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Fic: Unspoken Melodies
Written For: Jello Forever February Challenge
Prompt: Love Songs
Pairing: Jane/Lisbon
Rating: T

You come home and the first thing you say to me is,

"Why are you here?"

I have my tongue tied up as I see you, and for the first time in many years we've spent together, the sparkle in your eyes is missing and your voice is cold and harsh.

"You're not going to say anything? I'm impressed"

You turn your back to me and start packing your bags. I watch you closely, while you open the closet, taking your clothes out.

"I need to talk to you"

The first words coming out of my mouth and you are still packing.

"I know I haven't made things easier for both of us, but I don't want to lose you"

You don't turn around, you don't say a word and that's killing me.

"I hurt you, I betrayed your confidence, I screwed it up, but you know I'm hurting too"

You stop suddenly and turn to me, your eyes are ice cold and angry and I cringe inwardly.

"Are you? Really? Because I don't think this break up is causing you any pain, in fact, you seem more relieved since I left you. Do you even know what hurt is?"

You don't seem to care if your own words are slowly tearing my heart apart.

"You're right, you've really screwed up this time. Your obsession over him has caused me and your son more pain than you can imagine and yet, you didn't seem to stop and think about what you were doing to us, to me, to our son. Did you know that his smile is the only thing that makes me feel alive again? Did you know that his first words were "Mama" instead of "Dad"? And yet, you don't seem to care about us, only about your revenge"
"I LOVE both of you"

I scream, grasping your arms, just loud enough to startle you, hoping you'd understand what I feel.

"No you don't. If you did, you would have been around and showed us just that. You only love the idea of having a family. You've never loved ANYONE but you. Maybe that's why your obsession killed your family"

I watch you gasp and your own eyes widen when you realise what you said.
I embrace myself, because the pain is too much for me to handle right now.

"I'm so sorry. I never meant to say that"
"You're right. Maybe it was my selfishness that got them killed, but I loved them, like I love you and our son. Not just the idea of having a family. I love you and I'm sorry if I screwed up our marriage and family, but my obsession is over right now and I finally realise who is more important to me, you and our son. You're everything I want and everything I need and if you go away, I swear I'll fight for both of you until the day I die. I'm not giving up on us. Not now, not ever. I need you"

One of the things that hurt me the most is to see you cry.
I let my own arms embrace you, crying as well. And we stay like that for moments, crying for everything we had and for everything we've lost, for everything we are and for everything we are not. We cry for the things we said and done that took us to this moment, and when we regain our breaths, the emotion takes control of our actions and my hands caress your face, wiping off the shed tears, shoving off our pain.
I whisper "I love you" as you spread kisses across my face, sending my fears away and then I kiss you, sweetly and softly, remembering our first kiss.
I lay you in our bed as the first signs of a storm start outside. Our bodies make their own symphony and it's not a sad love song anymore.
You look at me and I can see the flammable spark of our love in your shinning green eyes and I know I'm a goner.
I can't remember the last time we've made love like this and I make your mine, like you always were and always will be.