This feeling, emotion whatever you want to call it…I'm not stranger to it. But now?It felt like I was dying ten times over. The crushing feeling on my chest, the pounding in my head, the tears welling up, threatening to overspill, can't breath, can't see, can't…anything but feel the pain. It is…overwhelming. You would think that after being alive for so long, and almost dying so many times, I'd be used to this.

But this wasn't normal. This wasn't the result of a battle or war, the result of torture. Hell, this wasn't even physical. I myself wasn't hurt, but him. He...he's dying and I don't know what to do. I-I'm sure he's be just fine; you can't just take over one half of a nation. It doesn't work that way. Right? Right?

I'm trying to think of a time when only half a nation was taken away and crushed, but…it doesn't happen. Sure, one half of a nation can be taken away and put under the control of someone different than the other half, but to destroy a nation and make it smaller? That's never happened. When Russia was in control of the Soviet Union, he never actually took anyone over, per say.

I'm searching now trying to locate my lover. Where is he? Where? THERE! I find myself scrambling over rocks and dirt. Where are we? This barren wasteland, I've never seen it before. The sun beats down on us and oh, oh my. He's bruised and bloody and flies are going for him. No. I need to save him. I stumble over the sharp rocks, but I'm not getting any closer. He...he can't be alone for this, he needs me. I shout his name, He's moving away so fast. Please...STOP!

"LOVIIIIII!" I scream, waking with a start sweating and shivering at once. My heart is racing, panicking. Was it…was it all just a dream?

I feel a hand pull me back down. I twist to meet the hazel eyes that I know and love so much. They glare for a moment before softening. Lovi places a kiss in the crook of my neck.

"Relax. I-I'm right here," he murmured into my neck. I pull him tight against me, not wanting him to disappear. "I'm not going anywhere. I-I'll always be here…a-and don't you go forgetting it, bastard." I feel his cheeks heat up and I smile into his hair.

"I love you, too, Lovi."