A/N This is for HedwigBlack's Song Lyric Competition! My lyric is: "You want to see me disappear, well, it starts here. Trying my best just to say what you don't want to hear. But it's all right. You can cover your, cover your ears." from World Away by Emery.
Before: "This is a joke. There's no way this is true. This is just an illusion, right? He wouldn't do this to me."
"Don't you dare touch me!" he recoiled, like she burned him.
"Lissa, I'm sorry! How many times do I have to say that I'm sorry?" she wasn't listening to his pleading. Her face stayed stony.
"Don't call me that! You do not have the right to call me that! You can say sorry all you please. How could you do this to me? How? Was I not good enough for you? Was I not good enough for the great Sirius bloody Black? I eat like a fucking rabbit to try to be good enough for you, I try my hardest to be who you want me to be, who everybody expects the girlfriend of you to be. Did I not do enough?" she was adding emphasis to nearly everything she said, trying to hurt him.
"Lissa, you know it's not true. You know it's not. You've always been good enough, you know that!" he angered her even more.
"Really? How could I know it's not? While you're off doing whatever the fuck you're doing with that slag, did you even think about me? Even once? Of course you didn't. You're Sirius Black! You can do whatever you please and nobody will do a double take! 'Cause you're just perfect, aren't you? You're so perfect you think you can go off with whoever you want to go off with and your poor little nobody girlfriend will just sit here and take you back!" her words hit him like a slap across the face.
"Lissa. Stop. You know I don't think that-" she sharply interrupted him. Her voice was growing louder.
"You can't tell me what to do! I'm not going to sit here with you telling me this shit while I don't know what you're thinking because I can't trust you to tell me. Was this your plan all along? To break me? To get me to trust you? I tried my hardest to fight against you, but I finally gave in because I thought you would be different. I thought you would be different. How stupid could I be? Honestly. I wish that I had never given in, and listened to the tiny voice in my head that told me that you wouldn't be different. You were just going to hurt me." she tried to catch his eyes, but he was intent on avoiding looking at her. He knew exactly what she was doing, and he was trying his hardest not to let it get to him. "It's okay though; you can just cover your ears and run away. Like you always do."
She knew just what to say to hurt him.
"I am different! I don't run-" he fought back. She scoffed.
"Like hell you are! You know what? I'm done. I'm just… I'm done with you." he grabbed her hand, and she spun back around. She shifted her gaze to a spot on his forehead. His eyes were not going to pull her back in.
"Is this wanted you wanted? You could've just ended it."
"I don't want it to end! That's my point here, Lissa! I don't want to lose you!" he pleaded and pleaded, but she wouldn't listen.
"Bull. Shit. You wanted me to disappear? I'm gone."