Pain Through Cuts
Hello everyone. Today I want to make a story about Yugi as a cutter. I want to do this because of my inspiration: A story from there, fanFiction , with Yugi as a cutter. Sadly, the story is gone and author had deleted the account. I wish all the best to that author. Also, half of this story isn't only inspiration, but a real life experience/true story.
Please, if you can't stand all kind of insults and violence, don't read more. Please.
WARNING: Contains suicide games and suicide attempts and cutting and bad language and violence/insults.
Yugi Moto is a boy in the High School from Domino City in his 2 grade, in summer/end of summer (you got what I wanted to mean! XD) . He have tri-colored star-shaped hair , big amethyst eyes and a short height.
~15 minutes before courses starts~
Yugi did sit in his desk from right beside the wall. He did got his stuff ready for courses. Then he sit silent from listening his classmates talking, including Yami, who have his own body now.
''Ya heard 'bout how cutters are such losers?'' Joey said (sorry, I can not make his brooklyn accent) with a little grin on his face and amusement being able to be heard in his voice.
''Yes! They are such losers! If they are wanting to take their own life, why they don't do it already? Oh yes! Because they think others will have pity for them! Hahaha!'' Tristan said with such amusement and laughed. Joey laughed too.
''But you guys heard about that helly Blue Whale game? How can some idiots do these things that these 'curators' are telling them? They want just to make some drama out of it! '' Yami said just as the others. He laughed at this. The others did too.
Then Tea started to make fun of it. ''Oh, oh , guys, look, look!'' She said while laughing and waving her arms ''I'm a Whale~! I play Blue Whale and I'm a Whale and want to commit suicide! Woohoo~~! I am scared of the curators and I want to die! Weehee~~!'' as she laughed very loud. All the class was laughing.
Yugi, still in his desk, did hide his face with the left hand/arm and looked at the wall from beside him, thinking. /No again…Please stop… It's been a week since this happens…They are so cruel… Even Yami… If they knew…/ he kept thinking as he looked at his right arm. /If they knew what is hidden under this coat…But they would still do the same. No matter what. I can bet they would hate me and make fun of me for it…How much I will hide it?…/ his thought had been stopped by the ring. It was time that courses start. His teacher came into the class and said ''Good morning, class.'' and the class replied to her.
~In the time of the courses~
Yugi was in the middle of his first course and he couldn't focus on it. He was focused over what Yami and the gang, along with the whole class, said the whole week.
/They really think this is pathetic?… / he thought as he took from his coat the razor and hide it into his hand. While looking at his left hand , in which was the razor, he kept thinking. /They think this is for pity! They don't understand what this feels like!/ Yugi started to shout mentally. No matter how much he would shout mentally, Yami couldn't hear because the mind-link was dead. Just as his bond with Yugi. He left Yugi alone and started this stuff of laughing about others who wants to commit suicide or the ones who is cutting. While shouting mentally, Yugi kept his left hand closed so tight that he started to feel something warm from it. It was blood. He was still holding his razor blade that has cut his palm. He kept his palm closed and hidden in his pocket for no one to notice the blood.
~Later~
Courses did end. It was afternoon. Yugi walked home alone, while he was hearing the gang behind him , from far away, talking and laughing. He could not possibly tell anyone about his… 'little hobby' .
When he arrived home, he did go in his room and locked the door. He removed the coat and then his arms was shown. Full of cuts.
/They wonder why I do wear all the time that coat. I wear it to hide these. And the reason why I wear only cloths with long sleeves since one year ago./ he thought as he took his knife from his nightstand and then…He started cutting as tears was falling silently and fast from his eyes. He had a angry expression as he was crying and cutting /They don't understand! They don't see! They don't know how I feel inside! They know only to laugh and judge and insult! Yes, I want to die! But I don't tell anyone!/ while shouting mentally. He knew he couldn't tell anyone. That no one could help him. That…They would think it's a game. A funny game of attention seeker. /They don't know that…I want help…/ he kept thinking while cutting and crying silently. He knew that Yami will be late today. It was Friday. Yami and the gang would have been going to arcade, like every Friday. Without Yugi, of course. They barely knew he was still alive.
/I can't tell anyone… They won't understand…/ he thought as he felt more the need, the urge of cutting.. He felt his veins pulsing the blood faster and he didn't like that. He wanted this feeling to stop. So he kept cutting. He kept crying. No one was home. It was like always. /It will end soon…?/ he was asking himself.
The end of chapter one! Please R&R and tell me what you think! And if you want the next! See you next time!