Disclaimer: All characters belong to J. K. Rowling and Stephanie Meyer. Most of the plot belong to J. K. Rowling.
*NOTE* Some characters will be O.O.C. so if you have a problem with it, I suggest you stop reading RIGHT NOW! On a more happy note flames are appreciated, suggestions are valued, and reviews are wonderful.
I don't want to dwell long in explaining how the time setting is going so I just state that Bella stays in Forks for a year. So assuming that my calculations are correct she leaves back to Hogwarts the December after the Cullens leave her. She and Jacob use a time turner to back a year and study muggles for a year. So she goes back without missing her last term of fifth year and first term of six. If you find it complicated don't hesitate to ask.
Well I hate to keep you waiting. On with the story.
1. Prologue
Dear Alice,
It's almost time for me to head back to Hogwarts, but honestly I am not sure I want to head back. Besides the fact that I am a walking corpse, I don't want to see the face of Pa when I tell him I couldn't fulfill his request to recruit you and your family. I don't want to back a failure.
I miss you lot, I feel lonely without you, but I don't particularly blame you. I wish I could have had more time to know you and your family. The same in reverse, but I highly doubt you cared. I hope that Edward found someone to share his eternity with. I hope you lot forgive me for using my Slytherin tactics, but I doubt you care of how I felt about your brother, or your brother for that matter.
But even when my emotions that I displayed at the time your family was here weren't exactly true, I still cared for him and your family. I f time had allowed it, maybe I could have develop some feelings for your brother. Maybe - although I doubt it. I have had feelings for the same person far to long to simply let them go so easily.
I hope to see you, but I know my hopes are in vain. Bloody hell, all my hopes are in vain. But Jake said not to loose it hope regardless. He keeps telling me to look past the darkness.
Well I have to go, Jake will be here soon.
Bye.
-B.I.L.S.