There is Always Tomorrow
Kathryn,
This morning I awoke, thinking that you by my side. But when I put my arm around where you should of been, I felt no one. I felt loneliness, my first emotion this morning was pain, right in my chest.
In your ready room this morning, when our faces were inches apart, I was hoping that I could taste your lips for the first time. But all I received was a smile and a pat on my shoulder. It was enough but again, I felt that sharp pain in my chest.
And moments ago, we shared a dinner. We do it regularly but this night felt, different. I don't know how but it did. I was sure that you'd finally say those three little words that I've been wanting to hear for the past 6 years, "I love you" but they didn't come.
Before you left, I looked into your eyes as I said good bye. I saw something Kathryn, I did. Was it longing? Like the one I feel for you. Was it the pain? Just like the one I feel in my heart when I know that I can't have you. I think that they were both present. You hide behind your rank as an excuse not to get involved with me. I know how you don't think that you can let anyone into your heart, but please, Kathryn, let me in. I would never hurt you.
But another day has gone by and you are not here in my arms. But I can never forget that there is always tomorrow.
My love is always yours,
Chakotay
Kathryn,
This morning I awoke, thinking that you by my side. But when I put my arm around where you should of been, I felt no one. I felt loneliness, my first emotion this morning was pain, right in my chest.
In your ready room this morning, when our faces were inches apart, I was hoping that I could taste your lips for the first time. But all I received was a smile and a pat on my shoulder. It was enough but again, I felt that sharp pain in my chest.
And moments ago, we shared a dinner. We do it regularly but this night felt, different. I don't know how but it did. I was sure that you'd finally say those three little words that I've been wanting to hear for the past 6 years, "I love you" but they didn't come.
Before you left, I looked into your eyes as I said good bye. I saw something Kathryn, I did. Was it longing? Like the one I feel for you. Was it the pain? Just like the one I feel in my heart when I know that I can't have you. I think that they were both present. You hide behind your rank as an excuse not to get involved with me. I know how you don't think that you can let anyone into your heart, but please, Kathryn, let me in. I would never hurt you.
But another day has gone by and you are not here in my arms. But I can never forget that there is always tomorrow.
My love is always yours,
Chakotay