All credit goes to : She will be loved by Maroon 5

" I drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door....."

"I've had you so many times but somehow I want more..."

She was standing under the umbrella again, with her smile broken and her eyes too bright. Edward couldn't help but watch as she stood by the curb and waited for the green man to appear. She looked so beautiful under the night light, the rain streaming of the ends of the umbrella peaks. Already she seemed to be searching for her car keys and Edward couldn't help but feel his heart thud painfully in his chest when she finally found it in her breast pocket.

It was always there. Every single night that he'd found her here in the same position. But yet she still patted at her pockets as if it was all new to her.

If he had been there, she needn't have to search for her keys. He would have guided their hands to her breast and let her feel the clammy hotness of his palm as he stared into her molten eyes. Edward's hand clenched on the steering wheel as he saw another hand slipping into her pocket, and emerged victorious with the car keys. Bella laughed as her mystery man teasingly shook the keys in front of her eyes and Edward couldn't muster enough saliva to swallow the heavy lump in his throat.

It should've been him with his hand inside her pocket, her breast, her eyes, her lips, tracing, kissing, blowing hot trails.

Jacob black swooped down and planted a small kiss on her lips and Edward couldn't help but feel victorious when he saw her stiffen, but then the bags of shopping dropped from her hand and Bella responded with such enthusiasm, that every little kiss she placed on him felt like a sock into his gut.

Why was he torturing himself like this?

And then as he caught glimpse of her teary face buried into Jacob's shoulder, he knew.

The broken smile spoke to his heart in volumes. Her eyes glassy but emotional.

The green man flickered on and Edward watched as Jacob tugged Bella to her car with eager arms but was relieved when Bella shook her head, like always, and mouthed the words he had commited memory.

"Not tonight, Jacob. I've got lots of paperwork to do...."

Her shoulders were hunched as she watched him walk away, but Edward wanted to run up to her and twirl around in his arms. Even if she didn't know he watched her, they were still so closely linked. Something was making her hesitant in letting her bring Jacob home with her and Edward wanted to kiss every last bit of her doubtfulness. The passenger seat was unlocked. Why was it unlocked? It wasn't like she was going to see him and run to his car like it was her haven, however much he wanted it to be. Their haven, together. Where he would make her feel as beautiful as she looked and tasted.

It would be another hard night to agonise again. Saying goobye was especially the worst.

xoxoxox

He was outside her door again. The rain was still pouring buckets but yet he sat and waited. Driving aimlessly into the night, he somehow still always wound up at Bella's door. Like she was her Queen Bee, and he was her slave, fighting with other males constantly for her attention, protecting her so vigorously that she would not see anyone beyond him. He wanted her to feel the turmoil everytime he saw her. How everytime, she stepped into a room, he felt an iron fist clenching around his heart relentlessly. Only being able to breathe when she stepped away. But yet even if she did go, he wanted her by his side, to feel and see her every breath. To know she felt just as strongly as he did.

A light flickered in Bella's upstairs bedroom, and Edward couldn't help but stare desperately at the whispering curtains swaying gently in the wind.

His gut clenched, when he realised two figures were behind the curtain beside the window instead of the usual one.

"Jacob...."

"Ssh....it's alright, baby...."

Every moan was a blow to his body. Every piece of clothing they undressed of each other was painful to watch, but yet he couldn't tear his eyes away. Their shadows collapsed onto the bed, but yet every single gasp and whispered lie reached his ears. He sat there listening to every single sound coming from her lips and felt anguish that it wasn't him helping her feel that way.

But yet as Jacob's breath grew laboured and she screamed her muffled orgasm into her lover's shoulder, he couldn't help but love her.

He loved her so much, even if she betrayed him night and day with living a lie.

And as Jacob jerked within the body that was meant for him, Edward couldn't help but shut his eyes and breathe shallowly.

Although he wished he could turn around and walk away, he knew that he'd be there the next night and the next.

Watching and waiting and listening to her.

Wanting to catch her everytime she fell.

But failing every single time.

A/N: If you guys want me to continue, the rest of the chapters will be in first person.

This sort of carries on from New Moon, where Edward goes off and leaves Bella (shudder) but instead of trying to commit suicide blah blah....Bella's gone onto being a successful journalist at a very young age, with Jacob as her BF and Edward as her personal stalker....(lol)

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