A/N: Yes... I know, I'm kind of a story whore, jumping from one story to another like I do! But I can't help it! All the ideas distract my writings and then I've grabbed a clean sheet of paper and have already started. I'll do my best to keep up with my death note and this one and my mobile suit gundam seed destiny and tsubasa fics I'm about to put up. I've finished all my big school projects already and am now dying to write. So I absolutely loooove Usagi and Misaki! When Misaki cries FOR Usagi.. Aw-door-able. Nothing cutier than an erotica writer and a boy whose too small for his age. They make me squeal with fangirldem! Well I've got the notice that I've been evidect from my house today.. boo~ so sorry if updates don't happen quick enough.. But it's all good~

Chapter One Loveless

Betrayal can only happen if you're in love (John Le Carre). If Usagi were to ever lie to me I'd want him to tell me. If he were to cheat on me I'd want to hear it from his lips. If he fell out of love with me I'd want to be the first to know.

No matter how it may seem I love that bastard and I would be an emotional wreck if he left me. I think it's time to play good before he becomes bored of me. I hope he doesn't mind the change of pace.

Usagi's large hand ruffling my already messy enough hair makes me cringe from the sudden contact. He pulls his cigarette out of his mouth and puts it out on the ash tray. "The look on your face was too serious."

I can't fight the smile that tugs at my lips as his beams down at me. There's no doubt in my mind that all the love and affection from those eyes is for me.

He sets a novel down on the coffee table infront of me, 'Misaki the Misfit'. "Baka! Quit using me!"

Usagi's eyes flicker with amusement. "You don't like being my muse?"

Well when he says it like that... "No!" I can't help the outbursts, affection it automatically changed into aggression in my mind. What a horrible quirk.

His loud, deep chuckle rolls out of his mouth like nothing can bother him. He toys with his cigarette in the ashtray, gazing at me with those sezy, glazed over eyes. He sweeps his hair to the side and a small smirk appears on his lips. I squeak as one of his favorite pass times is being put into motion.

Usagi stretches and glances at the watch on his wrist, it must not be a time that I can argue my way out of like last time because he's pleased with what it shows. He slowly moves so that he is over me and I'm laying back on the couch. His icy cold hands pin my quaking hands over my head. "Misaki..." his hushed voice calm me as he begins to slowly massage his lips against mine. His teeth devour my upper lip, licking and sucking until they become plump and ripe. Unknown noises escape the contours of my mouth as Usagi's teeth clamp over my plump lips. I squirm under him as he tugs, teasing my mouth with his tongue. He slides the very tip of it in before he pulls it back out. He was trying to get me to play his game of dominance which any other day wouldn't work.

I spread my lips wide against his until they encompass his entire mouth. I begin to suck and the pleasure causes Usagi to emit sounds of approval. His tongue slowly but surely snakes it's way into the waiting depths of my mouth. It was caught mid-suck and my lips close over it. "Aah Misaki..." I rub my teeth gently against it making him jolt. One of his oversized hands finds it's way up my shirt and starts pulling on one of my nipples causing me to gasp making a 'pop' noise as my moist mouth disconnects from his swollen tongue. Usagi removes each of our shirts and then rolls his thumb over one of my hard nibs making me shiver. My eyes flutter shut when his mouth finds the other nub he wasn't toying with. I didn't even try to hold back any noises my mouth decided to make. He coated both of my nubs in his own saliva when they became an angry red color from his touching.

The unzipping of pants jolts me back into reality. My quaking resumes more violently than ever. "U-Usagi-san..." No matter how many times we did this it still hurt everytime, Usagi blamed it on my 'tight buttocks'. He must've mistaken my shaking for gooey, orgasmic shudders because his undressing became fiercer.

He spun me over and my ribs dug into the cushions. He raised me up onto my knees and tears sting at my eyes for what is about to come. He violently pounds into me with his nails breaking into my flash. "Nngh! Usagi-san! I'm begging you to stop!" He ignores my plees and assaults my ass with his too large to comprehend cock.

When he has his release he lets me drop and he gets up and goes to his room, slamming the door behind him making my tears break free. He apparently wasn't into cuddling anymore. He made me feel so dirty and replaceable. Ever since he'd quite telling me he loves me during these intimant momants I only feel pain but when he would tell me all I'd feel was the white hot pleasure.

Usagi had been actigin strange for about a month now. He's been so cold and unkind to me. He won't even touch me unless it'll lead him were he wants, sex. My heart was breaking off one small piece at a time. At this rate I'll become as cold and heartless as Usagi.

Everything was cruel now, even a genuine smile had a cruel undertone. He's starting to scare me and I just don't know how much longer I can stay here like this. Weren't lovers suppose to love and care for each other always? Atleast those were his words when I had refused to hold his hand in publis. It had worked on me than, I wonder if it would work on him now.

I just want to Usagi I love back...

A/N: Sigh. Yes, I know Usagi is being a bitchhoe. Which actually makes Misaki want more affection since he's getting zero. Poor Misaki... Makes Kri-kun teary!