Too Much, Too Late

Jade- This is one I wrote last year and lost before I got a chance to type it.

Soda- She made a few minor changes on it...

Jade- Oh and, I am totally redoing Taking Sides. I liked writing the story from the beginning but with the messed up format and everything..

Soda- Now she's doing it using bigger words, more detail, taking the corny stuff out and changing Kate's character a bit.

Disclaimer- If I own anything please let me know.

XOXOX

Pony's POV

I sat on the bed, hoping and praying to awake from this terrible nightmare I seemed to be trapped in.

It's been a week since Johnny and Dally's deaths. It hurts something terrible. I feel guilty for living when they didn't get to. I know Dally really had nothing to live for without Johnny. His whole purpose for living was to love and protect Johnny. He told me so himself..

Johnny says it was worth it to save the kids. At least those kids were loved by their parents. They had a bright future ahead. Johnny made a sacrifice and died with no regrets.

I remember clearly the words he said at the lot after Cherry and Marcia left with Bob and Randy. I remember so well because the same exact words are now my own thoughts.

"I can't take much more of this. I'll kill myself or something."

I can almost hear Johnny's voice echoing through my head. Johnny's voice isn't all I hear. I also hear Dallas telling me "Get tough like me... and nothing can touch you." Was he referring I go beyond the point of caring? I know he was...

Soda stumbled in at that moment and my gaze snapped up to meet his. His eyes seemed to have lost some of their usual glow. He seemed drained, hopeless and tired. He flopped down on the bed and his eyes were closed before his head could hit the pillow.

I crept silently over to the desk, grabbing my switchblade before I shut myself into the bathroom. I sat on the edge of the tub and flicked open the switch. I slowly turned the blade around, watching with fascination as the light bounced off the silver blade. I brought the blade to my wrist, feeling the cool metal and seeing the silver contrast with my pale skin. Applying a steady amount of pressure I began to trace lazy designs in my skin. I relished in the way it took away my pain. The distraction from reality. My cure.

There was a knock on the bathroom door... I didn't have time to react before Soda came in. I could feel the horror in his eyes as I brought the blade up in the air, licking my blood off of it.

"Pony! Don't!" he cried as he took a step forward, lunging for the blade. I brought the blade down hard, feeling the blood pour out of my slit wrist.

"Too Late..." I whispered before darkness tugged at my mind.

XOXOX

Jade- I don't think I'm gonna kill him..

Soda- I hate you, Jade..

Jade- I know, it's the classic, 'You killed my loved one.' I've heard it before Soda.

Soda- Review and make her update... Then we can find out if she killed my kid brother or not...