They say its better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all, he couldn't get the words out of his head, how stupid people were who took that on and lived by it, they obviously didn't truly know what is was like to really be in love and then to lose it. He bowed his head catching the attention of the two figures in front, one looked over their shoulder to study him they were waiting for a reaction anything that would give them the slightest hint of his feelings. Truth was he didn't feel anymore and he didn't think he would again; he was now trapped in a state numbness. There was no more pain, no more love, no more hope.
Two years ago
Laughter filled the paddocks of Walker family farm, the B&S had begun, and people from everywhere had come to enjoy the night. Brax sat in the front seat of his Ute next to him his brother Heath was driving both boys beer in hand dressed in suits had one last glimpse at the beach before following another car load of RiverBoys to the farm. "Don't know how people can live so far away from the water eh" Brax brought up with his brother "Why we even going to this stupid cowboy thing?" He could not help but laugh at his brother's lack of intelligence "It's a ball Heath, besides it will let us get to know our new community members." He watched on as heath replied, "Well I hope that cops not working she hangs around like a bad smell, swear I breathe and she arrests me" He just looked at his brother "What?" Heath asked lifting his hands of the steering wheel "Your telling me you hate having a hot cop put you in handcuffs all the time?" Brax knew he would like her to give him attention as much as Heath got it; he had bumped into her only a few times since she arrested him for trying to kiss her, and normally his charm had worked on any girl however this women was taking a little longer to come around. "I didn't say I didn't enjoy the view, I'm just getting sick of that bloody station every second day," Heath continued on "I don't do anything and I still end up there" Brax shook his head at his younger brother "Alright so I do some bad stuff but surely they have better stuff to do, unless she has a crush on me" Brax playfully punched his grinning brother in the arm "What? You had your shot, you got arrested" Brax watched as Heath winked at him "I thought you wanted that blonde teacher anyway" He asked his younger sibling "I'm workin on it brother"
The two brothers pulled into the driveway of the farm it was close to dusk by the time they got there finding a spot just away from the crowded area next to the river they parked their car, Brax checked the back of his ute making sure they remembered the mattress to sleep on, a drink driving charge was the last thing he needed. "Perhaps this cowboy thing wasn't such a bad idea, look at all the lovely ladies" Heath wolf whistled at a pair of girls walking past, both smiling at each other they made their way over to the group of boys. "Geez Case has done well getting in with Sergs daughter Brax, could come in handy you know" Brodie spoke as Brax and Heath joined the group "No not all, Casey is to have nothing to do with our business" Brax looked at his youngest brother conversing amongst a small group of teens, Casey was at school and Brax was finally giving him a life he deserved one he was unable to give Heath "Yeh yeh if you say so" Brodie muttered. The boys becoming low on their own alcohol approached the bar, to their dismay John Palmer was working behind it "Two beers and two bourbons please waiter" Said Heath emphasizing the word waiter
"I don't want any stupid behaviour or trouble here tonight boys," John warned a stern look upon his face "Of course we'll be on our best behaviour" Brax winked at him
"I mean it" John placed their drinks on counter. Feel a little a drunk from the alcohol they had been consuming since lunchtime that day he and the boys placed themselves
On a stack hale bales next to the dance floor yet conveniently close to the bar. "Ah so you boys decided to come" Casey said walking over leading Ruby in long lilac silk dress. Heath replied "Couldn't let you have all the ladies to yourself," he laughed then continued "Just joking Ruby, your looking quiet lovely tonight" Brax watched Casey's girlfriend laugh "Don't worry he's the only one of us that got stuck with I'm a jerk gene"
"Really, I'd never of guessed" She elbowed Casey teasingly.
"Hey Rubes you left this" Brax turned to see Angelo standing their holding out a purse Miles next to him. Brax wasn't a fan of his boss but he did his best to put up with him until the plans for him to buy the business were approved. "Oh thanks Angelo, have you seen Charlie yet?" Ruby grabbed the purse off him Miles replied for him " She was with Bianca, Leah and Roo having drinks this afternoon, they can't be to far of" Unbeknownst to each other the Braxton brothers were listening with a high level of interest "Okay well if you see her before I do can you let her know im looking for her" She asked sitting down next to Casey. He watched as the two men nod and leave. "Boys I have some friends that would like to join us" He turned to find Brody with his arms around three younger girls Brax heard a few of the boys cheer " This is Tamara Courtney and Krystal" He explained "Kristen" The girl informed "Same difference" Brody drunkenly replied. The girls joined the crowd of boys as Brax laughed at his drunken mates he felt an elbow in his ribs he looked at Heath "What was that for?" Heath looked over his shoulder and nodded in the direction of the approaching party, Brax watched as the four women walked closer Leah and Roo closely followed by Charlie and Bianca clumsily clutching each other for support "Charlie there you are!" Ruby yelled everyone's attention turning the women
"Oh Rubesss" He watched as Charlie hugged her daughter "Eh how much have you's had to drink?" She stood back studying the women "Just a bottle of wine or four" Bianca replied reaching out for Charlie for balance "I was worried about you"
"Oh sorry we just you know got a bit carried away" Roo explained.
"You ladies are lookin hot tonight" Heath said loud enough so that the women noticed they had crowd. It was true the long silk red dress did everything right and more for Charlies already perfectly shaped body "Extremely" Brax unknowingly said out loud not breaking his gaze from Charlie. "Shall we" Bianca held out her arm to Charlie, Brax caught her smile at him before she turned placing her arm in Bianca's "Too the bar" Perhaps she wasn't taking as long to come around he watched as she walked of.
He had been sitting there most of the night drinking and watching they boys try their luck with the three girls that Brody had found, Heath has disappeared and Casey was with Ruby and his friends so finally he retired to his car. Stumbling along the grass he noticed a figure standing next to it, assuming it was Heath he moved closer as he did the figure became more detailed they had long hair and a dress immediately ruling his brother out. "Can I help you?" He asked, the person turned around the moon lighting up her face "Sorry I didn't know it was your car, I just needed some air" A familiar voice said softly lifting her dress to leave "No wait Charlie" He grabbed her arm "Stay" He almost pleaded with her "If you promise to behave" She warned. He nodded pulling down the back of his Ute he patted the spot next him encouraging her to take a seat. Surprisingly she did so without one argument, Brax pulled out a flask of bourbon he had been keeping incase they had been cut off, he took a sip then offered it to Charlie once a gain she surprisingly agreed. "Look I'm really sorry about trying to kiss you the other week" He wasn't really he would do it again in a flash but she didn't need to know that. "Its okay I probably went over board, its just men do things like that to me all the time I have to react like that" She whispered
"I can imagine" He looked at her and smiled. Passing her the bourbon once again, she skulled some more "Easy tiger" He snatched it back of her, she laughed as she fell back onto the mattress "I'm so drunk" He liked her laugh he had never heard it before usually because he didn't do things that she would find funny "You and me both" He to layed back onto the mattress looking across at her "Are you sure you won't get into trouble being seen like this sergeant?" He asked her, she laughed at him once again "I'm not a Sergeant tonight, im just Charlie" She smiled at him. "Well Charlie should visit more often" He looked deep into her eyes then turned to looked up to see a star shoot through the sky "Did you see that?" She whispered, "Yeh it's so eh magical" He whispered back "Do you believe in magic?" She asked, he noticed her looking at him " I eh don't know why?" He looked back at her "Cause in a magic world it wouldn't be so wrong for me to do this" He watched as she leaned forward placing her soft lips on his slowly the kiss grew more passionate as he pulled her closer to him she pulled back for air he had almost forgotten to breathe it didn't matter he wanted more he continued kiss her again his mind spinning more and more passionately it grew. Pulling back once more "Wow you're a better kisser then what I remember" She finally spoke as she made herself comfortable in his arms "What can I say im good at a lot things" He cheekily grinned and she playfully slapped him, noticing the goose bumps on her arm he pulled the blanket out and wrapped it around on both their bodies she snuggled up to is his body in his arms her head placed perfectly on his chest.