~*Even In Death… We Cannot And Will Not Be Parted*~
They're all lying to me; I know they're wrong, I know you're here. I'll take you home Tumble, I promise. They all believe your dead, but I know otherwise, I was called crazy by some, others pity me, I wish they wouldn't. Jemima tries to be a good sister yet I am still enraptured by your presence; she took me out one night. We stayed up all night staring up at the moon and praying to the heavyside, she prayed to the everlasting cat asking for guidance, asking that soon her father may be able to join us once again. I prayed to the everlasting cat saying that you're not dead; I felt your presence then. I saw your shadow, I felt you breath, I felt you cry and hold me. I shudder at the memory.
"Ellie?" she whispered "What's wrong Electra."
"He's here Jemima, I can feel him." I replied.
Jemima closed her eyes and a tear escaped her lids, she opened her multicoloured orbs,
"Pounce misses him to Ellie, they were brothers. He never knew Tumble was so upset."
"That's a lie… Tumble was always happy, he didn't slash his wrists, he's not dead Jemima. I know he's not."
She nodded then "I feel his presence, to, he was my first boyfriend. He was the reason why me and Pounce are so happy, and the reason why everyone else was to."
I nodded then and jumped down,
"I'm tired, lets go home."
Nodding she leaped down and followed me back to our den where our Mother awaited us shaking her head fondly.
That was two weeks ago, I still feel your presence, Jemima says she sometimes feels you to. I need you here, with me. I need you… I'm going to get you…
I stride past the others, past my family and friends, holding your silver razor in my hands; I clutch it like it's a cure to a horrible sickness. I am sick, sick with sorrow, this is the only way we can be together. I mumble under my breath
"Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth
It leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home"
I'm here now, the moonlight falls down on your grave I dig. I find you, razor slits on your wrists; I hug your limp body and listen for a heartbeat. Nothing. Tears stream down my cheeks. I get your razor and place it in your hands and carry on my sorrowful song.
"I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on."
I make you talk to me, I ask you what happened you reply that you didn't like seeing life pass you by and you fell asleep and when you woke up everything was different. I take in every word and snuggle closer to you, I make your arm go around me and you sing sweet songs to me.
"Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love
But no bonds can hold me from your side, oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me
I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on."
I take your razor and hold it to my wrist as I whisper "And I can't love anymore than I do."
Taking one more breath I hold the razor to my throat and trace it against my skin. The last thing I see is Pouncival's strong arms redeeming a small calico kitten. The last thing I hear is Jemima's voice screaming my name. The last thing I feel is teardrops falling on my body and blood spurting out of my throat. Finally my vision is clouded by darkness and I find myself in a place among the clouds with Tumblebrutus holding his arms out for me.
"Hello Ellie."