They were sitting in their favorite corner of the room. Britt brought them something to eat and some casual conversation started. Both girls had a lot of memories rushing back to them. This school and its rooms kept so many secrets and good and bad memories for the girls. They were making out in the spare rooms, locker room, some classrooms. They were walking these corridors like they owned the school and they had their hearts broken in this very place. In this room Santana broke up with Britt almost a year ago and Britt told her she was not single when she came back for her.Now, this room was about to witness something new for the girls. After talking about B's future, Santana told her she should be happy and find a way to be the happiest person alive. She told her she deserved all she wanted and that's when Britt kissed her.
''I'm sure your girlfriend is amazing…But…You can't recreate what you and I have''
Those words hounded her for hours after she left school and came back home. She even dreamed about Britt and some things they lived. She knew B was right… Nothing could recreate bond they sheared and love that was still there. Santana woke up that morning with a strange feeling in her stomach. She didn't want to go back to school. This visit was making her feel uneasy and it has been making her question almost every decision she made in last few months. She could still feel Britt's lips on hers and she could still feel the need and hunger for that girl like no time has passed. She was in a relationship, she was with girl who was in love with her and few days ago, and she could have sworn that she loves her too…. But now… Now all has changed. She told Britt that she is with somebody, she told her it took her a lot to get over her and Britt still wanted her back with the same smile and patience she always had for Santana. Santana hoped Britt didn't know how close she was to saying she can't be back, because she never left. Only people who really knew Santana knew that she never moved on. She was still Britt's girl with every inch of her soul. She sheared her body, but no one after B had her heart. Danny was close to it, but she never really stood a chance. Santana was scared of loving her again. It broke her when she choose Sam and when she learned that she ''married'' Sam. Santana got very quiet and her mother knew that something was wrong with her girl. Usually, Santana had a lot of words for the people form school and now, she was sitting in the rocking chair playing with something her mother knew was half of the heart girls exchanged at seventh grade. First it was symbol of their friendship, but later it was obvious they believed that the other is their half, piece they can't live without.
''Santana… Are you O.K.?''
''I don't know….''
''Is it something with that girl in New York?''
''No, not really… Danni is nice and she loves me…''
''And you? Do you love her?''
''I believed I do…But now…''
''Now what mi amor?''
''I'm not so sure… I'm not sure about anything…''
Mrs. Lopez smiled at her daughter. She knew her too well.
''Ah, so you saw Britt and now you are confused…''
Santana looked at her mother surprised. How did she know about Britt and confusion she had about all.
''She kissed me and told me she wants me back…''
''And you?''
''What?''
''What do you want?''
''Mom, it's complicated… She is in Boston, I'm in New York. It failed once because of distance. She told me she felt like I abandoned her… I can't…''
''Santana, it seems to me that you already made your mind who you love. Now you must find a way to make that love work.''
''Mom…''
''Mija… You loved Brittany since you were children. Your stubbornness and fears made you lose her once. Are you going to let it happen again?''
''What are you talking about?''
''You are not going to school... You can work as a waitress anywhere…''
''You think I should be with her and go to Boston with her?''
''Or at least talk to her…''
''Why?''
''Because I'm sure you will live the day to regret all the missed chances with her. Santana, besides your father and me, I don't know anyone who loves you more than she does.''
''Mom…I'm afraid.''
''I know love…''
Mrs. Lopez held her daughter and stroked her hair like when she was a child.
''Talk to her love…''
''I will…''
''Your father and I will be tonight at his mother's. She is not feeling well.''
''Oh… Say…''
''I will amor… But I'm not sure she wants to see you…''
''I miss her, but I can't deny big part of me anymore…''
''I know… And I support you….''
''I know, but I wish she would and some of the family would speak to me again.''
''Give it time Santana. All people need time. You needed it too...''
''I love you mom…''
''Love you too…''
Santana went to her room and got on the bed. Her room didn't change that much since she left Lima, but it was different. Some of the things she couldn't take to Louisville and New York, so she left them here. On the wall was still one big frame full of pictures of her and Britt since they were kids. Last picture was their prom picture. Her mom and Susan Pierce made it for Santana's birthday, just few days before they found out that Britt is not graduating. They looked so happy and she missed that sparkle in her eyes. Danni was amazing, they had so much in common, but after what she did with the band, Santana didn't look at her the same. Britt would never do that to her. After she and Rachel learned what happened, she thought about Britt first. She missed her. She was close to calling her, but she gave up. She believed Britt wouldn't talk to her and that she moved on with her life. And here they are now. Back in Lima where it all beguine and ended, and at the same classroom she sang to Britt how much she loved her and broke up with her, Britt told her she still loved her and wanted her back. They did come full circle now. Santana took the phone out of her pocket and sent her a message to come over. Britt was at her house twenty minutes later. She knocked at the door and Santana let her in.
''You never knocked…''
''I was not sure if I'm still allowed just to enter…''
''You will always be allowed in my house Britt…''
Santana let her in and they went to the living room. Britt sat at the sofa and Santana stood in the middle of the room. She wanted to sit next to her, but was so afraid of her closeness.
''Santana, sit… I promise I will not do anything to make you uncomfortable…''
She smiled at Britt and sat next to her. Britt was waiting for Santana to say something, and Santana didn't know how to start this conversation.
''Santana, is everything all right?''
''No, it's not…''
''Why? What is going on?''
She got up and started pacing over the living room.
''You have no right to come back and tell me you love me and want me back. You choose Sam, like you choose Artie before him and…''
''Santana, let's not go there… We know that road you want to take will lead us to all the wrong places… You will mention Artie, Sam and I would ask about all these times I told you I loved you and I had feelings for you and you dismissed me with stupid excuses. Our list of hurt is long, but maybe we could start over…''
''How? You are in Boston, I'm in NY… We have distance problem again… It will brake us…''
''Santana, distance was not the problem last time… It was your fear… Always your fears… What will people say? What will entire school say? Will you get kicked off the Cheerios or something else… Always what Santana wants or is afraid of…. You made me wait for so long and I would probably stay your dirty little secret if there was no Artie or even what Fin did….''
''I can't believe you just said that…''
''I didn't want to break up… And I would follow you anywhere… I wanted to go to the same college where you were, just to be near you. I wanted to get my GED just to be with you Santana….''
''Britt…''
''No! It's always about your fears and blaming me… I choose Sam so you could go and get your dreams without me keeping you in Lima. You hate this place…''
''But I love you! I would have waited for you and I would have followed where ever you wanted to go…''
''And that is why I choose him… You are not the one who should follow… You are a leader Santana… Not someone who sits in the back and waits. You saw how good it felt to get that role in the play? You are star Santana and that is what you should be… And I want to be there to see you shine… I'm leaving MIT. It's not my dream… My dream is dancing and coming home to YOU… Always to you… and some day to our kids and you….''
Santana was taken aback by B's comment. She didn't see this coming.
''You want family with me?''
''Yes, I want it all… I got into Julliard. I start next year and until I start, I will take dance lessons and dance somewhere. But I want to be there also to be with you Santana. Remember what you said in that song… on that hideous day….when you left me… ''We are taking on the world together''. I want to do it all with you. Are you ready to let your guards down and finally love me like you always wanted? I need you Santana to be complete and happy. Are you ready to do the same?''
Santana took a deep breath and sat beside Brittany.
''How do I know you will not change your mind?''
''Santana, do you want me forever?''
''Yes, I want you forever… I want all the things you want Britt, but I'm afraid you would leave me again…''
Britt looked at the floor and her eyes light up…
''I have an idea…. Meet me tomorrow in the Glee.''
She gave Santana quick peck on the lips and left her house. Santana was curious with what Britt had on her mind. She knew that girl had ideas that many people never managed to understand. She went to bed and Danni called her. Santana wanted to call her in the morning and tell her that she wants to break up. This just made her agony shorter. They talked for few minutes and Danni noticed something was off.
''Santana, what is going on?''
''Brittany is back…''
''Back in Lima or with you?''
''In Lima… And she wants me back…''
''And you?''
''I'm sorry…''
''Did you cheat on me?''
''She kissed me and I pushed her back…''
''Did you kiss back?''
''No…''
''Why?''
''Because I'm with you…''
''Wrong answer Santana…''
''What?''
''It's not supposed to be because you are with me, it's supposed to be because you love me…''
''Danni…''
''Santana, we'll talk when you come back…''
And with that Danni hung up on her. She put the phone on her night stand and turned off the lights. She fell asleep thinking about Britt and the future she talked about. She would love to be with her every step of the way and she would love to come back to her every night. Maybe Britt was right and they might make it work and be happy far from Lima and closed minds that are here. She was still hurt by her grandmother's rejection and the fact that she never even mentions Santana. Her cousin told her that Gloria Lopez got out of her house everything that reminds her of Santana and put it in the garage. She never opens the box.
Santana got to school around ten in the morning and went to the Glee room. She found Brittany sitting there in a room full of lilies.
''Britt, what is this?''
''I was told they were lesbian of flowers, so I got them for you?''
''Entire flower shop?''
''It's nothing… It was for you…''
She got up from the chair and offered her hand to Santana.
''I told you I have perfect idea….''
She gave her two plane tickets to Lesbos…
''I don't care where we are, but I thing that girl on girl heaven is the perfect place for us. I want us to pack our bags and just leave…Just us… Somewhere far from here…''
''Britt, are you sure you want this? You want me?''
''Santana, there is nothing I'm more sure about….''
''What about you future?''
''It's standing in front of me Santana…''
Britt took her hands and held them…
''You are my future Santana, and I don't care about anything else…''
''Britt...''
''What is it?''
''I'm not sure you really want it….''
''Santana Paloma Lopez, I want you and I'm willing to do whatever you need for you to believe me. I'm here to stay and grow old with you…''
''I can't wait to grow old with you Britt….''
''Does this mean we are leaving?''
''Yes, it does… After the graduation, we are gone…''
Brittany kissed her and they kept kissing until genitor entered the room.
''Sorry girls…''
''It's fine… We are used to you interrupting our sweet lady kisses…''
''You are back on? Glad to see it…''
''Thank you…''
He was on his way to leave ant then he turned to them…
''Your girl was sad without you here Lopez… Nice to see you found the way back…''
Santana smiled at him and at Britt. They did miss each other a lot. And now it was their time to find the way back to their routine.
Britt went home to change and pack her things. She put them in the car trunk without her parents noticing it. Santana also got her things ready, but she made sure to have few surprises for Britt. Her parents were not at home, so she left them a letter saying she went away to get her life in order and she loves them very much. Before graduating ceremony she found Rachel and pulled her into the bathroom.
''Santana, what are you doing? If you hurt me, I will scream….''
''I'm here to tell you I'm out of the play…''
''Why?''
''I have my reasons…but you can have it back and stop being such a pain…. Doesn't matter… See you Berry…''
And with that, she left… She found Britt and the rest of their friends in the auditorium waiting for the ceremony to start. Sue, who was principle now, called names of the students graduating that year. At the end she said there was someone else who should join the stage.
''And last, but not less special than the others…. Brittany S Pierce….''
''I thought that everyone deserves graduation… Happy graduation Britt…''
Santana gave her cap and gown and she went to the stage. Their friends cheered for her and she was proud. She graduated…. And Santana did this for her… She went to the bathroom to call her parents and Santana went after her….
''I did something you might not like….''
''What did you do?''
''I changed our tickets…''
''Oh…''
''I want us to go to Lesbos , but just for some time. It's not a lesbian paradise; it's just an island…. After that, I want us to go to Hawaii and after that….home...''
''I'm not going back to Lima or Boston…''
''I meant New York…With me…''
Santana was nervous… She didn't know what would Britt say about what she did.
''Really? With you?''
''Yes, with me…''
''I'm in….''
Britt pulled her into a bear hug.
''I have one more wish…''
''You want me to hold your hand under the napkin?''
Santana smiled at her…
''No, I want us to elope…''
''Oh…''