Slow Dancing in a Burning Room
Jim never saw himself as a jerk. Sure, he had jerk-like moments… Dwight could vouch him for that. But he never thought he could be a jerk to women. He grew up in a house where women were queens and should be treated with respect. He treated Pam like garbage… Pam. His best friend. And now Karen. He dated Karen simply because she was there. She was a replacement person. She was the replacement for Pam. Jim kind of hated himself for it. Why date someone if the feeling wasn't 100 percent mutual?It's
not a silly little moment
It's
not the storm before the calm
This
is the deep and dying breath of
This
love we've been working on
Sometimes, whenever Jim was bored at the office, he would sneak glances at Pam out of the corner of his eye and wonder if she was thinking of him. The last time he did, Roy came in and Jim got pepper sprayed in the face by Dwight. That was the end of that.
Can't
seem to hold you like I want to
So
I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's
gonna come and save you
We
pulled too many false alarms
Karen was the one who suggested he cut his hair for the corporate job. He didn't like it. In the back of his mind, he could hear the combination of himself and Pam saying, Wow… you could pass for Dwight's cousin. "Hi, my name is Jim. I'm an accountant."
We're
going down
And
you can see it too
We're
going down
And
you know that we're doomed
My
dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
Karen rolled over and whispered, "Jim. It's one in the morning. You OK?"
Jim
stood up and grabbed a pair of jeans from off the chair by the door.
"I'm gonna go for a drive. Clear my head."
I
was the one you always dreamed of
You
were the one I tried to draw
How
dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby,
you're the only light I ever saw
Jim
drove around Scranton, thinking of all the things he could do. Maybe
if I take I-81 to I-83 and get on the Turnpike, I can drive to
Philadelphia and get a cheese steak. Mmm. Cheese steak. The
entire time he drove Scranton, he thought about Pam… and cheese
steaks. Maybe someday Pam and I will go to Philadelphia and get
cheese steaks, he thought. I don't need that job in New
York.
I'll
make the most of all the sadness
You'll
be a bitch because you can
You
try to hit me just to hurt me
So
you leave me feeling dirty
Because
you can't understand
We're
going down
And
you can see it too
We're
going down
And
you know that we're doomed
Next thing he knew, Jim was in Pam's neighborhood. Great, now I'm Jim the accountant-slash-stalker. He slowly drove by Pam's house. You dumbass, she's not going to be awake.
But Pam was awake. She was in her kitchen, wearing a pink fuzzy robe and her hair up in a messy bun. She was leaning against the island in her kitchen, a glass of water behind her and a gold medal from the office games in her hands. And she looked like she was singing.
Jim recognized what Pam was singing, because he was singing it too:
"My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room"
Jim put his car in drive and drove back on the main road. He missed her. He missed the fun they had. He missed things like the office games. He missed the pranks they pulled on Dwight. But maybe Pam didn't want to miss those things anymore.
Go
cry about it, why don't you?
Go
cry about it, why don't you?
Go
cry about it, why don't you?
My
dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
The good guy in Jim that had been suppressed for the past couple of months came out. C'mon man. Karen deserves better. Hell, Pam deserves better. You didn't go to her freaking art show, the one no one went to. You were her best friend and now you're just an ass.
Jim had to pull over. He placed his hands on the top of the steering wheel and leaned his forehead against it. It was too much thinking at 1:32 in the morning right before the biggest interview of his life. He let out a sigh, sat up straight, and started driving back to the apartment with the replacement woman. He had to make things right.
Don't
you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we
shoulda learned somehow?
