Diary Entry based on Tomorrow, When the War began
EllIe and Corrie hate me, we just go back Into hell. they've Ignored me for the whole trip back and I'm not
counting on them ever talking to me again.
I just legged it, got out of there as fast as I could, left Ellie and corrie there in the clutches of the enemy,
they could have died! Ellie thinks i'm a fake and a fraud. she's planning on leaving me in Hell for their next
excursion. she's refused my help multiple times already, she seems distant and has been staring off into
space lately, homer says that is because she feels guilt for killing the enemy (murder she calls it), but I
know the real reason, it's because i ditched her, left her for dead, betrayed her, take your pick i'm guilty of
all of it. they all now are careful around me like i've changed and will snap at any time "its not true!" i want
to shout, "you would do the same!", but would they?
It was dark we had just seen them shoot a citizen, (funny how it has progressed to the stage where others
are citizens and non-combatants I suppose that makes us the soldiers, the army, the resistance) then we
were spotted, they instantly started shooting, I turned and ran. i tell myself I turned and looked at corrie
and Ellie but I only did that when I thought I was safe they were still paralysed with fear, so I legged it, ran
like a coward, i left two defenceless teenage girls in the greedy, murdering, foreign hands of the enemy, I
didn't even think, i tried to tell myself that it was instinct but deep down I know I ran because I am a coward.
I just ruined any future that i had with Corrie and i can tell she was hurt by my betrayal, but then it may not
even matter, we might not have a future if we don't stop the enemy from destroying our country. you don't
know what you have till its gone. What's done is done i'll just live with it and hope for a chance to redeem
my self
Its been a month since corrie stopped talking to me, and now she's been shot, she may never talk to me
again. The rest of the group think she need to go to the hospital which is held by the enemy (just like
everything else). i concur, but their plan is to leave corrie outside the hospital which in my eyes is
betrayal its the same, if not worse than what I did all that time ago. homer is trying to justify it by saying
one wounded or dead person is better than who, but that's the talk of a pessimist Despite Corrie being
wounded she's still a human, she needs to be brought into the hospital and her wound explained because
if they leave her outside an enemy help hospital with a bullet wound they might just finish her off.
I have just now decided I will take corrie in to the hospital.