James Sirius Potter sat in the corner of the three broomsticks glaring at his butterbeer while staring at one of the occupants at the table nearest the counter using his peripheral vision.

Teddy Lupin sat in the both by the bar chatting it up with his friends looking as though he didn't have a care in the world. James was jealous; they all go to enjoy his company anytime of the day without a second thought. If James wanted to talk to them, he had to plan it carefully, or if he did it openly Teddy would always complain about the odd looks his friends would give him for talking to someone younger than him. James growled inwardly as he spotted Victoire place a 'friendly' hand on his arm. Teddy gave a flirty smile and continued the conversation without pause. James had to bite the rim of his glass to keep from growling. He hated Victoire even if she was his cousin. Despite the fact that Teddy had dumped her a week after Teddy and his first kiss, she still flirted with him without end. It aggravated James to no small degree. He needed to get out.

He abruptly stood and bid goodbye quickly to his friends Mark Finnegan and Joshua Creevy and stalked up to the counter. He purchased another butterbeer and gave a passive glance at Teddy before exiting. James was so tired of being Teddy's dirty little Secret. They had already come out publicly that they were bisexual in their own time, but James was mad that Teddy still wanted to keep them a secret. He was hurt at the high possibility of Teddy being embarrassed by him. Teddy had always said that it was to protect James' reputation and feeling and had nothing to do with his own, but now James wasn't so sure. He was so frustrated; he angrily punched the wall, and then cradled his wounded hand regretting his rash actions. He cursed quietly and sighed. He slowly slid down to the ground resting his back on the cool brick wall of the back side of the Bar. He took a few deep breaths of the chilly winter air trying to calm his emotions. He idly noted the door to the three broomsticks open and wondered what someone to see if they were to walk around the corner and see him in. He didn't really care. James was frustrated.

He loved Teddy he really did. He just didn't know how long he could take it. He thought back to the day that he and Teddy had first gotten together. . .

James was sitting against one of the giant maple tree around the corner from the shrieking shack. He had been wondering how long he could keep his crush on Teddy a secret when the object of his thoughts sauntered over to him.

"Why hello Jamie" Teddy said in his ever cheery yet husky voice that annoyed James while his emotions were so confused, but also extremely turned him on.

Teddy had sat down next to him placing a comfortable arm around his shoulders. "So, what's up?"

"Nothing I suppose, just thinking. How are you?"

"Well, Victoire is slightly pissed at me, honestly, I don't even know why"

"That's a shame" James tried to sound sincere, but even he could hear how sarcastic he sounded. Teddy quirked an eyebrow but said nothing.

Teddy's hair was a shade of purple that indicated he was in a cheery mood that day, but then began to fade into a mellow brown to show that he was deep in thought.

"What are you thinking about" James said after a few moments of comfortable silence.

"I'm thinking about . . . well, you."

"Oh. . . What about me"

"Well, you're just a good person. I don't know" he ran a hand nervously through his hair which changed to bright orange, still mesmerizing James. "Well I mean you're smart, great at quiditch, and . . . pretty damn hot." Teddy blushed at this, and James was interested to see his hair turn back to brown but this time with pink highlights.

"Well, uh, thanks" James noticed for the first time that he had been leaning in to his warm and inviting body. It had just felt so right. He slowly sat straighter and both boys were sad over the loss of comfort. James and Teddy's eyes had locked and before James could utter a single syllable to break the tension, Teddy's lips had brushed shyly against his in a chaste kiss. James' widened, and before he could stop himself he had leaned up and pressed their lips together in a sweeter kiss. It was gentle, yet passionate. Their lips seemed to mold together in an amazing way. James tongue flicked the roof of the older boy's mouth and he moaned into his mouth. They gently pulled away and locked eyes again briefly before looking away slightly flushed. They sat there, together, still in each other arms, and just sat there, before they eventually made their way back to the castle.

Teddy had broken it off with Victoire a while later, and that's when they had began their relationship. James had been a little hesitant when Teddy had told him he wanted to keep them a secret for a little while but had eventually agreed.

Now James was pondering whether or not that was the best decision. He looked up when a pair of arms wrapped around him smiling to himself. This was why he stayed. But how long could he stay hidden like that, if deep down, it hurt him. He wanted to be happy all the time, and not just on rare occasions. He wondered how long he could last as a pair of lips met his. . .

AN: This is my first Teddy/James S. P. Fic so; sorry if the personalities aren't exactly perfect. I was hoping to make this a chapter Fic, but tell me what you think. I'm hoping for at least around seven or more reviews, than I think I'll continue. But regardless I might. . . Any ways's please review and make me happy!

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