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Edward POV

If there's one thing I've learnt in life, it's to never take anything for granted. Most importantly people. People can be taken away from your life so quickly that you can't even begin to experience the onslaught of pain. You should love the people closest to you, every second of everyday. Life is evil. It will play games with you, trick you and even make you want to die. But the biggest game it plays, is taking away those closest to you. You never feel so alone as you do when that one person you feel the most closest to in the whole, wild, world is taken away from you. So you should never argue with your loved ones. You don't have enough time in life to love them and argue with them. You need to love them, all the time; because without even the slightest bit of warning, they can be ripped apart from you, forever. And that's the worst feeling ever. Knowing that you will never, ever see a person again. Your brain gets so messed up trying to acknowledge never seeing a person again. You're lost, and so very, very alone. You feel like life has no meaning. But you have to learn to not think like that. As life can also do the exact opposite.

Life can do extraordinary things, things you would never believe to be possible. At the same time as taking a person away from you, they can bring a whole new person into your life; someone who is truly amazing. A person you love instantly by just looking at them. A person who shows you, by just a shy, flicker of their smile, that maybe you were wrong about who your soul mate was. A person who can make you whole again, oh so easily. A person who, again, messes up your brain; but only because you are so amazed by them. A person who takes a big piece away from you when they walk away- your heart. And that's when life, really does mess you up.

"Baby, I saw you what, five minutes ago when I left the house?" I chuckled, as I walked past an elderly couple holding hands.

"I know, but I was missing you already!" Tanya admitted.

"Yeah and me." I sighed, thinking about the long day ahead of me.

"What are we like?" she giggled.

"Two people about to get married next month?" I pointed out, still smiling.

"That's true." She sighed.

"What's up?" I asked, frowning.

"Oh... nothing. I just… erm… can we go out tonight?" Tanya asked, cheerily.

"Sure," I replied. "Where too?"

"Oh, nowhere too fancy. I just have some big news to tell you!" I could hear her smile down the phone.

"News?" I questioned, wondering what she was going on about.

"Yup!" she replied, popping the 'p'.

"Going to tell me now?"

"Not a chance!" she laughed.

"Damn. So now I have a whole day of work without you and I have the annoyance of not knowing some big news! Are you trying to kill me Tanya?" I smiled.

Tanya's beautiful laughter filled my ears. "Sorry Mr Cullen. But it's top secret."

"Top secret?"

"Well kind of… Alice kind of knows! But she guessed! I had no proof to tell her that she was wrong!" Tanya admitted, a little bit guiltily.

"Well that's Ali for you!" I could see the hospital up in front of me now. It was lucky I only lived a 5 minute walk from it, so no need to drive.

"Yeah, she's a little devil! Used up all of the milk yesterday! She insisted on having a pint of it to drink! All it did was make her go hyper!" Tanya laughed.

"She's been like that since… well since before she was born!" I joined in laughing with Tanya. "So that's why you gave me a black coffee this morning!"

"Yeah, sorry. I can get some milk on my way home from work though?" Tanya offered.

"That would be nice, you know I hate black coffee," I said.

"So why didn't you say anything this morning?" Tanya asked.

"Because I love you too much too!" I admitted, glad that Tanya couldn't see the blush I was producing.

"Aww, I love you too Edward."

"Good. Now I'm sorry Tan, but I'm at work now- I'll see you later okay? Remember to make restaurant reservations for later!" I walked through the big revolving glass door into the hospital reception.

"Will do, bye honey," Tanya replied.

"Love you." I sighed, as I put my phone away and switched it off- phones weren't allowed to be on in hospitals.

As I put my phone in my work trouser pockets, I made my way up the flights of stairs, until I reached the third floor. One of the many staff rooms were on the right- which was the closet to my office, so the one I generally always used. Jasper - a therapist at the hospital and also boyfriend to my sister Alice - used this staff room as well. I liked Jasper- we had been good friends for a long time and our parents were good friends as well. Jasper was a decent guy and I liked that Alice was dating him; I knew how much Jasper adored her, so trusted him not to hurt her.

"Hey Ed!" Jasper called out, as I walked into the staff room.

"Hey J, what's up?" I replied, walking over to where he was sat.

"Not much. Well Alice is definitely perkier than usual today, but she won't tell me why, yet. Any ideas?" He chuckled.

"Maybe. Tanya has some big news to tell me tonight- that Alice guessed about yesterday?" I said, reaching out for the newspaper in front of me.

"Could be why. Alice does always get very over excited about big news," Jasper pointed out.

"Sure does," I agreed.

"Nerves hitting in yet?" Jasper asked, raising his eyebrows at me.

I shook my head. "Nah. It's a month away yet. And Tanya hasn't bailed out, yet. So I guess that's a good sign."

"Like she would anyway! She's crazy about you!"

I smiled. "And so am I. I…I just can't help thinking that we're rushing into it. We've only known each other for what? A year and nine months? Can I be sure she's the one?"

"Good point." Jasper leant back in his chair and thought for a moment. "Okay answer me this. What does your body and mind do when you see her?"

"It…I … I feel happy," I replied.

"Just happy?"

"Yeah, and goodness and contentment. She's so beautiful to me! She's the perfect girl! She's kind and considerate." I felt like I could talk about Tanya all day.

Jasper patted my shoulder. "Trust me, you're making the right choice." He nodded and smiled.

"I know. I know I am," I agreed.

"So… any ideas about the news then?" Jasper asked, looking back down to his newspaper.

"Not the foggiest. But I do know it's all I've been thinking about for the last ten minutes," I chuckled, throwing my own newspaper down as all I did was read the first line ten times and still take none of it in.

Jasper laughed too. "Mmm. Well I wish you the best luck to what ever it is."

"Thanks," I replied, bluntly.

"I better get going. Work to be done, patients to be seen too." Jasper chuckled as he stood up.

"So that's why we're here?" I asked, laughing too.

"Well that's why I'm here Eddie boy- you, well who knows?"

"Oi!" I said, punching Jasper's arm. "I work!"

"Yeah, of course you do Eddie." Jasper winked at me, then ran out of the room, before I had chance to reply.

I sighed and leant back into my chair, trying to sort out the thoughts in my head, to what this 'big news' was. I guess I would find out soon enough tonight. I stood up and stretched, before heading to my office and start seeing my patients.

This was the part of my job I hated. The part, when you know you've let someone down and not just someone but their whole family and friends. I knew there was nothing I could do to save him. But the aching pain of betrayal in my heart, never failed to appear at times like this.

I took a deep breath before approaching the Clearwater family.

Seth, their son, who passed away only moments ago, had been a patient of mine for about a week now. I knew as soon as I examined him the first time that he was going to die. But a part of me, a tiny part, hoped that somehow I could save him and make everything better. I had to stop learning to trust that part of me.

"Mr and Mrs Clearwater, I'm so sorry." I began speaking slowly, knowing by saying those last 3 words, that they could guess all that I was going to say.

I couldn't bear to look them in the eyes and see the grief and torture in them. I couldn't bear for them to look at me like I had let them down. "Seth was in an extremely bad condition from the moment he came into the hospital. The car crash ruined most of his vital organs. He was lucky to stay alive for as long as he did. I'm so sorry; there was nothing else we could do."

"I know." Mrs Clearwater nodded. I looked up to see both of them staring at the floor. No tears would fall from their eyes now. They'd been expecting this to happen, but it still didn't mean it didn't hurt or killed them inside any less. Seth was only fifteen. He didn't deserve this. His parents didn't deserve this! Seeing your own kid die before you… there just weren't words.

"I'm… just so sorry." Sorry. Sorry was the only stupid word I could say. How could sorry help them?

"Thank you," Mr Clearwater said, finally meeting my unwanted gaze. "I know you tried. I saw it in your eyes. It isn't your fault. It… it was just a terrible accident, which shouldn't have happened." It was like he could read my mind.

"Thank you. I appreciate that. I really do. I just, really hoped there was something I could have done. I'll leave you two alone now." I nodded again, before exiting out of the waiting room which they were in.

I headed straight to my office, glad that my day shift was about to end. It was days like this when I wanted anything but to get out of this hospital. Usually I loved it here. Since I was a kid, I came here as much as I could with my father, Carlisle. He used to be one of the top surgeons in Forks hospital, until he decided that he had, had enough and could afford to retire. That didn't last long though, as he got very bored and restless at home, so decided to come back to work part-time. I didn't usually have a shift with him as he did nights. But I was still proud to call him my Dad, and he was the reason I wanted to become a doctor. He was like a superhero to me when I was a child. He came in day after day, saving lives- what could be more fulfilling then that?

I followed quickly in his footsteps and went to med school and then here. As soon as they found out that I was Carlisle's son, I got a job immediately. I loved it here, usually, when things went right. Today was just one of those days I guess. I still had tonight to look forward to and to help me to forget today.

I sat down on my black leather seat and started to roll my head in circles, to get rid of the aches and clicks that had built up in my neck from today. I looked down at my watch to see it being 4.56 pm- four minutes until I was due to get out of here.

The events of today had made me forget about the 'news' I would be finding out tonight as well. I knew it would be something stupid, like she brought a new pair of expensive shoes or something. But any news from Tanya made me tense.

Tanya and I had been dating for just under 2 years - we met at this very hospital, classic case- she was my patient and I was her Doctor. I'd only just started working here at the time, so was slightly nervous, especially when one of my first patients was Tanya. Her radiance and looks immediately grabbed my attention, but her personality was what had won me over. Tanya, was only the second girlfriend I had had in all my life. I'm not going to lie and say I'm ugly - actually I was quite the catch in high school and even med school - but all I ever got out of girls were one night stands. I wanted more, just no girl ever meant much to me, which made me sound like a man-whore and player- but I wasn't. Well I tried not to be. There was only one other girl I ever really liked but I never… never got the courage to talk to her and she was only in my biology lessons, so I never saw her that much either.

Then I met Tanya- and I guess half of me made me to like her, a lot. I didn't want another stupid one night stand-or one week relationship. I was fed up. So I guess I made do with Tanya and then I got to know her more, and even though sometimes I didn't feel there was always a strong spark between us; I knew it was more than enough for me. And I loved her, I did. She just had to be my soul mate, right?

I couldn't think for much longer, as I was interrupted by my office telephone ringing. Half of me thought about just leaving it, but then I realised it could be something important.

"Hello?" I answered in a monotone voice.

"Edward? It's Matt!" replied an urgent voice. Matt was one of the ambulance drivers working at the hospital, I'd spoken to him now and again around the hospital- he seemed like a decent guy.

"Hey, what's up?" I asked, wondering why he would want to call me now.

"Look mate, I'm sorry. B-but Tanya- your fiancée right? I've just been called out to her, she's been in a car accident Edward."

It took a moment for my brain to make sense of his words. "A car accident!? What? How? Where?!" I frantically asked.

"I don't know the exact details, but it looks like another car came at the side of her and made her swerve pretty fast into a tree." Something about Matt's voice made me sound like something very bad was wrong, apart from that.

"Where are you?! I'll come right away-"

"Edward, there's something you should know first." Matt sighed.

"What?!" I demanded.

"Edward, you have to know- they did the best they could. Tanya had been smashed very hard into her car…" Déjà vu was suddenly coming back to me, but in such the wrong way…

"No…" I whispered.

"We're outside the gas place- near the police office Ed-" But I slammed the phone down and ran out of the room before he could reply.

A/N: An unexpected new story! (To you and me both :L) Actually I'd been planning this story for quite a while now, and just randomly started writing it the other day (: I'm really excited about it! So I hope you like it!

I know it sounds like Tanya is the ONE of Edward, but he hasn't met Bella yet (; and I think there are a few hints throughout the first chapter that something's not up with Edwards feelings about Tanya.

This story will be at first a mixture of quite sad stuff from Bella and Edward, but I promise later on it will get more happier and interesting (: I really hope you enjoy it!

And a BIG thank you to Steph (yet again!) she always helps me soooooo much with my stories and helped me with this chapter and the summary! So thanks! I have the next chapter already written! But due to exams this week, I don't know when I will post it (N)

So please tell me your thoughts and whether I should continue or not (:

Laura