You never know what it is that you have gotten yourself into until you are in far to deep for your liking and like a fool I bought into Snow's wicked games by volunteering for death that I would later find out is to no avail .

I am glad I did volunteer though for the Prims' sake because if I hadn't I would deep down inside hate myself to no end for just standing their like an idiot when I know I could do something to help her , but even that was a ploy that was spit back in my face that I realized yesterday on me and Peeta's first night coming home from the Capitol .

Cato has Peeta in a headlock before I can blink but something is very wrong by the way Cato is smiling at me like the devil , it was then that I noticed Peeta was out of my sight and I started panicking even more when blood appears all over the cornucopia . I check to see if I have been hit somewhere and was to num to feel it in this brutal cold weather , but I don't even have a scratch on me so where did this blood come from ?

PEETA ! I can now see him clearly along with the shiny pool of blood starting to pool up near his neck. He can't be dead ! But I know he is by the way he is as still as a rock and I can tell that Cato killed him , now it's just me and him .

Suddenly Cato has a hold on my neck so tight that not even the chilling wind can bring peace to and I know that it's over , I'm done with life , but in a last ditch effort I scream at the top of my lungs over and over until Cato starts yelling

"Katniss wake up ... Katniss please get up ... NOW !"

To say i fall out of bed is an understatement , I tumbled out of bed only to look up to meet the prettiest blue eyes of my once dead district partner Peeta Mellark . Instantly I leap up from my previous location of the floor to stand on my feet so that I can check for any signs of injuries around his neck . Without thinking of how weird my actions are I have my hands all over his neck and head where the pool of blood was collecting .

I can tell once I've calmed down that Peeta looks shocked and worried , but who could blame him when Katniss Everdeen the toughest girl in district 12 showed some affection for her fellow partner ? What am I supposed to tell him , I don't want him to think I've lost my mind ? Ooh I know !

" Look I-I'm really sorry about that , it's just that I had to know that you were alright , that you weren't really dead ." their I said it .

He looks at me with a loss of words for a few seconds before he regained his senses and said " Why would I be dead ?"

" B-Because I saw you die in my nightmare and all I could do was just stand there and watch Cato kill you just like he would have done to me after you woke me up ."

" So I'm not the only one with those , how should I put this ... Hellish slumbers ."

" There is no way my brain would let me get away without having that much fun and I know that it's only going to get worse over time , so much that I don't know if I will be able to handle it , I should have just died in the arena " As soon as those words leave my mouth I regret it .

" Katniss if you would have died in the arena I would have died with you just like I know you would have for me , but I'm grateful that I was able to go into the games with you even if it was only to have one conversation and now look at us we are a mess together know we can fix if we help each other push away from the darkness Snow has filled life's with ."

" Okay sounds good with me "

" so I'll be in my room if you need me , goodnight "

"Wait !" I grab onto his warm hand that feels so good on my ghostly cold skin. " Stay with me , please ? " I say it so weakly from the strength I'm used to having in my voice .

" Always "

He climbs into the bed and pulls me into his warm comforting embrace that makes me feel a sense of safety I haven't felt scince being in the cave minus the fever and worry of how we are going to die . We fall asleep right after that and sleep a peaceful night knowing that we can lean on each other for comfort .

Happy new year ! 2013 already ?!

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