It's been a long time since I've written a fanfic, so forgive me for typos.

Hope you guys like this one.

Hi, my name is Isabella Swan and I would like to personally welcome you to my hell. Well, that is what I will say when this airplane touches down in Seattle. I pulled in a deep breath as I leaned my forehead against the cold oval window. The flight from New York City to Seattle was about a good six hours so I hoped that would be enough time for me to get myself together.

I hadn't stepped foot in Seattle since that ill-fated day, five years ago. Well, five years, four months and three days. But who's counting, right? Ugh. I was fucking pathetic. I thanked God every day for my two best friends that had always been by my side through thick and thin. The two that helped me through the worst parts of my life and always made me feel better.

I felt someone drop a duffel bag on the seat next to mine and I looked up to see Jasper stuffing Alice's big pink suitcase into the cargo space above us. I didn't even bother to ask why they were so late; I knew it was Alice's packing. I snorted quietly before tossing her a glance.

"Hey, so I don't think that's going to fit."

"Shut the fuck up, bitch. It's going to fit whether it wants to or not," Alice huffed.

I snickered quietly to myself as the elderly couple behind us glared at Alice for using such language. I saw Jasper attempted to hide a smile as he gave one last shove at the suitcase. Finally, it was stuffed in and he was able to close the lid of the space. He settled in the middle between Alice and I and fixed his seatbelt.

"You okay?" He asked, his eyes slightly narrowed as I gave a quick nod.

"Yeah, I'm good. It's just going to be weird, you know? But I'm also super glad I'll be able to see my parents in person, again. Facetime doesn't always work very well."

Jasper gave a small nod before tossing his arm around my shoulder and pulling me closer to his body. I leaned my head on his shoulder as I blew out a sigh. The next couple of days were going to be a disaster, I could already feel it.

I closed my eyes as I felt the plane roar to life and then start moving. I always hated the way it felt when the plane left the runway and then when it descended. Jasper lifted the arm rest that was between us and pulled me close. I snuggled into his side and even pulled my feet up. And just like that, I was too comfortable to stay awake.

*Flashback*

Edward was going to be fucking ecstatic. I grinned to myself as I held the acceptance letter to Harvard in my hands. We had started freaking out when he had gotten his letter first. Edward was a straight A student and was in multiple sports. He was probably the smartest in our grade and I knew his letter would be an acceptance. To say I was surprised when mine was too, was an understatement.

It was the week after prom so naturally, there were parties being thrown almost every night. All the seniors were ready for graduation and it was less than a week away. Tonight, Mike Newton and Eric Yorkie was throwing a party down at the beach, complete with kegs and bonfires. Now, a bunch of drunk teenagers around fire on a beach surrounded by trees? Yeah, that was literally a recipe for disaster.

I snorted to myself quietly as I pulled on a pair of dark high-waisted jeans and a flowery crop top, complete with my black and white converse. My hair was tousled dry, which meant it was wavy and looked okay. It was dark outside anyway, so I wasn't really worried about my appearance. There wasn't anyone that I had to look good for, besides Edward. And he told me I always looked good. Though, sometimes I didn't believe him.

I debated on whether or not I should take the Harvard letter with me, but I didn't want it getting lost amidst all the celebrating. I set it near the acceptance letter for NYU, glancing back and forth between the two. I hadn't even thought about any other school aside from Harvard, because that's where Edward was going. And yes, I was going to be /that/ chick that followed her man. But what else was I going to do? He was the love of my life.

My parents had wanted me to apply for NYU, because it was where they had gone to college. I had given up the arguing and then applied just to get them off my back. Imagine my surprise when I learned the school accepted me. I hadn't told my parents yet. Well, anyone really. No one but they knew about my applying for NYU and it was going to stay that way. I got into Harvard. That was all that mattered.

Alice swung by and picked me up for the beach party. Rosalie, Emmett, Edward and Jasper were already there. Rosalie was the third musketeer of our girl group and Emmett was her boyfriend and Edward's older brother. I was sure they were already drunk or half-way there. Everyone had worked so damn hard this year to get to where they wanted to be and there was no one that could stop their celebrating.

After reading the contents of the letter from Harvard, I was too excited to keep it to myself. I had to tell Alice. Alice's squeal literally hurt my eardrums; I had to cover my ears while I laughed. I forced her to keep it to herself just until I told Edward. I wanted him to be the first, but Alice was my best friend and if Rose were with us, I would have told her too.

When we reached the parking lot of the beach, Alice pulled her car into one nearest the entrance and we both got out. She went to find beer and I went in search of Edward. Along the way to find Edward, I found Rosalie, pretending to care about whatever Jessica Stanley was saying. As soon as she saw me, her eyes lit up and she ran over to me. I refrained from laughing out loud at Jessica's facial expression as Rose and I kissed cheeks.

"Bella! I was wondering when you'd show up. Where's the pixie?" Rose had a drink in her hand and while I could smell the alcohol emanating from her breath, I wasn't sure if she was drunk or not. She never slurred her words.

I pointed with my thumb behind me. "She's somewhere there, looking for a drink."

Rose dumped the contents of the red solo cup into a nearby grass patch and muttered quietly. "This shit is cheap. I wonder where the real liquor is."

We walked slowly down the length of the beach, passing a few classmates and strangers who'd decided to crash our party. I still didn't see Edward anywhere, but Rose was sure he at the end with Emmett. Shortly after, we found Emmett, but still no sign of Edward. I groaned in frustration and pulled out my phone. I had sent him a few texts earlier, inquiring about his location, but still received nothing. I slid my phone back in my pocket as Mike Newton limped over to our little group.

"Bella! Glad you made it." He was quiet when he spoke, wincing ever so slightly as he looked down at his left leg.

"Hey. What happened to your leg?" I tilted my head as I glanced down at his leg.

"Shit, Newton! Did you try to do that cliff jumping shit?" Emmett's voice boomed over us, my head shaking in amusement.

Rose whacked the side of his bicep as she pointed to Mike. "He's not wet, so obviously not."

Mike grimaced before speaking. "Nah, I tripped over a fucking log while I was talking to Edward."

My face lit up with excitement as I heard my man's name. I asked Mike where he'd last left him and then thanked him, the three of us heading in said direction. Flashlights were being used all around us as people looked for their friends and I could only hope Edward hadn't moved from where Mike had said he was. We heard giggling coming from a small clearing in the trees and headed for that direction. Emmett switched from his flashlight to his camera so that he could take pictures of whichever couple was in the trees. Rose and I rolled our eyes as we took a tentative step into the trees. We came to a complete stop when we saw a guy sitting on a log, a blonde in his lap. You could clearly see her tongue was down his throat and I grimaced. I was just about to clear my throat and ask if they'd seen Edward when the blonde pulled back and that familiar head of bronze shown through in the beam of the flashlight.

I was frozen in place, I couldn't move. I watched as Edward pushed Tanya off his lap and onto the ground, wiping his lips with the back of his hand.

"Bella! Bella, it's not what you think," Edward voiced with a touch of guilt.

His words were a bit slurred and he wobbled a bit as he stood up. All I could do was stare. The man that I had been with for the past three years had just cheated on me in front of my very eyes. The one that I had called the love of my life. The one who I told I loved him every day since sophomore year. The one that had told me he loved me and showed it, too.

All I could feel were the tears that had started streaming down my face and my heart breaking into a million little pieces. When I finally came out of shock, all I heard was Rose's yelling and Edward's grunting. I blinked to clear my sight and saw as Emmett had Edward in a chokehold, up against a tree. I couldn't deal with that, right then. So I did what any coward would do. I ran. I turned on my heel and ran to where Alice had parked her car and hoped she was still in that area. The tears were free and I didn't care who saw me. I didn't give a fuck about anything then. I just wanted to go home.

Alice, thankfully, was hanging out by her car with some guy named Paul. I knew her car would be unlocked, so I slid into the passenger's seat and sobbed into my hands. Seconds later, I felt Alice's hands on my shoulder, asking me what's wrong and what had happened. Just then, she received a phone call from Rose telling her exactly what went down and then the car went quiet. I felt her arms holding me tightly against her small frame as mine was wracked with sobs. Alice didn't say anything else after that and just let me cry it out.

She drove me home in silence and walked with me into my house. As I made my way upstairs quietly, she went into the living room, where my parents were watching a movie. I was sure she told them what went down, as both of my parents rushed into my bedroom. An hour later, I had two suitcases packed and half of my room was empty.

Was I a coward? Yeah. Did I care? Absolutely not.

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