Disclaimer: Everything and anything related to the Twilight saga belongs to Stephenie Meyer. This is a work of fiction based on her writings. No harm is meant by it.
Summary: Bella writes down what she feels. These are her words. This is the story of how she was saved by Edward. A sequence of 7 short poems.
Her Words
I am unneeded.
Unnecessary.
Unwelcomed.
Unloved.
Over the ledge.
Swallow the pills.
Down the vein.
One clean shot.
All it would take.
Simple.
Clean.
Mostly...
Coward.
I am a coward.
Gutless.
I am gutless.
I couldn't jump.
I swayed in the wind.
I leaned forward and fell back.
I am a coward.
I couldn't swallow.
I spat the rainbow up.
I drank them and threw up.
I am a coward.
I couldn't cut.
I used a dull blade.
I dragged it down and didn't bleed.
I am a coward.
I couldn't shoot.
It had no bullets.
I held it down and nothing happened.
I am a coward.
Almost.
Today, I almost did it.
It almost happened.
By someone else's hands.
Nearly run over.
Until him.
A beautiful boy.
A beautiful savior.
Though I did not want saving.
Saved by a boy,
I'll never see again.
I saw him!
Today, he walked by.
He said "hello."
To me.
He said "hello" to me.
Waved and looked at me.
And said "hello."
As if I were important.
As if I were special.
As if I mattered.
The stranger's name is Edward.
He already knew mine.
I don't know how.
He says that he wants to make me smile.
Why? I don't know.
He says I carry too much sadness in my eyes.
He asks me why.
I shake my head.
He smiles.
His eyes are bright.
His world is happy.
He's special; I'm not.
He wishes me a good day.
Today it almost happened again.
I stood in the road and waited.
And there he was again.
My savior.
He pulled me away from the street.
He held me closely.
Called me foolish.
Told me I was stupid.
I told him I was not special.
Undeserving of his attention.
He shook his head.
And kissed me.
Today is my birthday.
And I am not alone.
I have Edward.
He calls me beautiful.
Calls me wonderful.
Tells me he needs me.
Tells me he wants me.
Tells me I belong here.
Tells me he loves me.
I am needed.
I am necessary.
I am welcomed.
I am needed.
I am loved.