AN: It does not belong to me. Wanted to try this fandom for the heck of it.
Cruelty
It is rather cruel, she thinks, the way Shinichi treats her.
Always so determined to save. So righteous. So stubborn.
Always blindsiding her with how utterly nice he is.
Saying things like "I'll protect you".
To someone like her who's been starved for affection, it is more potent than any drug.
As good a detective as he is, he should've known she'll fall hard.
But, in the end, it won't be her he'll love.
In time, Haibara notices that Conan's almost-cruelty is not limited to herself.
Yoshida-san. Ayumi-chan. Poor girl.
Conan will ruin her for any man who would have loved her whole-heartedly, Haibara thinks. Yes, no man will ever live up to the ghost Conan-kun will leave behind when he returns to being Kudo-niisan.
Conan-kun would leave her with visions of adventures, heroics, fancy words, kindness, cunning, strength and brilliance.
Ayumi-chan will, for a long time, chase after a bright, bright star that had never been hers.
That is why Haibara Ai wants to scream at Edogawa Conan sometimes.
Owari