Life is not fair. Have you ever wondered why people have said that? I have, and yet, I never understood it, until now. Any move you make is the wrong one. Try to do the right thing they say, but what if you can't? What if you are sinking further into depression, and no one notices? They see shell of what I used to be, but not the suffocating soul inside, and yet they think they know what lurks inside the mind of this suffocating soul, me.
The soul inside of me is suffocating, and no one has noticed. My friends have abandoned me. I give them clues, small ones, but clues nonetheless, and they have yet to notice. It's almost as if they don't care. I cannot shed any tears for to do so would show them I am weak.
Can you believe they have promised to spend time with me; however, they have not? Their promises mean nothing as my soul cries out in anguish and pain, but no one replies.
They have seen my writings, the thoughts of my heart and soul; however, they believe them to be just that, writings, A STORY! Or maybe, they can't tell that what I write is what I feel…
Is this a dream or is it reality? My nightmare has just begun, I have no way to stop this roller coaster. I can't separate reality from illusion anymore. The lines are blurred for I have lived in my own perfect world for far to long. My world has been shattered. No longer do I have sanctuary from which I can watch what happens and not take part. There is only one question left in my mind, Can I continue on?
A question to end all questions as my heart weeps crimson tears. I'm dying as their laughter pierces through me shattering what is left of my soul. I am praying for salvation though I have none because of the sins that mar my soul.
Everyone thinks they know me, but who are they to judge? Everyone sees my façade never trying to see beyond the walls I have erected. Am I too lost in myself to be saved? Who are they to say who or what I am? They have never known me. Never, yet I considered them my friends. How stupid I was!
I have gone too far to ask for redemption. I have pleaded for far too long, and now I know there is nothing left. My sweet life will end here tonight.
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