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She won't cry.
Regina Mills will not let herself cry.
But her heart is breaking and she falls to her knees as traitorous tears start falling down her cheeks.
He's dead.
Robin Hood is dead.
Her Soulmate, the one who was supposed to be her happy ending is gone forever.
Her mind is a mess, she cannot think clearly nor understand what is happening around her, all she knows that she's spinning and Robin's gone and she cannot lose love again yet she already lost him. Hades erased his soul, the soul that was meant to stay with her forever.
There's definitely something happening around her, she hears Zelena screaming and Hades is shouting and the smell of magic is all around her and she recalls that it was her who was supposed to die, and she must protect herself, but what's the reason in protecting herself and staying alive if Robin is gone?
Instead of fighting and trying to save herself, she cradles his lifeless body close to her chest as she cries and sobs and remembers how half the century ago she held Daniel like this, how she screamed to the Gods to save him and they turned their backs to her, they left her with the lifeless body and a bleeding heart.
She'll not repeat her own story.
She will not lose love again.
She's going to save Robin or die with him.
Quickly she pushes her own hand inside her chest and the pain is unbelievable, it has never been a pleasant experience (it has, that one time when Robin pushed her heart back inside her chest, he was so gentle, even the memory of it has her crying even harder) but she doesn't have time for gentle and slow, she pulls the organ out with such force that her own hands start to shake.
For a moment she stares at her heart with a mad expression, thinks that she's so close to ending her own misery. Life has proven time and time again that she's not worth to live, and it would be so easy to end it now, now that she's miserable again but there's Robin's body in front of her, and he has a son, and if her son has another mother, his doesn't, and Roland already lost his mother, she'll not let that boy lose his father too.
So she splits her own heart into two just like she did Snow White's, her hands shaking madly, and pushes one piece into Robin's chest while the other goes right back where it belongs.
She gasps loudly when the heart or what is left of it returns to its place, and emotions wash over her and she looks down at Robin because he should be awake by now. He should be alive.
But he isn't.
He doesn't breathe, he doesn't open his eyes.
It didn't work.
Another wave of tears washes over Regina's face as she runs her hands all over his face, calling his name. She strokes his cheeks the way he used to stroke hers, she touches his already cold lips and kisses him, and whispers, "Come back to me."
She runs her fingers through his hair, her tears falling down on his face as she begs him not to leave her.
Unexpectedly someone touches her and she remembers that she's not alone, that there was a battle happening only moments ago and it's Zelena who's touching her. Regina quickly shakes that hand away and turns to look over her shoulder with burning rage. That witch should be dead, not Robin.
All of a sudden there's a fireball in her palm and she throws it straight to Zelena and then another one and one more and the witch is screaming and Regina thinks that she'll kill her, she wants to kill her. She'll haunt that bitch until she's made sure Zelena's burning in hell.
But Zelena disappears in a cloud of green smoke and Regina wants to follow her, wants to kill her instantly but she cannot leave Robin. There will be plenty of time to kill that witch, but Robin… his body won't be here forever.
Regina cradles him close to her chest again and cries. And cries. And cries.
She doesn't know how much time pass and she feels so tired, she doesn't have strength to hold herself up anymore, she thinks she will just lie down beside Robin and stay with him for as long as she can but then suddenly lightness wash over them and Robin's lifeless body becomes tensed. Regina holds him tighter, thinks he'll disappear from her hold, but then he gasps.
His gasp is echoed by Regina's as she blinks her eyes repeatedly and pulls away from him, finds him looking at her confusedly, his deep blue eyes watering as her own vision becomes blurred.
"You brought me back, Regina," he whispers and the tears are falling down his cheeks and she's crying too, and he sounds breathless and very weak but it's the most amazing sound she's heard in a really long time.
"Robin," she whispers back and all of a sudden all the rage and heartbreak she felt are gone. All she can feel is relief as she holds him close to her heart and sobs.
He wraps his arms around her in an attempt to hug her and his hold is weak but she's holding him tight, as she cries and he cries too and whispers that he loves her, something he's never said before, into her hair and Regina returns the sentiment as she holds the love of her life in her embrace.
That day she promises herself to do whatever it takes to protect him.
And she keeps her word.
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