DISCLAIMER: I don't own any of the Inuyasha characters.

Hello! How long has it been? I'm sorry I didn't get these things posted. First I caught the flu and then my computer got sick (got a virus…) so I had to get a new one and save all the things that the virus didn't destroy on floppy disks. And believe me it's a pain in the ass. If you've had it happen I now know how you feel. I hope it doesn't happen again. Viruses are the worst things to web surfers and authors. They eat up your memory and kill your files. Such a shame. I'm more upset about my computer than I am of my self if u haven't noticed. OK well here's the first chapter of falling apart.

Enjoy!

Ch.1 'so unperfect .'

Kagome chews on her pencil, watching the birds outside as the teacher writes note on the chalkboard.

"Kagome! Are you listening and copying these notes down!"

She jumps out of her seat a little bit.

"Yes! Um… Yes I am"

"Good, you've missed a lot of school I wouldn't be slacking off if I were you."

"Yes sir."

She stares down at her blank sheet of paper. 'What's the use?' After school she walks with her friends home, leaving them as she turns the corner to the shrine. 'Tests? School? Friends? Demons? Naraku? Why should I care any more? There's nothing, nothing but emptiness. We are so close though! We're so close to finishing the Shikon no Tama and defeating Naraku…But… I don't think I want to anymore. What's the point? When we first began, it was fun. There was never a dull moment and now look, I'm sitting her thinking this over when I should already know the answer. I should want to finish this and be happy once were done. But why am I not? I don't want to leave them. When we finish collecting the jewel shards I will just have to go back to my old life. What else? What will happen to them? Will I lose my closest friends in the world?'

Dead leaves crunch under her feet as she walks up the street. A gust of wind blows the leaves against her ankles, and plays with her skirt. Kagome walks slowly up the stairs to the shrine, stopping at every step to turn around yet not finding a good reason or place to run to.

How could she just abandon her friends? How could she keep her family away from home when this was all done with? The thought that she couldn't was the most frightening thought that floated about her mind at the moment yet she still walked on and into her house. She throws her book bag down on the coach.

"When's dinner going to be done?"

"In about an hour and a half."

"OK…I'm going to the park for a little bit, I promise to make it back before dinner OK?"

"All right, but were a jacket its getting chilly outside."

"Yes mom."

Kagome takes the jacket out of the closet and dashes outside, running as fast as her legs can carry her to down the steps and around the corner to the park. 'Why am I running? I have an hour. I'm such an idiot sometimes.' She slows her pace down to a fast walk as she enters the park.

It's empty, like a deserted forest where animals refuse to live. The wind makes the leaves swirl around in a crazy frenzy as Kagome walks threw and sits down on the fountain's edge. She circles her fingertips on the water edge, making ripples in the water.

"They fade away…" she says sorrowfully as she watches the ripples fade back into the water.

"What would happen if I faded away? Or what if the others faded away? What would be come of them or me afterward? Would everything just end?"

A leaf falls from the tree and lands in Kagome's lap. She picks it up and examines it for a couple seconds before twirling it around between her pointer finger and thumb. Frowning, she places it lightly on the water surface, making it float around on the water.

A small droplet of water falls on the leaf followed by other small ones, gradually getting bigger as the sprinkling continues. Kagome holds out her hands as if to fell the rain before standing up.

"Rain?"

She starts walking back but doesn't make it out of the park before it starts to pour down. Running Kagome tries to make it to her house before the weather gets any worse. Her foot slips on the wet pavement causing her to hit the ground hard, scratching her legs and arms.

'I have to make it back home, I still have time.' She thinks trying to get up once more. After discovering she won't get home in time Kagome ducks in a bus stop, to wait out the storm. Minutes go by but the rain shows no sign of slowing down, instead it rains harder flooding the streets and side walks.

'Its so cold…why today? Why couldn't this all happen on a different day?' hugging her coat close to her Kagome closes her eyes and tries to concentrate on only the sound of the rain. Suddenly Kagome opens her eyes and dashes from the bus stop heading for her home. Water soaks her shoes and socks, drenching her body as she continues to thrust her legs in front of her. 'I have to…keep running, and then when I get there…I can go back and make everything right…I'm sick of waiting around…nothing will be accomplished by sitting around!' she repeats in her mind.

Turning the corner she runs up the stairs, tripping once but getting back up and continuing. Pushing open the front door Kagome falls to her knees, bending over to catch her breathe.

"Are you all right, Kagome?"

"Yes…mom…" She says between breathes.

She stands up and drags her self to the bathroom throwing her coat on a rail.

"I'm going to take a quick bath, I'm drenched. Ill be back own to eat dinner after ward."

"OK!" her mother replies happily.

Kagome strips out from her wet clothes and draws a hot bath. After she finishes bathing she gets dressed and walks down the stares as if she's staring out into space. She sits down at the table and stares blankly at her warm food on its plate.

'Something warm…' she slowly eats her dinner savoring the last bite. Standing up after everyone's finished Kagome looks down before suddenly shouting.

"I'm going back tonight! Right now!"

Her family looks surprised at her sudden action but after ward say OK and help her get her things together. For the rest of the night Kagome bites her tongue, not saying a word except 'bye, OK, yes and no' she looks down at her shoes, standing in front of the well looking down into it.

'Here we go, back to this place, my second home. No tests, no mom, no little brother, no Hojo, instead Inuyasha, Shippou, Miroku and Sango along with other demons I don't feel like remembering.' She jumps in and lands on the other side just like every other time before.

Climbing up the well she sits down on the edge for a minute, examining the surroundings around her. Suddenly she hears a faint cry coming from the woods. As it gets louder she sees a young girl run out of the trees.

"Kagome-San! Kagome -San!"

Kagome smiles at Rin as she greets her happily.

"Hi Rin, what are you doing out here? Are you all by yourself?"

"Nope! Sesshoumaru is back there, he'll catch up!"

"What are you two doing out here?"

"We are going to the east lords mansion! Sessy hasn't been there in a while so he decided to pay them a visit and he's brought me along! The lord has a little girl that's a little older than me but recently her mother died so she's sad and stuff."

"So you want to go cheer her up?"

"Yes and you can come too! I bet she would love to see you as well as I and Sesshoumaru!"

"I don't know Rin. I mean I'm not sure Sesshoumaru would want me around. And besides Inuyasha would get angry."

"Sessy wants you around! Isn't that right?"

Sesshoumaru and Jaken come out of the woods quietly. Sesshoumaru doesn't reply.

"See! He doesn't mind!"

"But Inuyasha…"

"He won't get mad, I promise!"

"How can you promise that?"

"I just did!"

"…"

"Come with us! Come on it'll be fun! And it'll be a vacation from being around Inuyasha all the time!"

"I don't know…"

"Come on!"

Sesshoumaru passes the two.

"Rin hurry up."

Rin gives Kagome a solemn face.

"Please come with us Kagome-Chan."

Kagome bits her lip but before she can decide Sesshoumaru interrupts them.

"Rin don't force her into coming with us, let her choose, if she doesn't want to come she doesn't have to. I don't care either way."

"But…"

Rin gives Kagome a puppy dog face as a last resort, stopping after noticing the cold glare Sesshoumaru looks at her with for a second.

That's the end of ch.1. I hope it wasn't too boring.

I don't think it is. I mean not a lot happened but… it did get the story going…

Don't worry, the later chapters are better. I promise.

Please review…but no flames please, they make my computer sick. Gives my computer heartburn. (J/k) never mind…just don't give me flames please, but I don't mind u telling me things to make it better. I just don't want the reviews that say "u suck!" When I know they haven't even read the story. It's sad… oh, yeah. I had to rate this R because last time I rated it PG-13 and they took it off because it had the concept of sex, but its not like I got real descriptive about it. You'll see what I mean later. But no its not a lemon, I'm sorry to those u thought it was. Crape I'm taking up space again! See ya!

RR!

Bye!

-.- saquin