felt worried; I mean what if Nagihiko doesn't like me anymore? What if he'll really forget me after this? I bowed my head. I told Amu and the others to go with me to check on him, this was something I had to get over my chest, something I need to tell him… I needed to tell him I love him.
The house keeper let us in, we were brought to Nagi's room to wait for him there, Nagi . the house keeper said was still practicing his dance. I needed to calm down, I can't show how much it hurts to say how I felt, for him to forget what I said, and try to forget him after that.
Amu held my hand, I felt a bit calmer when she did. "Rima-chan… are you sure?" she said concerned.
"I'm sure, I mean I have to tell him how I felt even if he'll forget, maybe this way I can move on…" I felt tears starting to fall on my cheeks.
The door opened.
I tried to smile, I needed to do this… I knew this kind of relationship wouldn't work anyway. "R—R-Rima chan?" I heard a voice say. I looked up.
I felt the tears now dripping on my face. "Na—Nagihiko!!!" I hugged him. I couldn't care less, I was with the one I've first fell in love with. He hugged me back.
"Rima-chan?" he asked his face now red.
"Nagi! i…" I cried on his chest. I didn't know what to do… I felt so unsure all of a sudden.
"Rima-chan, I've always wanted t tell you something… I –" I looked at him, our faces now inches apart. I smiled, I knew what he was going to say… and I was glad he still likes me. But I didn't want him to be the one to tell me how we both felt. Because after hearing him say that, I knew that it would get harder to forget him.
"Nagi, I've love you! I knew this was all just sudden but –" I was stopped. His lips were now on mine.
I cried, I knew after this I had to forget…
I had to forget everything about him…
I had to forget how much I'd missed him…
I had to forget how much I fell for him…
I had to forget that I loved him…
I didn't want this moment to stop, I wanted to be with him. I wanted to be the only person to love him, to be the only person he'd love. But this couldn't work out. I didn't want to see him, being able to forget everything I've just said now, one side of me wanted to stay and try to fix his memory… to remember everything the day after tomorrow. Zand the other side of me couldn't stand getting hurt. I couldn't stand seeing him everyday of my life knowing that he'd change and I could never make him remember how I felt the time I'd just said I loved him..
I dashed out of the mansion. I heard him screaming my name, I couldn't turn back. I didn't want to see his face one last time. It would be better for us to forget, forget how we both felt for each other…
Because from there on, I have to hate you again… after al these feelings I have for you wash away from me…
Before I try to go back to you, because all these things I do was to protect you, I didn't want you to find yourself forgetting how we felt for each other…
It was utterly useless…
The fact that how I cared,
How much I've seem to care,
How much I seem to try,
How much I seem to love,
It was all utterly useless…
Hey! I hope you guys liked this first chapter ^-^ I know this was kind of annoying by making Rima run away, and Nagi having that sickness… oh, I forgot to mention the sickness was Alzheimer's this wont be a tradity like what I said, please read and I'm sure you'll find this not as sad as it looks ^-^ please review or criticize.