Hey! It's me, Kyoko, again! Well, I was bored one night so I wrote this really fast. I do not own Shuichi, Yuki, or that piece of paper. Thanks to Kana-chan, my beta reader, who said she cried when she read this. My work here is done. Thanks to Ny-chan, too, for just... sorta... being the cute little kitten he is... -throws cookie to Kana-chan and kitty food to Ny-chan- :-)

Are you Happy Now?

I stare at your small form on the couch. Vaguely, I wonder how you got there. Then, I remember. I kicked you out when I was writing, and you were too scared to come into the bedroom. This memory causes a great pain in my chest. I am sorry.

I wonder how I can apologize to you. Saying it to you is out of the question. I pull out a piece of paper and my pen and start writing.

"Shuichi-

I'm sorry I kicked you out last night. I had a deadline and I needed to finish, and you wouldn't shut up. I really missed having you there, and it hurt that you were too scared to come back to me. I wish you would forgive me. It's just that... it seems like no matter how much I hold you, if I kiss you, if I gaze at you in that way that shows I care, if I listen to you for hours on end, enjoying every word, you still aren't satisfied. I know what you want to hear, but I can't say it. I am sorry, Shuichi. I can't say those three words. I am afraid to be hurt again. If I tell you, will you disappear, like he did? If I tell you, will you reject me, like he did? If I tell you, will I see you again? I am scared. I'm just a coward. I can't say those simple three words. I think you feel that way about me, but... I feel like, if I tell you, you will disappear from my life. I can't take that. It would tear me apart. I wouldn't be able to live without you. I can't go on without you. I can't survive without you. I can't stand here happily without you. I can't be happy at all without you. I just wrote my entire thoughts on a piece of paper next to the couch for you alone. Are you happy now?

-Eiri"

I stare at the paper, wondering if I should revise it; leave out the romantic stuff. I realize, "No... it's about time he knew how I felt."

I leave the paper on the coffee table, kiss his cheek ever so lightly, and sit in the chair, staring at my lover until I fall asleep.

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The next morning, I wake up in that same chair. I look at the couch and see that you already went to work.

I walk into the kitchen to find a cup of coffee already made for me. Surprised slightly, I take it and go to my laptop to start on my new story. Next to it, I notice a piece of paper I don't remember placing there. Picking it up, I read the messy handwriting.

"Eiri-

I am happier than I have ever been in my life just being with you. I love you.

-Shuichi"

I stare at the paper. "I love you, huh?"

"Maybe I should try those three words, just once."

The End

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