Autor: Scar
Beta-reader/editor: Hannival Kinney
Genre: character study, drama
Character: Brendan Brady
Rating: R
Warnings: mentions of child abuse
Summary: Brendan would like to be that Panda, but he can't.
Panda explosion
That woman is nosy. It's her job, you know that, but still...
You don't want to see her. You don't want to face anyone who can read your mind as she can.
She knows. You can see that.
She knows your dad abused you and knows that you would do anything to protect Cheryl. She knows that you already did it.
But Cheryl doesn't need to know. She doesn't need to know that, a day of many years ago, you found your dad standing out of her room with same creepy grin he used to give you.
That baby girl, who was sleeping and dreaming of fairies and princesses, couldn't know that you took your shirt off, turning her king's eyes upon your white skin and your protruding bones; that your father let the handle of Cheryl's door go and started walking towards you.
You felt nothing but your sigh of relief and the knowledge that Cheryl was safe, at least for that night.
You dad came in your room and shut the door behind himself.
The sound of that door followed you for years, and sometimes, even now, you can hear a louder sound, like something exploding inside of you.
A bang in your head.
A crash in your chest.
You can't explode, though, because no one can know what you did.
It hurts you like hell, though, and after every shot, you bleed and feel pieces of flesh and soul fly out of you anyway.