Hey Everyone
My name is Moon and I am new to the fanfiction writing world! I finally got the courage to update this story after months of pondering if I could actually write it. You see eating disorders and self harm in the form of starvation is a concept close to home. Growing in a world where magazines and TV are constantly telling us how to look and act is tough. I just wanted a story to remind everyone they're not alone while always shining a light on the reality of the situation.
But yes this story is all fiction. So read, comment, and follow
Till next time, Moon
Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN NARUTO. (but I offer a dozen donuts…)
It all started with that one word.
Fat.
That stupid, hideous word, that I couldn't for the life of me get off my mind.
I didn't realize just how destructive people could be, myself in particular.
They say that as we get older we stop fearing the monsters that hide under of beds and begin to fear the monsters in our heads. That's true, because day by day I became the monster that I feared. With every evil word I wrote or said to myself, I turned into someone that wasn't even recognisable to me or to my friends.
All because of that one word.
My name is Sakura Haruno and I let myself go because of that one word. This is my story.
Chapter One
"Sakura, it's time for school, get up!" I groaned and rolled over to my other side. My mom had starting calling for me at least half an hour ago but I really didn't want to leave the comfort of my bed.
Sighing in defeat though, I stretched out my back and pulled myself out of bed, only to grimace at what I saw in the mirror. How my hair stuck up that way every morning was a scientific mystery. Then again the bubble gum pink color of my hair was also a mystery, so it kind of made sense. I worked a brush through the shoulder length pink locks and began my morning routine. Brush teeth, wash face, put on concealer and mascara, and go change.
The leaves had just started to change color, meaning autumn weather was around the corner. I decided to wear some black leggings with a white t-shirt and a jean jacket, just in case the temperature dropped, liked it normally would in the afternoon.
Slipping on my gray, laced boots I made my way to the kitchen were the smell of pancakes drowned my senses.
"Smells great mom! Thanks for breakfast!" She gave my smile as she handed me a packed lunch. Her hair was pulled back in a sleek blonde ponytail and she had on her favorite shade of lipstick. That meant a big day in the office.
"I don't have to be at the office till noon so I decided why not send you with some treats today." I nodded in agreement, giving her a cheeky smile before digging in to my favourite food.
"Okay, well I'm off, want me to make dinner tonight?" I asked her. Going to the office at noon meant I wouldn't be seeing her for the rest of the day.
"Um, nah. I'll just pick something up. Why not go out to dinner with Ino?"
I planted a quick kiss on her cheek, "Sure thing!"
The walk to school was peaceful like always. I go to Leaf Academy, which is found in the center of the ever bustling downtown of Konoha. The city itself, is beautiful. Trees line all the sidewalks and it's surrounded but a lush forest and river. The cherry blossom garden can take anyone's breath away and the city was known for being a relatively safe place to live in. As long as you don't travel to the wrong parts of town that is.
I reached the school in record time, my group of friends already sitting at the steps at the entrance of the school, our usual spot.
The school looked more like mansion, well that's what is was years prior to it becoming the academy. The classrooms were set up in all the grand bedrooms and the dining hall fir the vast population of students that attended. The ballroom was used as a concert hall and the bathrooms had been renovated to fit everyone's needs.
It didn't take long for my best friend Ino to spot me amongst the crowd.
"Sakura, over here!" I rolled my eyes.
"You don't need to call to me Ino, we stand at the same spot every day." She let out a huff.
"Well excuse me for just trying to be friendly." I stuck out my tongue at her, causing our two other friends, Hinata and Tenten to start laughing.
"You two seriously go at it every morning!" Tenten exclaimed, and Hinata nodded in agreement.
"I-its true, n-never a single morning without s-some kind of fight."
Ino shrugged her shoulders before throwing an arm around me "I guess it's just what makes us best friends! We have the ability to make fun of each other while still loving each other. Right bill-board brow?"
"That's right Ino-pig!" That got us all into hysterics and also got the attention of one loud-mouth blonde haired boy.
"Now what's got you lovely ladies all happy this morning?" Naruto said, his smiling broadening with each step closer he came to his beloved girlfriend, Hinata. They were honestly the cutest couple. While Hinata had dark hair, pale skin and lavender colored eyes, Naruto had bright blonde hair, ocean blue eyes and a light tan that set off his features even more. It was like he was day and she was night, they completed each other.
"Ino and Sakura just being there usual selves." Tenten said with a shrug, her eyes already spotting Neji in the crowd. They had been best friends for as long as anyone can remember, but only recently had they both realized they wanted to be more than that. Tenten was crushing hard, but so far no action but some light flirting had taken place. Ino was sure he would make a move soon though, since Shikumaru confirmed the feelings between the two were mutual.
Ah Shikumaru. Ino's rock and probably the only constant guy in her life. If she would just look passed all the douche bags and idiots with nice hair and realize just how amazing they would be together. Her life would be far less hectic and dramatic if they got together, since Shikumaru was as calm as a cloud. But then again, Ino lived and breathed drama. The shock of a normal life might be too much for her. I say that with love.
Walking behind Neji and Shikumaru, with his usual calm expression was Sasuke. He was Naruto's best friend, the object of most the female student bodies affections and came from a prestigious family. But most importantly, he was the boy I was falling in love with. His raven black hair was spiked at the back, letting his bangs fall over his eyes just slightly. Oh man, his eyes though were as dark as the night sky but every once in a while, when he was in a really good mood, you could see a glint of something else, like a silver color that reminded me of starts. He was wearing a casual black v-neck and dark wash jeans that only seemed to show off his muscles even more.
To me he was a dream guy, my dream guy to be exact.
He was also my best friend. Which complicated things just a bit.
"Hey guys, what's up?" Ino said breaking me out of my thoughts as the guys took their regular spots next to us.
"Tired." Came Shikumaru's response. He was always tired. Laziness seemed to be the one quality of his that he perfected. But don't get me wrong, the kids a genius. Ino just rolled her eyes, pulling out her phone to answer one of the million texts she gets in a day. Shikuamaru took the seat next to her, and put his head on her lap. I didn't even know if Ino realized it, but she began running a hand through his long brown hair that he had up in a pony-tail.
I turned to Sasuke as a conversation started up with everyone, with Naruto at the center of attention.
"How are you?"
"Hn."
"We talked about that, Hn is not a response."
"Aa."
"You being serious right now?"
"…"
I put my head in my hands, Till about 10:00, Sasuke refused to have a proper conversation with anyone, much to my annoyance.
I could hear him chuckle at my frustration but refused to acknowledge him. Deciding just to listen to Naruto till it was time to go in. I got kind of bored of his story though and just leaned my head against Sasuke's shoulder. He didn't give any recognition to the fact, except for moving in a way to make it more comfortable for me.
Soon enough it was time for first period and Tenten and Neji headed off to Advanced Calculus while the rest of us made our way to English with everyone's favorite teacher, Kakashi-sensei.
Why is he everyone's favorite? Because he's always late.
"You busy afterschool Ino?" She shook her head no, as we took our seats. "Okay, cool. Want to get a bite to eat then after?"
"Mom working late?"
"Yeap! So I'm bored and alone!"
"Then have no fear, Sakura my dear! Me, you, Hinata and Tenten will go out to an amazing dinner tonight."
Naruto's head popped out from Hinata's side. "Hey can me and Teme join?"
Ino rolled her baby blue eyes, "I guess but only if Hinata agrees!"
I started to giggle, "Everyone knows she won't say no to Naruto."
Ino shrugged, "You never no."
Naruto turned to his girl friend, and giving his best puppy dog eyes asked, "Can I please, please come?"
Hinata blushed, hiding her smile behind her hand she nodded.
"Yay! We get to eat fancy food tonight Teme!" Naruto shouted throwing an arm around Hinata, making her blush even more.
"Hn, shut it dobe you're too loud."
"Stop being such a meanie Sasuke or Sakura will stop talking to you!"
I put my hands up, "I am not getting involved."
Sasuke chuckled, but suddenly stopped and began glaring. I followed his line of vision to see what got his so pissed all of a sudden. Karin was walking down the aisle towards us, in particular him.
Karin was Sasuke's number one fan girl and probably the most annoying girl on the planet. Her bright red hair was gelled out and her clothes were always way too tight. Her 'friends' followed her around, never really doing much without Karin's permission. It was sickening.
"Hey Sasuke! How are you today?" she said, coming up right in front of his desk, which also happened to be next to mine.
"Hn." He turned to look away from her, but she blocked his him and leaned over the desk, obviously trying to show off her cleavage.
"I was wondering if you wanted to go out for dinner tonight? Daddy bought a new restaurant and I'd love for you to try it out." Sasuke clenched his jaw before responding.
"No."
"But Sasuke-"
"He can't go out, he already has plans with us Karin." She was driving me nuts, normally I don't interfere but today she was giving me a headache. She narrowed her gaze at me.
"Oh really? I'm sure he has time for dinner."
Ino spoke up next, from behind Karin. "His plans are for dinner Karin. So why don't you just go?"
It was obvious Karin was getting agitated by all the put downs.
"I'm sure Sasuke would rather eat with me."
"No Karin I wouldn't." Sasuke spoke up, "so just go sit down."
I smirked in triumph at the quick way Sasuke let her down. Karin clenched her fist, okay she was pissed. I gave her a little wave, signaling for her to go but she wanted to have the last word. And she did.
"Fine, maybe another time Sasuke. But really Sakura should you even be considering dinner when you're looking that fat."