Free me from my prison
A/N: Dedicated to you, lobsterAHOY (or lob-chan ^___^ ) Hope you like it! All the characters are a bit OOC (hopefully not too much). I haven't read or written Yu Yu Hakusho in a long time so somethings might be wrong, please forgive me T.T. And if you could point them out so I can correct them, that'd be great! ^____
Couple: Kurama x Karasu
Warning: Rating might go up in the future. Contains shounen-ai. Set in the future when all of them has grown up: Keiko is married to Yuusuke, Botan and Kurama are currently together, Hiei is living happily with Yukina, Kuwabara got a job, has a stable income and an apartment somewhere; peace had been restored a while ago so their lives are kind of uneventful.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of its characters; this fic is for entertainment purposes only.
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Kurama's POV
What's this feeling burning inside of me?
I have a perfect life: a good job, a peaceful life and a great girlfriend.
Then - this burning sensation deep within my chest that eats away at my heart with its unsatiable appetite - I shouldn't feel like this, like those times during my past. Yet, I know; I know what it is, I know why.
Do I really want to acknowledge it?
Wouldn't it be better to just ignore it like all those times in the past and let it flow through me like a river?
Yes, I might be harmed by its passage and maybe tears will spring from my eyes, but it would be so much trouble to admit, to persue this wild dream.
He and I are enemies who oppose each other, we have no right to be together. It would be unforgivable, unacceptable. But, my heart does not listen, it just beats with its own rhythm: thunk, thunk, thunk.
I am lonely, desperate for his love, his touch, his invisible caress. I can not have them, have him. The things that I build up to protect my fragile heart from society's criticism are all falling apart under his gaze. And that girl, my friend and current lover, waiting with steaming soup wavers and disappears.
All that is left is him, him with his long black hair and that evil glint that refuses to leave his eye.
No, he does not know and will never know. I intend to keep this between you and me.
Tell me, is the rain crying for me? Is the darkness scoffing at my cowardice?
You're right, I am being melodramatic; this sadness does that to me, makes me moody and lingering for his embrace: however distant and impossible. Maybe, just for one night, I could satisfy my yearning heart and give in, surrender to him completely. Then maybe I would be able to return to my meaningless life.
It's getting dark, Yuusuke. Go home to Keiko, I'll leave in a minute. I'm sorry for dumping all this emotional burden on you like this. I'm sure things will be better soon and Karasu... will be forgotten like he is supposed to be.
I watch as you smile brightly, untainted by the darkness. You're truly happy, and you have what I cannot: true love.
But you'll never know, how much I really love him; and you'll never know what he and I shared together in that short amount of time in my youth. It's my secret, my precious burden, my pain and my light.
I wish I could see you again, Karasu............
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My writing just keeps getting worse! T.T Oh well... Reviews anyone? I love getting feedback ^o^
A/N: Dedicated to you, lobsterAHOY (or lob-chan ^___^ ) Hope you like it! All the characters are a bit OOC (hopefully not too much). I haven't read or written Yu Yu Hakusho in a long time so somethings might be wrong, please forgive me T.T. And if you could point them out so I can correct them, that'd be great! ^____
Couple: Kurama x Karasu
Warning: Rating might go up in the future. Contains shounen-ai. Set in the future when all of them has grown up: Keiko is married to Yuusuke, Botan and Kurama are currently together, Hiei is living happily with Yukina, Kuwabara got a job, has a stable income and an apartment somewhere; peace had been restored a while ago so their lives are kind of uneventful.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of its characters; this fic is for entertainment purposes only.
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Kurama's POV
What's this feeling burning inside of me?
I have a perfect life: a good job, a peaceful life and a great girlfriend.
Then - this burning sensation deep within my chest that eats away at my heart with its unsatiable appetite - I shouldn't feel like this, like those times during my past. Yet, I know; I know what it is, I know why.
Do I really want to acknowledge it?
Wouldn't it be better to just ignore it like all those times in the past and let it flow through me like a river?
Yes, I might be harmed by its passage and maybe tears will spring from my eyes, but it would be so much trouble to admit, to persue this wild dream.
He and I are enemies who oppose each other, we have no right to be together. It would be unforgivable, unacceptable. But, my heart does not listen, it just beats with its own rhythm: thunk, thunk, thunk.
I am lonely, desperate for his love, his touch, his invisible caress. I can not have them, have him. The things that I build up to protect my fragile heart from society's criticism are all falling apart under his gaze. And that girl, my friend and current lover, waiting with steaming soup wavers and disappears.
All that is left is him, him with his long black hair and that evil glint that refuses to leave his eye.
No, he does not know and will never know. I intend to keep this between you and me.
Tell me, is the rain crying for me? Is the darkness scoffing at my cowardice?
You're right, I am being melodramatic; this sadness does that to me, makes me moody and lingering for his embrace: however distant and impossible. Maybe, just for one night, I could satisfy my yearning heart and give in, surrender to him completely. Then maybe I would be able to return to my meaningless life.
It's getting dark, Yuusuke. Go home to Keiko, I'll leave in a minute. I'm sorry for dumping all this emotional burden on you like this. I'm sure things will be better soon and Karasu... will be forgotten like he is supposed to be.
I watch as you smile brightly, untainted by the darkness. You're truly happy, and you have what I cannot: true love.
But you'll never know, how much I really love him; and you'll never know what he and I shared together in that short amount of time in my youth. It's my secret, my precious burden, my pain and my light.
I wish I could see you again, Karasu............
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My writing just keeps getting worse! T.T Oh well... Reviews anyone? I love getting feedback ^o^